My Beloved Zac

I love you. And I'll never let you go. I'm sorry if I scared you last night....I couldnt' think clearly. It sounded as if you wanted me to let go completely, and I couldn't stand the thought of that. I've written you several poems, and trashed quite a few of them because they weren't worthy of you, my love. And no matter how many times you tell me I'm beautiful, I'm afraid I'm not beautiful enough for you. I only want you in this life, and if I can't have you, I'd rather have no one. I love you, Zac, and it's the best feeling in the world. I need you, your touch, your words, your heart, and I'm complete. Your touch is going to kill me, I can tell. But if you were my last sight as I leave this world, I swear, I'd be happy even as I die. I NEED you, Zac. Breathing gets harder when I don't talk to you, and no matter who I talk to, I'm only ever thinking of you now. I don't have any idea what's going to happen when I leave tomorrow....I'll go right back to being the most unhappy person in the world. But I WILL find you on New Years in 3 years. My parents will have NO control over my life. But I'm serious when I say, Zac, I need you.

I love you more than ever, and I can't tell you enough how sorry I am for saying suididal things yesterday. I had no right. I'm so sorry!!! I Love you, Zac. You're more beautiful than life itself, and you create my happiness. Your compliments to me make me feel so much better than I really am. I only wish i could make you feel the way I feel.

So in love.

~Sierra

Zac, I need you to see this. Even if I have to keep bringing it up again. You DO need to read this for me please.

lol, I have to say thank you, I guess. lol....as bad as it is, I'm still so in love it hurts. I love Zac.

Bloodytears, it's strange. No matter how much it hurts, you still want it. It's weird.

I want all of him, every inch, every bit of him....and this love....I can't have him no matter how badly I want him, or what I say. It's long distance, and he has a girlfriend. I'm lost in love, and it's scary to be this way.

Despite the fact it hurts us both, it's the happiest I've ever felt. I can be myself and he'll love me, and I'm so relaxed around him. On a scale, the way I love him far beyond outweighs the pain which only intensifies the less love I get.

HAHAHAHA, why should i? lol! I nearly had myself in danger being behind the wheel, *sniff* and you still don't care....my life was on the line and you're more concerned that I keep this post up? lol-thank you, doll!

LOL!! You should have just talked to yourself, lmao! i would have laughed sooo hard AT you....lol!!!!

If I were in danger, you would have let this post go down.....thank you, Corey, lol!!!

LOL!!!!!!!!!! You rock. lol!!!!!

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The silence is killing me...

I'm so bored and lonely I could almost break out in song.....but my lungs are too sore to sing...*tear*