Nothing from a nobody.

OK, this isnt gonna b a shitty post bout y cutting is right or wrong, its not gonna be a fight about who's more depressed.. just a random post coz im completely numb and it's engulfing every inch of me so that the world is fairly unreal at the mo... so i gess what im saying is.. shit, just start a convo sum1, im goin crazy sat ere wiv only myself 4 company.
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whats up??
heh, i really wouldnt know, i spose im a bt of a nutjob really - but i aint makin much sense(it figures)... lets say im kinda... intoxicated.. sorry ppl, im wastin ur time..
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wats up hun?
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

ok i was a bit late there ...... lolz

hun u aint wasteing our time wat betta things we got to do?

a bit random, cats or dogs? i wud probly pick both!! lol

hey, thanx ppl, i jus need a distraction, n i dnt no ne of ya so its a bit.. well daunting really but im outta my hed n scarin myself shitless so hey, ill settle 4 the random strangers..
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lolz, after you start talkin to us we won't be strangers anymore

tiz true tiz true... hey.. cats or dogs... um,,, r ne of them aliens??

im not sure........?

ok, im sorry people, i seem to have scared you all off.. well, ne advice for a messed up junkie... Bring it on, apart from that, im useless, ta 4 the few brief words,
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Whassup my persons?!

Hi ho hi ho it's off to work we go...to kick some ass and bust some caps and that's the Ari show!

Naw i ain't leaving. :)

im still here!! if theres anything u wanna talk about?

wtf?? ok ari, u confused me but im sure its all gd..

lol foresaken, it didnt confuse me, i dnt think!! lolz

I wanna try cheering you up......and i am a retard.

n cheers 2 random gurl ... shit i h8 callin ya that.. cn i call u summat els.. i feel mean, but yeh... jus kp tlkin n il try n kp breathin lolol, i dunno y im on p&q rite now but i spose its better than bein alone... arrrghh, scatty, .. *shuts up*

why do u feel mean calling me tht? its my nickname coz im random, tht isn't mean!! you can call me gemma if you want coz tht is my real name....but its up 2 u!

ok, i dunno, i am quite odd... um, i just thought i was callin u a name which gave the immpression that u didnt matter n im sure u do... but hey, sorry.. its prob just me... Fuckin hell..

dnt worry bout it, i dnt mind wat u call me!! as long as its nothing really horrible!! lolz

k, ta 4 stickin around btw, i rily appreciate it.. call me a nutter but id rather sit on ere n tlk shit 2 a bunch of strangers than any of my other options which i would gladl occupy myself through..
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i dnt mind, i'd rather talk to any1 apart from my family!!
i wudnt say your a nutter or anything like tht, you seem like a really nice person!!

lololol, wow, just goes 2 show wot an immpression i cn make - trust me, nice is not a word u wud generally use 2 describe me.. bitch - yup, freak - yup, druggie - yup, insane - yup... but until now.. no nice.. so im kinda touched..(and scared)..

lolz, u seem a bit like crazy but in a good way, if u get wat i mean, but u also seem like a really kool mate!!! but now im sort of wondering wat kind of person u think i am........... but im not quite sure if i want to know........

woah im confused what is this post about?? lol

dunno its just kind of me and foresaken just talking... lolz

yep.. well basically im fukt... im ggettin immensly paranoid n.. well i needed a distraction 2 save me from... woteva.. im not repeat NOT after a sympathy vote mind u, id rather kp myself 2 myslef... but yeh, bk 2 random gurl... i think u sound sweet, stupid i no but dats da only way i cud sum u up..
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thanx i don't think most of my mates and family wud say im sweet but yeh ok, if thts ur opinion then ok, its not stupid!!

mmm, thats precisely wot it is .. my opinion which (and trust me on this one) is tainted and twisted... well, its not even real, i dont have an opinion, im a number, an object - use me as you wish, you cant hurt me...
Fucks sake i sound like ive lost the plot.. but hey i never even saw the script..Screw it

lolz the way you say things it...... well... sounds actually quite funny!! but also it seems like you kinda put yourself down, and you shouldn't, coz you sound like a really.... well....... nice (i cnt think of a different word) person!!

wat? broken singer? wat does tht mean?

yeh yeh, wot duz that mean... n r.g. i dont put myself down coz that wud b pathetic - i leave that to the rest of the world... but wot i will spk is the truth, well... unless ur a shrink, copper etc.. in which case i'll lie till im blu in da face 2 get u off my arse lol..

ok then i guess i kind of judged tht a bit wrong, soz!!! um......... i dnt no wat to say.......

shit, dnt tk dat da wrong way, i dint mean 2 offend u or nefink, im jus tellin it like it is... n it aint all rosey u get me?

yeh i didnt take offence to it, its ok, dont worry bout it!!! do u like ur life? if you don't mind me asking, you don't have to answer if you don't want to....

no, no i fucking dont.. i think id say a prime example wud b the fact that im so fucked now... i use drugs, substances.. nefink 2 make the world that one step further away, screw it, its not worth talkin about on here.. *rolls eyes* just to annoy every1 im gonna say im SELF HARMER as well. and aint it fucking grand?!.. u no wot, this whole damn forum is doin my nut, not worth the time and/or the attention so im gonna go - sorry random gurl uve been lovely to me but i think ive had enuff distraction, im gonna fuck off n pass out coz at least in a comatose state u dont dream...
but hey, wot the hell, im fed up of trying 2 vent emotions which cant be catagorised in a fucking discussion blah... cheers for evfink ppl, but its gonna b a long nite.
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im not sure wat u mean by saying "just to annoy every1 im gonna say im a self harmer" r u or r u just saying tht to annoy people? to me i dnt really mind which way you mean it!!
anywayz seen as you sed you are goin i better go too, i have nothing better to do and my mum is being a bitch and saying have to get off the computer anyway, i hope your ok and maybe i will speak to you soon!! i enjoyed talking to you!!!
bye luv RaNdOmGaL xxx