What do you do when the only thing you want is so far away

You can't give up. The minute u do, then thats when u'll giv eup on all of ur dreams, so just keep doing what ur doing and if u want it badly enough, something will happen.

wow i so feel your pain. since i was 10 all i ever wanted to be was a stripper. i practiced so hard sinc then but whenever i go anywhere, all they tell me is that they dont have room for me... my dream is being crushed but i know that one day i will get my break in that searing light and cigarette permeated air... just one day... hang in there! xoxo
-A

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I'm sure if ya ask around,you can start your own band. It's so easy... :)