Harry Carry

I havent been in this part of P&Q in a while... I guess I havent felt the need to. But, I have been in the other forums and there are so many topics on cutting. It all just makes me a little bit crazy, because I stopped back in like... February, and I still get the urge to every now and then. And there really isnt a point to this except for me to say that it IS an addiction, and it IS selfish. My older sister, when she found out, she was really mad at me. She wanted to hurt me because she felt that I was being selfish. And I never believed her. Once I stopped, one of my friends started again and I was so upset that I cried. I couldn't talk to her for days because I was afraid I'd hit her. And ya know, you may not realize it or feel like it, but its true. There is atleast one person in the world who you mean the world to. So if you harm yourself, or do anything to take yourself out of this world, what else does that person have to live for? I don't know, I guess I'm just venting. I'll go write about it now.

hmm interesting that u should think its selfish. when u cut u dont think im gona hurt so n so by doin this u head is taking over ur actions. thtas not selfish. now that uve stopped u may se it like htat but its not.
when my mum found out she freaked n now she cant tell me dad coz he'll kick me out or hurt me so she's stuck...
this whole cutting debate thin tho..its diff. for aboslutely everyone n "ex-cutters"or "non-cutters" cant just tell ppl how to feel..or wat they're feeling

I'm sure that you have an awesome point... but I couldnt understand any of what you wrote. I'd really like to though and its frustrating me haha.

nevermind... I got it now. It's not selfish at the time, but in the end I guess it is. But what about your mom? She's sacrificing some trust from your dad, but at the same time, if she tells him she's sacrificing you. I guess its just how you decide to look at it. I'm just nit-picky like that.

lol..sorry... um basically i mean that when you're cutting, you're head kinda takes control u know...u're not htinking i want to hurt so and so

yeh my mum. i feel soo bad. she needs support too though.. and she can't ask dad for it coz she'd have to tell him. she doesn't want/she can't tell my dad coz she knows what he's like...at the same time..i htink she's worried that if she doesnt tell him or someone that i could go oto far

Well, not to make you mad or anything, but if you ask me, if you continue to cut yourself, knowing full well what it does to your mom, thats kind of selfish.

interesting