So stuck in the middle

Hey everyone..
i've been depressed for..a while now, and recently mum's found out bout the cutting etc...
situation is that one part of me is so desperate to suicide, like its all i think about sometimes, and then the other part just realises there's so much more to life etc..
Yet i can't go either way and i'm stuck and it's shitting me...can anyone help or anything?!!

I stick by this -

"When you feel like letting go remember why you held on for so long in the first place"

I stand by it. My words of wisdom for the moment.

i was in the same position as you, my mum found out about my cutting and i had to walk out cause all she did was shout at me, but i guess you have a closer relationship with your mum because i didnt care that she found out cause she was the reason i started it in the first place (even though she dont understand that)!! i don't really know what to advise you to do, just do what you feel is right, sit there and think about it carefully, and don't do anything that you know you will regret afterwards!!! i know this is crap advice but i can't think of anything else!!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

if u still feel that part of u is happy and wants to live please go with that part of u.....bc if u go with tryingot kill urself say it doesnt work then i promise all ur happiness will go away after that and ull jsut b this sad sad girl and thats no fun so try to be happy try to enjoy life if part of u still can