Can someone please tell what i should do?

I used to be, not but a few days ago, a happy bubbly person. I carry a lot of burdens but I have always locked them away and been able to cope. But recently I feel so depressed. I just want to lie down and cry, but I wont let myself. My whole persona is a lie. I present myself as a happy easy-going person, even though Im screaming inside. I dont want to end up really really depressed. I have heard from people and met people who have been, and If i could skip that whole experience it would be awsome. But I feel myself being pulled deaper and deaper into it. Please tell me what I can do.

Hey I was the same, still kind of am, but what I did to kind of draw me away from this was talk to someone I trust about my problems, and made myself cry. I never let myself cry, but someone said to me if it would make me feel better about everything, I should. So I did. Trust me, find somebody you trust and talk to them, cry on them whatever and just tell them everything. You will feel so much better about things.

I have someone in mind, but I dont think I can do that. I am so lost. Please tell no one, but I thought about cutting today and if he found that out...it would just be bad. He is already really concerned, and I dont want to concern him further, but he is the only one I trust that I feel comftorble talking to.

It may help to tell him literally everything. I didn't think I could either, and it took me about a month - a month ½ to come out with everything. It will help you.

see my above post: 'Is your depression just sadness'. it might help a little.

I used to feel like that. Alright I feel like I'm a total misanthrope from time to time, but it' easier to deal with than pretending to be happy when ur not. If you have a particular talent (like music, writing drawing, etc) Go for it. Make yourself feel special. If it helps, inflate your ego just that little bit.
Always here if you need me
Luv Scarlet xxxx

i think u should talk about it maybe it will take some stuff off ur mind if u talk about to someone? go have some fun do somthing to get that stuff off ur mind!
~*~SUMMER~*~

I have never, not even once in my life, opened up to anyone about anything. It is really hard. I thought about cutting, and i wrote a poem, i had to print it out in a hurry because i had to go see that guy so i just tossed it in my purse well he found it and i tried strangling him to get it back, but ehn he k=lied to me and told me he had already read most f it so i gave up. So i was forced to open up to him a little, i am in no way completly honest with him about everything and i really want to be, but i just cant....

Neither have I, and I know it's INCREDIBLY hard but it will help you, believe me.

Thank you all. Your advice helps a lot.

hey i know exactly how u feel...i feel the exact same way, and it's soo frustrating cuz it feels like i'm liveing a lie....yet i don't wanna be depressed cuz i'm afraid of wut ma friends and family will say....i always act happy and cheerful and sumtimes i think."omg how fake can i get" ya know....its hard.....theres so much i haven't told my friends, yet they think they know everythin bout me cuz i act like i'm an open book......i want to tell them wut i feel and wut goes through my head...yet i'm afraid that they'll ditch me or won't understand and start ignoring me....i know its stupid but its just all soo complicated....thats y i write poetry it help alot to get it all out....also i dance and this physical exertion helps me to keep from wanted to cut......also i listen to loud music it drowns away all my worries and pains at times.....u should try it sumtime i bet it'll help.....it did to me anyway....ne wayz i g2g i'll ttylz byez!
~Luvz~
~Sexy Lil Dancer~

I love loud music, and I love to dance, (well DDR anyways) I have been keaping really busy and I have done a pretty good job of keaping my mind off of it, but today...

DDR :O I love them! What's your favourite one? I prefer Afronova (sp?)

I just started playing a month ago. I am on standard 5 steps right now. I needf to work on my eigth notes. I have Konamix, but I play extreme at a local internet cafe (EATON'S). I love paranoia, candy, speed over beathoven, la copa de la vida, ect, ect ect.... I will have to try Afranova today. =)

DDR fans, huh? I play too. DDR Max 2. I can do Afronova on standard mode. Tiring, but fun! I also like Tsugaru, I Feel... and Xenon.

-- Maharani of Angels

DDR is the devil's work. Those machines are sent from hell.

I have nightmares of my friend Myles playing DDR while my slightly weirder friend Robert sings show tunes.

My idea of hell is thousands of sweaty, fat men playing DDR while that annoying sound from Oops I Did It Again plays (yey yey yey yey yeiiiiiiiii....).

I was like that too. Try talking to someone that you trust with your life and wouldn't mind telling. Maybe that will help. But if you don't have anyone to talk to. You always have everyone on this site. I hope everything works out.

~blackroseblood~