confused

ive been going with this boy for 3 years recently he was locked up for a drug charge so now he has to live in Harrisburgh with is grandmom we still talk and we still go together but while he was gone i experienced a relationship with a girl i didnt mean to but she was there when i needed a shoulder to cry on then after a while i fell in love with her so we started goin together and we had sex one time and i didnt like it but i still love her we dont go together anymore but we still talk and she wants me back but i love my boyfriend too and i get so confused sometimes i try to overdose on pills so i dont have to pick because i love both of them i need help before i do something i regret