help PLz

my boyfriend killed himself and i feel really bad cuz he would talk to me and joke around about killing himself and he would say that one morning he wasnt gunna wake up and now he's dead and i just dont kno what to do i keep thinkin its my fault cuz i just thought he was joking now i just am not happy and dont wanna do anything have any ideas

you are not to blame there was nothing you could do never think it was your fault you did not kill him keep strong

how long ago did he do it? ............ i no i'm ment to be like everyone else n tel u all the hurt and pain wil go away but i'm sorry i'm just guna tel u the truth cos i feel that wat u need...the truth.... the hurt guilt and pain wil neva completely end....but not all is lost bcos u ave the choice to mope around n blame urself or get up n live ur life to the fullest that unfortuatly ur boyfriend didnt get to share with u ....take time to grieve and wen u feel ur strong enuff n ready ...u go make the most of ur life...hang in there...if u need to talk more heres my e-mail .... sarah_hates_jarrod@hotmail.com

***sarah***