THE PILLS ARE CALLING MY NAME

theres advil in the closit a bunch of it and im ready to die im ready for it now im ready to see complete blackness and nothing more..... i hate waking up in the mornings i hate seeing light so i jsut lay there for a while.... i make everyone around me miserable i dont mean to but its cuz im depressed cant get over it tho im jsut a complete burden on there shoulders i broke with my boyfrend and now hes miserable or clsoe to it idk im not trying to make myself sound like some great person that made him so happy that now that im gone he jsut cant live, i guess he jsut liekd me alot..... anyway i dont no when ill do it but one night when its all dark and everyone is sleeping ill tkae the advil up to my room and lay in my bed and go under my covers and slip the pills down my throat then when someone finds me dead maybe theyll jsut think im sleeping...... i feel horrible tho the last time i felt like this wen i was put in the hospital the one thing htat kept me alive was thinking about who would find my body like i dont want my mom to find my body and have that memory in her mind forever so mayb ill just run away and kill myself there in a forest far away so the police will find me and mayb they wil think that someone else did it to me so mom and dad dont have to no i did it to myself.....i jsut wanna dispear....

Wiggle your nose...HAHAHA

Please....get a life.

No thanks.

you have no idea wut my life is like its not like i posted my everything i do on here u idiot i do have a life im in band i hang out with my fernds alkl the time i love to read im on a swim team see i have a life and then so what theres some shitty stuff liek a brother who hits me and breaks the walls and gets charges pressed against him and screams the hell out of himself everyday at me and my family and so what maybe he makes me cut nad mayb i have a shitty time in school and mayb theres a bunch of shitty stuff in my past that has made me depressed so mayb u should shut the fuk up bc u have no idea what the hell ur talking about

~sorry to anyone else im usually not this bitchy but its 10:30 in the morning and im usually not awake by now and this girl told me to wiggle my nose when i want kill myself and thatd b fine but then she told me to get a life and yes good for u natalie is that u name yes that hurt my feelings are u proud i bet u are~

You want to kill yourself because of your brother? That's just silly. If he had charges pressed against him for beating you, why would he be allowed to still live under the same roof as you my dear?

Your life will get worse as you get older...there is nothing in this world worth killing yourself over. You need a reality check and bit of maturity.

Natalie! Lol I wondered where you were this morning, there's been a lot of posts that I expected you to be in but I havn't seen anything from you. Lol was getting worried the board might get out of hand :P

no i dont want to kill myself over my brother omg u dont get it u dont get it at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this world isnt real to me this world is jsut a peice of shit how can it be real its to physical and everyone is always jsut conforming against u and everyoens always jstu judging u and i am mature everybody always thinks im 16 when im only 13 so dont tell me things wen uve neer met me is there a way to delete this post wenever i ask for help i just get shit (edited out due to excessive profanity)

no body else write anything i dont want anyone else telling me what an idiot i am and what an ass i am when none of u have been in my life........im really sorry that im this way i feel like an idiot bc i barely have a reason i guess its a chemical imbalance as they say in my brain but u no what this is how i am i thought that i cood post thsi and get some help i guess not

thanx any how

sorry i took up ur time

Could you umm ... delete some of those "!!!" please.

People think you're 16 when you're only 13. Sounds like you LOOK more mature than you are. And sorry my friend looking or "acting" like you're 16 is NOT maturity. You entitled this post "THE PILLS ARE CALLING MY NAME" now does that sound like something a mature person would say? I don't think so. You're 13 you haven't seen anything yet...wait until you step out in the real world.

You're either writing too fast, or dyslexic. JUST my dear not jsut. And yes that does seem a bit of a stupid reason to kill yourself. And your mum would still have to see your body. She would have to identify you remember. I'm afraid I agree with Natalie on this one. You said you want to lock this, well why post in the first placE? You knew you would get shit for it.

i didnt mean to make a post like this i didnt mean to im sorry ..... im sorry i was immature i was stupid i sed dumb htings i tdidnt even explain wut was going on in my head so now u all jstu think im gonna kill myself over my stupid ass brother..... well w/e i no wuts going and i dont care ill never see u guys again so i dont care and guess my mind is jsut racing and i cant sort anything out all i no is im depressed and i dont no why but somethigns wrong

I love it when you people make threads about how depressed you are, and how you think you have the worst life in the world, and how you think that nobody cares about you. Especially ppl dat cnt spel 4 deir lifes.

Your life isn't that amazingly horrible. You THINK it's horrible because your bf broke up with you or whatever. And if you are going to kill yourself, go ahead. Eat all your lovley advil. We don't care. If you want to commit suicide, go ahead, but you don't need to post it here to get sympathy or attention. I would understand if you would ask for advice or help, but writing "THE PILLS ARE CALLING MY NAME" in capitals won't do much. Stop trying to act depressed, and get on with life.

hello,
I am not going to yell at you nor tell you to stop what you are dong bc it is your choice...if you desperatly think that your life is that bad then im sorry to hear that...you just have to remember that there are other people who have had it worse than you and that are still living.... just give it time and things will clear up....sitting back and feeling sorry for yourself isnt going to do anything. Might i add that I am extremely shocked that you are only 13 and feeling this way... maybe you should seek some professional help....! i dont mean to start anything and i hope i didnt offend you but focus on he good things please instead of all the bad....! luv yas

-kayla-

thank you no you didnt start anything lol dont worry.....i am getting professional help ive been to the hospital and all that jazz already thanx for the advice.....

again sorry if the post sounded immature i realized that and i also realized that ive been over exagerating w/e ill try and think things thro more clearly from now on.....

sorry natalie for being a bitch ur aloud to have ur own opinion and i shouldnt have gotten so mad over it sorry again i jsut get offended wen people dont no the whole story when people dont no me and they go off and judge me but then again i didnt tell the whole story and i will admitt i came off immature and sounding liek i was trying ot get attention which i can assure u i was definitly not planning on doing i jsut posted my feelings sorry again tho

wow some of you guys amaze me on how imature you are (and I"m not saying I am cuz im really not)
but seriously Natalie wtf chill out is you life;s missios to prove people wrong on how not bad their lives are?????? I mean yea some of the stuff you say needs to be said but not at the extend when all it does is piss people off I dunno maybe that's what your trying to do is raise hell I really don't care

but as far as everything else goes there's nothing in life worth dying over I don't care how bad life gets we've all had bad shit happen to us but there's always someone out there who cares even if they can't physically put their arms around you and make things better and either way God loves you no matter what kinda crap you do or think or say, god won't ever turn his back on you even tho it seems like maybe the whole world has.
if you need to talk I'm here so IM me or email or w/e cuz i'll listen and I wont judge you

she does have a point but if your gonna tell a person your opinions you can't just force it on them

Natalie/CG*26

oh and when i was 13 I experienced some crap that made me wanna die but I'm still here all I'm trying to get is if you force somthing upon someone aggrivation things aren't gonna help there gonna make things worse

omg this thread...is so funny! though its not ment to be ..man everyones soo rude here..........i wonder if it helped at all...k i am no use here..:S

look girl, you don't have to listen to all the stuff these people are saying to you and about you...I'm 14 and my life has gotten a little better and when I was 13 I wanted to kill myself too but I got threw it with the help of my friends...My brothers to yell and hit me too...but some people just don't know what they are talking about or what everyone else goes through...e-mail me if you need some help or just want to talk about your problems or ow your day went... Mana_4evr@yahoo.com

No, you don't have to listen but you should.

you shouldnt listen to that girl. if you say its not over your brother then its not over your brother. but i know what you are going through i feel the same way about the world and everything if you ever want to talk just write me but pills are calling my name to.

no she don't have to and she shouldn't listen to someone like you...If ur calling her an idiot and u don't know what she's going through, DON'T CALL HER AN IDIOT cuz If you've ever been depressed and can't find a way through it, u'd feel the same fucking way she does...Don't give her any shit about things u don't understand urself! She shouldn't have to listen to all ur shit and she shouldn't have to put up with anything either!! Leave the damn girl alone cuz I know she tierd of you and ur big mouth!! You don't control her life so don't tell her things' that aren't true!!

Being that I have 7 and 8 years on the two of you I'd say that I DO understand what she's going through. Everything affects people differently, I understand that but I was a teenager too, and not too long ago. I know what it's like to be very sad....or depressed. My life hasn't been all peaches and cream but do I sit on the internet and tell everyone I'm going to pop a bunch of pills? NO! Why? Because I'm NOT that stupid. I wouldn't pop a bottle of Tylenol to try to kill myself. Life isn't that bad nor will it ever be. You have problems just as everyone else in this damn world. All 13 and 14 year old (girls especially) hate their lives. Trust me...soon it will be over.

I have a life darling. I'm at work right now. You're 16 years old....I know when I was 16 I wasn't at home hugged up with my computer. You seem to be the one who needs a life. I have one thanks. I work two full jobs and STILL have a social life. So what is it exactly that you were saying? Hmmmm... I am free to post in what ever forum I like and my reasoning for talking to her in here is not to be hateful...it's because I care. It's because I hate to see such young teens think life is all crap. So take your stupid ass suggestions and give them to someone who could use them.

ya know you are a real bitch nat and you really need to leave her alone ok go some where else and bug someone else ok but dont call this girl an idiot when you dont even know what she is going through ok.

Again I was 13 once too...I know what she's going through. Everyone's life is filled with unwanted drama, that's just life. I'm bitch according to you and that's fine by me. She wasn't as taken back by the things I said to her as you were....that's funny. It seems what I said struck you in a special place as well. Glad I could help dear.

PILLS are not the way my dad died of a over dose last year it broke my heart i miss him so much!!
now i barley even take pills b cuz i am so scared to end up like my dad and get addicted to them! so i just wanted to let u no that even if u do take pills the next morning the pain is still there. i have seen it happen to my dad and i hated it i no ur in pain and really depressed did u ever try to talk to someone and just cry it really works. when dad past away i tried to kill myself but the crying and talking do work so plz just try it b 4 u do somting u will regret

Nat, you say that you care about people on this forum and all and yet you're calling this poor girl and idiot...I thought you cared. If you cared enough, you'd care about this girls feelings other than judging her ok? u just don't know! take amber's advice too! cuz you really need to!

OOooohh big almighty girl called me a bitch! Do you feel older? Do you feel any better? Hmmmm...I do know actually as I was 13. Been there, done that. All 13 year old girls think their lives are shit but it's a phase, it'll pass. You don't know what I've been through in my life so please don't tell me I don't know anything about being a teenage girl or about having problems. This is what we call LIFE dumb ass...we ALL have one and we ALL have problems...get over it.

EXCELLENY WHY!!!!! That's awesome!!

So, let me get this straight, Your going after Amber now for calling you a bitch and, yet, You're calling her a dumb ass?? Yeah!!! REAL MATURE!!!

Maybe but she's still calling her a dumbass and getting on to her about calling her a bitch so...

Dont be sorry 'alone in the dark', u posted thinking that mayb ppl on here would be less judgemental etc, u need help, support, and im sorry ppl are putting u down. i thought mayb not everyone was so judgemental fuck i was wrong. what is with all u ppl?

ALONE actually understood what I was saying. She didn't take what I said half as bad as you people so why are you all freaking out. It doesn't have anything to do with you so shut up already..

I don't give a damn what Amber called me...her little pee words don't affect me. I wasn't "getting on her" for calling me a bitch...merely teasing her for it. ;)

Please Don't Commit Suicide...Thats Crazy...Thats Not Even Worth It You've Got Alot To Live For

hey.....no worries hun i noe how u feel wen u wanna just give up and u feel like nuthing around u is working and the bad days just keep on comin but u gotta live for the ppl who care for u!!!!!

Ok question: if people don't want to hear about other peoples' problems, or hear them talking about how they cut or want to kill themselves or whatever, then why do they come to the SADNESS AND DEPRESSION part of the message boards?? I mean really, if someone is feeling suicidal, and you come and put them down, its just going to make them worse and possibly push them to kill themselves, or if they're wanting to cut, then they might feel pushed to cut! So just don't do it! Stay away from this part of the site if you don't want to hear it or if you don't have anything positive to say.