Someone Died Because of me!!

  • xXxDarkPrincessLozxXx
    19 years ago

    I really need someone to talk to!! Last night a close guy friend killed himself because I told him I wanted to die! I feel so guilty! someone with such a great life killed themselves because I was going to. Now I really want to kill myself everytime I look in the mirror!! I've got cuts up and down my arms!! I really need some help and I don't know who to turn too! I felt bad before he died now I feel even worse!!

  • EpithetPoet
    19 years ago

    dont blame yourself for this. it's good that you tried to reach out to someone about the feelings you've been having. chances are this person already felt like killing him/herself before you told them. doesnt mean you did it. you didnt kill this person, it was all their decision.
    sorry for your loss.
    -A

  • Josiah Larson
    19 years ago

    its true,
    Dont blame your self for others actions
    -Josiah

    I hope you can heal soon and be happy again I am sorry for what has happen but dont take it to hard on ur self...

    Good luck!!

    -Josiah

  • Emma
    19 years ago

    dont blame yourself because you cant do nothing about it its done and over with. you need to hope that you can find the forgiveness that maybe he would give you. if you feel like its your fault talk to him he might be gone but his spirt is with you.

  • Marlett
    19 years ago

    lauren hi my name is marlett, well i know right now ur in pain...and i know this situation is killing u inside,but lauren please dont blame this on ur self
    i lost a friend a year ago to...and i blamed it on myself,but as the months went by i realized it wasnt my fault...lauren ur friends actions arent ur fault...lauren cutting urself is not d solution,believe me it might seem like it is but is not,it only makes things worst.Please dont hurt urself...i know im not anybody to ask u this,but dont hurt urself...i dont think does who love u want to suffer just like ur suffering for ur friend!If u need someone to talk to u can always write to me or send me and email @ blackangel_mar@hotmail.com or heyradkewlchick@yahoo.com im here for u!!!hope this helps...and please dont think this is ur fault,bcuz it not....

  • Dorotea©
    19 years ago

    Your friend, the guy, made his choice to kill himself. It's his choice, not yours, and because of that it is definately not your fault that he killed himself.

  • †JustAri†
    19 years ago

    "No one is the sole purpose of another's life..."

    Yes, I just sorta quoted Chicken Soup for the Soul....but anyways....

    But think about it. Don't take the burden upon yourself to blame yourself over something that someone else did...for one, it's not healthy, and for two it wasn't your fault in the first place just because you happened to mention that you wanted to kill yourself at around the same time he chose to do so...he could've been thinking about it for a longer time than you think.

    Peaces.

  • Synyster
    19 years ago

    First, sorry for your loss.
    Second, it probably had nothing to do with you. He likely had other problems that were eating at him that he couldn't get over. But it's not your fault. You didn't give him a weapon and tell him to take his life. I think it was a bit selfish of him to do that when you were feeling as bad as you were -- making you feel worse. Try to go see a counselor about what happened and sort this matter out and maybe talk to him about what you told your friend (about wanting to die), because these feelings aren't normal and need to be dealt with, because you don't want that to boil over and follow your friend the way he took. For now, try to relax - my prescription: 1 pint of chunky monkey ice cream
    1 comfy outfit
    your favorite CD or TV show
    your mommy
    (feel better, ok?)

  • mkhoviyeun
    19 years ago

    aaww sorwie to hear that. you should try to live happy, i'm sure when your friend is alive, he would want you to be happy. don't blame yourself, cuz no one is perfect-we all make mistake. try not to do it the 2nd time. suicide won't bring back the dead; also, you would make people who cared about sad, if u ever suicide. so plz don't do it.

  • Lovemylove
    19 years ago

    My god sweety if you want to let off some steam or anything just email me at moongoddess160@aol.com we can talk there if you want.

  • {Anything_BUt_Ordinary}
    19 years ago

    hey i am soo sry to hear that i ahve had people want o kill themselves becasue of me but that was when i was soo mean and stupid adn fucking blind but now i am ok adn so is he i guess i dont know at all how bad you feel but dont worry keep your head up ok

  • Just Sierra
    19 years ago

    uh oh...she stopped writing......that's not gooodd...

    ~Sierra

    __meatball hoagie#2__

  • xXxDarkPrincessLozxXx
    19 years ago

    Hey everyone who posted a comment thanx....I dont think I can ever forgive myself for what has happened...its going to take a while, I don't want my parents involved so thats why I don't want to go to the counsellor, I'm sorry I haven't posted any replies but I've been kinda busy.
    If anyone wants to talk to me my addys DarkPrincessLoz@hotmail.com
    Ta Ta
    Love Lauren

  • Joy
    19 years ago

    It's not your fault, you weren't the one who killed him. You weren't standing over him, doing that awful crime. Just because you said you were going to was no excuse for him to do it. When you look in the mirror, maybe you do want to die. I felt the same way when I lost a friend to suicide. But stay looking in that mirror for a minute, and list off the positive things in your life. Maybe your friend secretly had problems of his own, and he thought suicide was the only way out. Even some of the most innocent looking people hide under scars. No one's death is your fault unless you're the one who stabbed him, or shot her, or shoved pills down their throat. You have nothing to feel guilty about b/c you didn't do anything wrong. Your friend probably had problems of his own, and he thought suicide was the only way out...Email me at any time if you'd like to talk...

    .:j0y:.

  • Ashley
    19 years ago

    hello,
    I would like to say that I am very sorry for you and your friend it is very aweful that this would happen and I have some advice for you.......every time you feel like dying think of th most important person in your life and think about how they would feel if you died how sad would they be? do you want them to feel that sadness? sorry just thought I would share....it works for me

  • unprotected lover
    19 years ago

    hun do not blame yourself. its not your fault. I know how it feels, i had a friend go to the hospital b/c he ODed on pills because he thought i was going to kill myself. Never blame yourself it makes it worse.

  • XnotaprettygirlX
    19 years ago

    same happened to me...and i figured that God has a purpose..dnt blame yourself stay strong..keep ya head up hun im here for ya

    e-mail me if ya need to talk
    i_dnt_speak_english@hotmail.com

    peace angel