GEORGI!! come here!

Oh.....my.......gosh....Georgi....::disappointed face:: I'm so verry verrrrrrry disappointed in you, love....you could do better. tsk tsk tsk!! lol!
OH SWIZZLE KRISTEN!! lol!!!!!

Hahahahahahahhahaha the tampon conversation! omg, I can't wait to talk to you AGAIN! lol!!

GEORGI THAT"S FANTASTIC!!!!!! Wait....lol!!! So you're just SEEING him, like face to face, or you're like seeing him as in..you're going on a date or you're dating?? lol!! *confusion* It's amazing how I turn the simplist of phrases into complicated matters, lol!!!

~Sierra

__MEATBALL HOAGIE#2, GEORGI!_

lol!!

Hi Angel - I'm missing you lots here and just wanted you to know. I sent Georgi some of your pictures I made of you. I think there should be a SPECIAL PLACE HERE FOR ALL MEATBALL HOAGIES that have assholes for stepfathers and make their stepkids feel bad. They probably are like yours and I should get the privilege of dealing with them for the other girls.I love letting him know he is nothing when he degrades you and Savannah. I think he just needs a penis transplant then maybe we could be sure he is a man. They are a wimp of a man who trys to make you guys feel like you're nothing and they're faggets for talking to you all with no compassion. See I could get them because Sierra's Nana don't have to be good. I'll be nice now. LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NANA

Eww.........*throws up*

I'd rather steer away from Mark's..manlihood.....ewwwww, Nanaaaa!!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! EWWWW!!!!!

That's worse than dad saying that tickle your pickle is a bad saying, lol!!

The basic idea was nice..

Ohhh..nooo, Nana...you'll have to keep whatever is in store for him...IN storage, lol....simmer down, simmer down, lol!! I love you Nana.

Hey, Kristen, hahahaha I love you lots!
~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

Hey pplz! im depressed :(
Hey sierras nana, did u say u sent them by post?

~from a depressed MBH#1

hey kristen baby :) xxx

Good Morning dear one - why oh why are you so depressed. I sent you some pictures of Sierra by email. Just remember the ole lady don't do too good with her hands and I did not scan them well. Sorry.

I feel so bad hearing you young girls upset all the time and it is always about some stupid men. I'm telling you I'll come and cut their talleywaggers off I will - that will teach them a thing or too and I hope Ms. Georgi gets a smile on her face. Sierra sleeps a lot in the morning late so do I really but I hope everything works out ok with you. Love you bunches "Sierra's Nana"

im ok now, was just upset about some things. had some things on my mind.
omg thanku for the pictures! i just opened them! OMG SIERRA is so stunning i am SO jealous
and tht song u sent me!! tht is just hysterical i wet myself laughing!

xxxxxxx

OOOOOH SHUT UP! lol!!! OMG......what pictures did you send Nana? lol!!!!! Georgi you gotta show them to me on Bebo or something, lol!!

Glad you're better hun.

Oh...and I really don't sleep in late anymore thanks to Dad's 9 AM wake up calls! GRRRRRRRR!!

And Double Grrrr to this!::

Mrhockeymann: sweet message, huh?

Auto response from LonelyOne2Night: Sleeping!
Leave a sweet message please!!

~Sierra

Mrhockeymann: i love you, sierra!
Mrhockeymann: you'll always be in my heart
Mrhockeymann: i'm off to bed to dream of your angelic voice, your perfect face, and those gorgeous blue eyes!
Mrhockeymann: i hope you're having sweet dreams, my angel!
Mrhockeymann signed off at 5:56:22 AM.

Oh my....he doesn't even know how hurt I am..and then he goes and does this!!! Why does he make this sooo harrdd????/ lol!!!

I have to keep telling myself not to love him....he's just too damn sweet though!!

~Sierra

WHAT SONG DID YOU SEND HER NANA?????????? HAHAHAHAHA

__Meatball hoagie#2__

GEORGI YOU FORGOT TO SIGN!!!! *GASP* OOOH--NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sierra! I DONT LIKE HIM. he is a wolly moo. PLEASE block him from ur life! u do not deserve to be hurting like yu are, he is a selfish shit if he thinks he can keep saying these things to u ESPECIALLY AS HE HAS A GF! OMG WHT A LITTLE SHIT. thats it, im gonna get him. why dont u fnd out emmas email and send her all the sweet things he says to u?! heheheheha mwuahaahahhaah

~georgi
MBH #1

HHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA LMFAO!! She prolly wouldn't care..she'd just be like, "oh I know! He's adorable isn't he?" and i'd be like, Uh...yeah....*idiot* lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Funny thing was I JUST showed Nikki that too, and she was like right...i hate him. lol! I was like WHY!!!??? THAT WAS SWEET!! And it wasn't even like I asked him to write that! He just did.

HE IS A WOLLY WHAT? loLALLAALALjfdafjdjakljfdsaj WHAT"S A WOLLY MOO?????

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

If I had your email address I'd send to you. I sent her the pictures we took while you were here which I told you I was going to do because I think they're beautiful. Love you! Nana

sorry posted twice

thanks Nana..and I do have an email address! I even sent you an email..like yesterday or something!

angelofignorance@yahoo.com

that's the one! send send seeend away, nana! lol!!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

P.s. You post here a lot too, Nana..you need a nickname from the meatball hoagie club!!! lol!!!!! Nickname away, Georgi! and don't hold back, lol!

Cuz you're...coooooool, aren't you, Nana?? lol!!!!!!!!!! :-D

Yeah buddy!

yay! ok nanas meatball hoagie name is "Nana Ferret twinkle blossum" I now proclaim that u are part of our group! hehe!

and yes omg sierra u are SO STUNNING.

and as for Zac, well, he can go sit in a pool of pickle juice ALL BY HIMSELF cause i dont like him. stupid boy playing u like that. ill teach him a thing or two, lemmie at him! LEMMIE AT HIM!!!

ill try and put them on bebo, but i dont think they are "jpeg" or whatever...ill try right now! :)

r u online?
i want a name!!!!!!!

~georgi
MBH#1

Huh!?? You already have a name..lol!

Yes, I'm online right now!

And thank you! lol!!!!!!!

God I'm hyper....but ew...i feel sick! I had the BIGGEST double cheeseburger on the face of this earth like 10 minutes ago..oi....i feel sick, lol!! I barely could eat it!! fjda;f f ewww...no more cheeseburgers or hotdogs for me...ever....AGAIN! lol!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

no i mean i want a better name, other than meatball hoagie number one, but then i thought about this concept, and realized tht i actually dont want a name
Lol
~georgo
mbh#1

LMFAO! i mean georgi

HAHAHAHHAHA GEORGO!! lol!!! WOOT WOOT!

lol!!!! You're stranngeee....but absolutely hysterical and fun to be around!! You rock my socks off! Thanks 4 getting AIM for me!!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

ur very welcome! next time tell me before u leave the chat and i continue having a convo with "Lonelyonetonight is no longer signed on" over and over again!!!!! lmao!!!!!

~georgi
MBH#1

HAHAHAAHAHAI COULDN"T HELP IT! lol!!!!! It told me the connection was lost, and then my computer got all screwy and I had to restart it!! lol!!! Thanks 4 waiting, silly!! lol!!!

OMG! We should get all of the meatball hoagies online and get in a chat room! SWIZZLE! lol!!!

Where's Car????????! she hasnt' been here in a while...i'm getting worrieed!! Where oh where is our Rhubarb!???!?!??! lol!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

hahaha all meatball hoagies report IMMEDIATLEY for a meeting about aim!
xxx

Hi Sweetie the pictures are what I took of you and gave you a copy they're beautiful with the exceptions of the couple you running around in my underware when you were 6 and the ones showing you know when you were 12 oh gotcha!!!!!!!! NO WAY

They are only the new ones I had you a copy made of. I'm only here yesterday and today because of these damned migraines and I have to get up sometimes so I figure you guys are better than TV since I can't stand noise and I never tell nothing.

Papa said the phone bill to England came in today and since I had a migraine I didn't want to see it so he'd just pay it and we'd all forget it. YEAH PAPA He did say it was $200 though which you two guys are certainly worth that with no problem from this household. Is that your email address at your dad's. I was going to email him the pictures of you. The song is only a cute little email. Tell Savvy I love her too whether she loves me or not. Thank you all so much for my meatball hoaie name I am so very honoured. Love Nana

oh my gosh r u really paying for the fone calls to england? u are so amazing! thankyou so much, that fone call was the best one of my life! :D

xxxxxxxx

Hahahhaahha, it was def. a blast!!!! lol! THANK YOU NANA!! I'm sorry that it was 200!! lol...that's certainly above my last phone bill! lol!! you're magnificent, and I'll be sure to tell savvy!!!!!!!

I love you!!!

I'm sorry about those migraines!!!!

OMFG! hahahah you didn't REALLY send those pics...did you?? HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!! I can't remember being in the nude or w.e. when i was 6, you wacko! lol!! :-D!!

I love you all!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

Trust me Papa and I knew Sierra needed to talk to you and we love her so much and it made her happy so it was no big deal. No Sierra I wouldn't send pictures that would embarrass you silly goose. I hate migraines but not much I can do but gave me some time with you guys------ tomorrow back at work. I will be everyone's Nana *WCPCA* and will love talking with you. Please keep my Sierra happy I love her so much. No big deal about phone bill not to worry. I think you need to change the name for Georgia to come here to "COME HEITHER" its so much more seductive. I do so love you guys and No sierra you know I can't remember my sign on name. I barely remember who my husband is but I sure do like him. Love Nana

:-DDDDDDD....thank you my dear Nana!!! You're...like..everyone's Nana! lol! THEY"RE JEALOUS! YAY! lol!! No one has ever been JEALOUS before! lol!! Thanks again, nana!!! :-D! Can you give Papa a big hug and kiss from me????

Hahahaha, You're really soooo cool, Nana..you don't care that I cuss...which is extremely swizzle! lol!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA!! That last sentence tickled me with laughter!! lol!!!!

I'm really sorry, friends, I've been super busy with the most important soccer tournament of my entire life, which has a billion college scouts, and our team has lost a whole bunch, even though I am working my butt off and playing good... Sigh. We are playing pre-olympic teams, though, so, it's crazy...

I love the name "Nana Ferret Twinkle Blossom"... NFTB! She sounds so wicked awesome, Sierra! How lucky you are to have a lady like her in your life! Paying 200 dollar phone bills! You totally rock, Nana!

HAS ANYONE FINISHED THE HARRY POTTER BOOK? O M G!!! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAD!

Sierra, Zac is a player. I've found some info... well, I can't share it, I swore not to, but he doesn't know I know, and you can't tell him, ok? Besides that, though, he's told me before that he just tells girls he loves them so they fall all over him and are vulnerable. HE WANTS TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU. Please don't say I said that, but Georgi's right, Sierra... I'd block him out. I don't want to see you like some of these girls, girls that would rob a bank if it made him happy. Please don't let that be you, Sierra, get out of it NOW before you are too late...

Swizzle??

I LOVE IT!

Georgi, I haven't known you that long either, but you are definately an angel. I see all you do for sierra... you're incredible!

I must go, take a bath... my muscles are so sore! those girls are mean!

Talk to you all later, ta-ta, and remember, the distance from a problem to a solution and the time it takes is only as long as your knees are from the floor and how long it takes you to start praying. Love y'all!

Car

*^*Rhubarb, OMPOTHMHA!*^*

Thanks....

::tear::

I'm glad you told me,...really....I just don't know what I'm going to do....or.....I don't know........

I should have trusted my instinct...i shoud have never let it go this far..i shouldn't have.....I shouldn't have done so many things...And now....well.....now I feel like a piece of paper that has been torn in half and shred to pieces....

Thanks, Car...i'm glad to hear from you again.

~Sierra

Thank you so much you guys are all so kind and it would be fund to have a gathering of Sierra's friends. Her and Savannah are both dolls but Savannah stays in her own little world and I understand that but I'd be here for both. I loved the years they grew up they were so much fun and Sierra is still my darling most of the time. I love all you guys too and I don't get bent out of shape when you cuss or talk about private things cause you have to be able to talk to someone and Sierra knows she can tell me anything and I dont' ever tell. So I feel so honored to have so many adoped grandkids and I think it is fun and I love you all. Good Night All Love Nana

sierra i told u he was no good. But honey, seriously, i will help you out i promise. we'll deal with this guy 2gether. like we always will be, together :) Ur my best friend and i love u to bits so anytime u need me, ill always be here.

I kew Zac was trouble from the moment he said hi, but dont u dare blame urself, cause its HIM with the problem. not u, i promise. Hes a playa, and playas get nowhere in life. U are a beautiful smart girl who is going to get so far in life, so dont let an idiot like him get you down. he is NOt WORTH IT.
i love u sierra!

remember, no guy is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry

~georgi
MBH#1

You see.......there was so much drama last night about that.....

I do blame that drama on myself though.....Zac wasn't online and I needed my friends....so, they, many who also do NOT like Zac, they were outraged!!!!!!!!!!! They were more upset than I was, and there were so many of them.....and I just as I was trying to calm them down too, Zac came on...omg..i was so scared..i didn't know what to say to him, or if i should even speak at all.....and then I find out that my friend Nikki and her bf were AMBUSHING him, cussing him out, insulting him and telling him that he's not worth the scum on my shoe...Lord knows what her bf said..but I know that they scared him.

I tried my best to make them take it back, i was crying because I was finally talking to Zac. He asked me why Nikki was bitching at thim.....and I just said, "idk."

then he asked, "did I hurt you, sierra?"

That question left me sitting for at least 6 minutes, trembling because I didn't know the answer, so I just said yes, more than he'll ever know.....which could have been the WORST answer I've ever given in my entire life....

He started saying, omg...sierra, i'm sorry, but if i hurt you....i'll just leave, like your friends think i should."

(Yes..i remember clearly our convo, lol)

I was soooooo sad to hear that!!!

Me:"do you want to me go, though?"
Him: "no, never."
Him: "I just don't want to hurt you."
Me: "That's pretty much inevitable at this point."
Him:"exactly"
Me: "I'm so mad at them for saying that stuff to you!! I'm trying to get them to take it back, becaues none of it was true."
Him: "Yes it was."
Him: "What did I do to hurt you?"

**Another painful silence on my part**

Me: will you leave me if I tell you?
Him: maybe
Me: Then I won't tell you becaue i don't want to lose you.
Him: wth? how can i change if you won't tell me?"
Me: Because I dont' want you to change...i just wish things were different.
Me: First thing...don't tell me you love me if you don't.
Him: I will,...if I ever stop loving you.
Me:aww that's so sweet.
Him: I love you not like a gf/bf love, but how i love all my friends..
Me:......i know......

(now)

So..things should be calmer now...I still hope he doesn't hate me....

And, idk.....i don't like people telling me I'm worth so much more than him, because that's not true...he's worth everything to me. He's worth that much to Emma, he's worth that much to everyone in Colorado, because who couldn't love him?? And I have you guys....you all are so sweet to me, telling me what I want to hear, or being there for me....

But I need to hear the truth....and I know the truth, i'm no better than him, and he's no better than me. There's no way of knowing what has happened in his past, but I know mine, and I know that from the moment I first talked to him, we were more alike than anyone i've ever met. So please don't tell me I'm better than him...I couldnt' hurt him, because obviously he doesn't deserve it...and that's just the way it is! I would rather be hurt, than let someone close to me hurt, because that's infectious....

I hope you all understand.....

I'm not going to be here tonight..b back tomorrow!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2

Hope all is well Georgi

We all love ya, Sierra, don't you forget it. Zac thinks I'm a bitch, now, cuz I've been asking stuff.... :shrugs: oh, well.

Im here for all u guys too...sierra im sorry ur hurting :'( I wish i could make ur pain go away. If i knew how to do tht, maybe i'd be happy right now

I try to be. Things are shit. Apparently i have "manic depression" im being "refered" whatever thhe fuck that means. Can't talk, maybe my "trusty razor" and me have more in commen than i thought

Peace out guys
Love u all more than you'll ever know
~Georgi
MBH#1

I'm better....thanks to Car and her impeccable timing, lol...!! I will be better...I understand that Zac and I are barely even friends now, but even that, I don't want to lose...I've made everyone who attacked Zac like that apologize, and he's accepted, leaving them with a message they've all told me. We're only friends...and he's sorry for everytime he told me he loved me and implied it in any way other as a friend....that..I guess I can deal with.

Georgi! Omg! I can't wait to talk to you online tomorrow! Woot woot! The Meatball Hoagie Club is back in business!!! lol~

Thanks all!!! I wouldn't know how terrible I'd be right now if I didn't have you all, who constantly remind me that im loved and that life is worth living for..you don't know how much each one of you means to me...and Car...I'm listening to you..i'm keeping myself guarded...prettywell too....

He said I love you today...and normally I'd say it back, but I just laughed...I know that sounds utterly ridiculous, but that's improvement from me...from taking it so personally, to understanding that he doesn't mean it...

Geo!!! You have Manic depression??? Are you serious?? Did a doctor tell you that???

Don't you dare go back to that "trusty razor." That's not a friend, and it's not trusty.....if anything, it's just RUSTY...oh..whoops...cheezy line, lol!! sorry.....talk to me soon!!!!

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

GRRRRRRRRR I JUST NEED CONFIDENCE!!!!!!! My lack of it is what makes me feel that wave of depression....and this whole love life of mine has taken a large tax on my confidence supply...

And if that isn't sad enough, I'm finding myself relying on Nick...and the more I rely on him, i come to find he's been holding me up for so long, he's been there for me, and he's gave me so much strength when I've been weak...I come to think I made the wrong decision choosing Zac, but I hate myself for already finding myself enthralled by Nick...

Worst of all, if that goes to pieces too, I'll be a wreck before school even starts..

What's funny to me is that Zac claims to have told me he loved me basically out of charity work, instead, he's weakened me down unknowingly...grr....He tried to help, but only made things tragically worse...grr...

~Sierra

_MBH#2__

Wow....I realize now, Kristen, you're the only sane one left! lol!!!!! Thank God for you!!!! *huggles* Pull me back please!! I need a girl to rely on..not a guy...they only make me go all cookoo, lol...(I swear on my grave i will not go all lezzy on you, lol!!)

~Sierra

__meatball hoagie#2__

Thanks, Kristen! You're a real angel!!

oh kristen honey, dont give in, im here :) Always will be i promise.

sierra - yeah, my counsiller told me i have manic depression. great huh. i love you

Kristen : pls dont give up i love u so much, just get some sleep k?

and to all of you, car, kristen, si si, I think im gonna have to leave the site for a while. This is what is keeping me down at the moment. So im gonna have to leave the meatball hoagies too :( u could find another meatball hoagie #1...

~Georgi

OMFG NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You did NOT just say that....no..no..and um...no....

Geo!!!! You nutball! You can't leave!!! We'll all break apart if you do...we'll all eventually leave...and this time though, I doubt whether I can come back....
Can you at least stay for another week? Until i leave back for Georgia with no internet?? This is the time I have to talk to you! I need to spend that with all my girls!!! Please, Geo!! Please, please, please....

If I'm bringing you to a depressing state, just tell me, and I'll learn to keep my mouth shut!! I swear! I'm sorry if I made you feel like life sucks by any odd chance, but you can't leave this site altogether, even for a short while....

I wish I could say something else, but the only thing i've got left to say is random and just bizarre.

What about our baby??.....I'm...I'm pregnant

(Got it from a soap opera if you couldn't tell...told ya it was random and bizarre.)

~Sierra

__Meatball Hoagie#2__

LOL!!!!!!!!!! i love u sierra!