i hate being on meds!!!

they put me on meds wen i went into the hospital and like now i dont even feel liek me i feel liek this totally different person!!! has anyone else gone through that???? and for some reason i miss being depressed i miss cutting everynight i guess its jsut because thats who i was for so long that its weird to get used to something new but i still miss it i dont no why it jsut seems more natural it seems more like me i guess that kinda who i feel i was

that's wierd how you miss being depressed. yes that may be who you where but try to be happy about the new person you will become. i figured out that when ur happy life gets happier. okay that's a lie. i just try to be happy but life is still shit. ur not different. you'll always be you no matter what meds they put you on. remember that...

Im on meds for a bunch of things...i know what its like not feeling like yourself anymore, but all you can do is try to accept it and move on. Otherwise you'll be missing out on so many of the good things in lfe...and yes there are some good things...amazingly! You just have to look around a little more. I used to be a cutter...I know things get tough. Hang in there! You'll be ok.

oh my good golly gosh i'm here for you my sister! depression is like sooooo cool those freaking meds just ruin all my dark mood swings....

PUH-LEEZ.

*would like to say more but has no clue where to start*

Bottom line you're gonna get over it, or you're gonna HAVE to get over it.

You miss being depressed??? Wtf?

That is the most dumbest and selfish thing I've heard in a while.

I'm on Luvox and it does make me feel better, which is the most important thing.

Thats ridiculous...How...You...Argh I have nothing to say to such stupidity
~*Freak*~

^now people can understand my post...lol

to everyoen who sed i was stupid i cant explain it i dont miss it i jstu cant get used to being happy..... and its really confusing me it doesnt feel like me being happy doesnt feel like me so i dont like it.....and i no wen i was depressed to were i was abotu to kill myself i think i wood hurt me for saying i missed being depressed bc i wood kill anything ot b happy at that time but now that im happy it just doesnt feel like me i cant explain it i guess u jstu have to b me..... im not saying its cool to be depressed cuz its not liek if ur depressed i really dont want u to b i want u to get better jstu for me i guess thats kinda how i thought of myself i guess i ended up labling myself as a cutter.... i geuss i jsut wanna cut i dont no im really confused and im still kidna depressed and i dont liek relying on a pill i dont want to rely on some stupid small thing to save my life id rather be all natural.....im all confused...........im sorry if i made myself sound liek a bitch im really not its not like i tried to be depressed cuz i guesst hats how it came across cuz u guys think im stupid for missing it.....i dont miss it im just not used to being happy and i lsot all my talents that i had liek writing and thinking deeply tihngs that defined me like that i lsot that once i stopped being depressed i guess those things were jstu there to help me not be depresesd or they were making me derpessed idk......... again im sorry if i sounded liek a bitch i sware im not sorry

hey i dont think your stupid, my friend has been through this too. basically the way you felt before was down to the depression not you as yourself, and the way you are feeling now is actually you, (does that make sense?) i cant believe people are saying you are stupid!!!! that is so mean. in a way its like losing part of urself i gess, no matter wether its a good or bad part its still hard. like people miss being with their partner even if they beat them and stuff, it mite be a bad thing but it was a permanent part of ur life and now its gone. im ramling but i just wanted to say i undersatnd wat ur saying and i dont think your stupid.

thank u im afraid i made myself sound bad wen im not bad person i sware im afraid i always end up making myself sound horrible in these forums.....

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