this is your future if you cut

I used to be medicated for all sorts of things, and when I didn't take my meds, the withdrawls were so bad I didn't know what I was doing. So I decided I would go a few days without the meds, and I ended up so delusional I tried to kill myself (something I would never do if I KNEW what I was doing), by ODing on my mum's perscription pills. I went completely numb, and I started seeing thousands of sorbert colored dots... then I completely passed out and started seeing these dargons eating people- it was so vivid and real that I was afraid they were going to eat me. And then I woke up the next day in the hospital, with my best friend, who lives three states away, SCREAMING at me, telling me what an idiot I was for ever trying to leave him alone in the world.

Seeing my friend upset like that was terrible, but honestly, I wuit the drinking, drugs, cutting, and comlaining for one reason; I never wanted to see those damn dragons again. I seriously thought they were going to eat me.

And the meds they had me on were anti-depressants so that I would stop cutting and doing the drugs and drinking. So this is a waring for cutters; I've been there, but if you don't look out for yourself, you could be seeing those dragons for eturnity.

Not trying to preach, cause I've done the exact same things and I can't say I haven't thought about it since. But those dragons were so disturbing...

I know it sounds crazy, but don't let it happen to you, it effing sucks!

Luv Niki

You just said amen to Bob's thread and then you go and post this.....

because i did cut, and i hate how people criticise people for how they are. and i know how much it sucks to be a cutter- its the worst feeling in the world, it's another thing to hide... i just want people to know this side of it. i know it sounds a little hypocritical, but i've been through the worst of it, so i CAN be for and against it, know what people see on both sides.

Shattered...I understand you want to share your story and "help" but everyone is allowed to share their opinions. So if you can add yet another cutting post everyone else can surely share their thoughts and feelings on the subject as you are. You say it's so hard to be cutter so why be one? Why not just stop or better yet never start something so horrible. When I talk to people about cutting it's not to be mean or "bash" them it's just to get my point of view across and just MAYBE shine a new light for someone.

good for you. i didn't accuse you of anything, i'm just saying (as crazy as i sound), that i can see both sides of the argument. and i don't cut anymore, i agree that it's terrible and people shouldn't do it. even more so BECAUSE i went through it. but there really aren't people on here that used to cut and are trying to get a different point of veiw across other than "leave us alone." Like you, i'm just trying to get my point across.

But i do have to tell you, i can see how people would think you're just insulting them. No offense! it's just something about the way you word it... it's almost sounds like you're being picken on and have to stick up for yourself. and i'm not "bashing" you, i'm just saying : )

♥Niki

thanks for the pointers, i think the moral of ur thread is "dragons are scary" lol