I Feel Useless

I just feel completely useless... Lost... So much stuff happened in the last week, my head is still spinning. Most of the stuff would have driven lesser people to suicide, but I'd rather not talk about it, because I'll just get mad again [Put it this way - I punched a hole through a 50lb punching bag]. I'm so angry and sad that I don't know what to do with myself.

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well, I dunno what to tell you, except to talk about it. my e-mail is bunches_of_strawberries@yahoo.com
drop me an email if you feel like talking.

At times like this, I want to be alone, but then again, I want to vent... I just don't want to come off as one of those other cry babies we see on these forums alking about their superficial problems and griping about how it will never be okay, though it will.. and so on. i guess it just feels weird being on the opposite end of the advice column...

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If I felt like talking about it, which I might later, I wouldn't know where to start. It's all seething crap on a stick...

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I may go to bed soon [it's 11:50 here] but I may stay on and post something tonight... I don't know for sure...

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ok well im here too!! i know exactly what u mean being on the other end etc. u can tell soem ppl who like u said 'cry babies' but then when u're feeling down its just so bad!!
i hope u're ok...pm me if u ever need ok
take care x x x

Okay. At least I know who I can go to for help. It's kind of sad when he advice giver needs it herself...

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yeh i know what you mean!! and then whenever i go to comfort someone, i realise i should be taking that some advice..but i just can't...i guess we need each other.
can i ask what's up??

> I just met my biological mom and it threw my family into a whirlwind of dillusions about me and my intentions [thinking that I'd leave them for her]. They lied to me about being adopted until I was in middle school. They now act like I'm this bad person for wanting to know my family.
> My friends must think I'm God, because they all come to me about heir problems and never once think I may have my own to deal with.
> I can't think straight anymore because I'm tied between pre-college stress and home [aka hell].

So really, I just feel overwhelmed. It goes much deeper than what I've told you, but i don't want to go that far.

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