pathetic, empty, and feeling like i'd rather be dead

this is just basicly a poor me thing...that you probably dont' want to hear about...more less i hate myself...i hate everythign about myself...i feel like a failure...all i do is harm..i don't deserve this life that i'm living....i just feel empty cold and dead...i thought i might be getting better by now..but apparently not

if u are goign to say get a life and move on ...plz don't respond....it's just a poor me thing..i'll get a move on here soon...plz don't analyze me

I feel the same way hun but dont cut do this as a vent, and put your blades away

i got rid of my blades a while back..now all i have is flame..never burned myself before..i guess there's a first for everything

Don't hang around people who have low self esteem, trust me. I've had a problem with cutting last year. And friends with really high self esteem really helped. They can become really good influence if you hang around them. But keep in mind that you don't have to change to be with them.

doesn't that suck? it always seems like it is getting better and then it comes back worse than ever...just for rite now hold your head high and try to get through it. you do deserve the life ur living or else you'd be gone by now. try to talk to your friends more (if they understand what you've been through) and if it gets so bad go to a shrink...

i agree im not really reading it but i agree

it's so fn scary...i dont' know waht exaclty it is that is scary...maybe it's just that i havent' actually been happy for so long...that i forgot how it feels..it's like stepping into a room full of strangers it that makes sense...i hate feelign liek crap...but i don' t know how to feel any different...then the fn urges are so fn strong...i hate it...it is so hard...once u think of suicide and whatnot...it doesn't go away until u give in...at least that's how it's been for me...thank u for caring

..i'm just screwed up.....that's all there is to it

You're not screwed up. You just need to turn that hate into determination to stop those feelings. Sorry can't think of much else to say...

"if u are goign to say get a life and move on ...plz don't respond....it's just a poor me thing..i'll get a move on here soon...plz don't analyze me"

Get a life and move on.

i know what you mean... :'( i'm sorry you feel like that.... i have been there also. well i guess i still am but im pretty good at pretending that im ok to people. so i figure if you pretend it enough, maybe you will believe it yourself. if you want to talk please write to me i'll listen whenever.

mmm_smells_like_teen_spirit@hotmail.com but i have yahoo and aim messenger also.

kate

i know exactly what you mean. i've forgotten what it's like to actually laugh and feel happiness.. but then u think that there's no happiness because you just haven't felt it for so long. i guess depression narrows it down quite a bit. i'm sorry tho..just because i cant help you, becuase anythin i'd say to help would be hypocritical...
but i can try n be there and well i can understand and thats always good...so just weneva k!?
take care...all of you x x x

I know what you mean. Even though Ive told everyone I dont cut anymore, I still get depressed and feel like that quite often. What I do is think of good things that have happened to me and write down all the reasons I have to carry on going.....may sound stupid but it works for me. Or I go out running, listen to music that cheers me up or just spend time with my mates. They always make me feel alot better.