just confused and need to get this out...

you guys don't have to read this, i just needed to get it all out lol....

so my brother had a friend we'll say....bob, and bob had a brother, we'll say george....and my brother is 12, and so is bob.....george is 16, and i am 15....my friend, we'll say jenny, liked/new george before me.....but then bob had george come over to my house with him and my brother hangs out with both of them......and i started liking george too.....and we would hang out some and we had fun whenever he came over.....and jenny would hang out with us sometimes too....and people were starting to think george liked me, but i didn't think so....and i ignored them (but it actually gave me a little hope when they said that lol...).....and jenny kept telling me she didn't like him anymore.....but when he came over, she would get jealous when he would play around with me more or let me lay next to him on the couch......and i started to feel bad....and then the other night we had this party thingy for my upcoming b-day (which was yesterday lol).....and bob, george, and one of my bro's other friends, we'll say johnny, and 2 of mine, jenny, and umm....cassie stayed over at my house.....and me, george, and johnny, all got drunk....(while my bro was sleeping) and everyone else (bob, johnny, jenny, and cassie) kept pressuring me and george to make out, but i couldnt do that to jenny.....so i resisted.....but after all of the alcohol wore off george wouldn't leave me alone, and was trying to make out with me....(but i didn't want to because jenny, and i was nervous ha ha) but he wouldn't get off of me even when i tried to push him off and i ended up with a hickey.....and now i feel bad because i also ended up sitting next to him after that and holding his hand.....i feel like a terrible friend.....and it's making me confused, and for some reason it makes me feel depressed too.....

You shouldnt feel like a terrible friend. If he liked you and you liked him then its ok. I can see how you feel bad though, as you did do this in front of her...I had a similar problem...my friend got used to me and him together and after awhile though she said we were a great couple. So I dunno...dont get yourself down though..you cant help who you like..stay strong..I hope I helped alittle x0x0x

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thank you guys, you did help me.....noni, i don't think he was trying to rape me or anything, i really don't think he would do that....but i will try to talk to them....thanks again guys....