*will anyone talk to me?*

im newly broken hearted and don't wish to be alone..

if you dont feel like listening to me complain thats okay, just please don't call me pathetic or stupid.. i've been called that a lot today. thank you..

Sure. What's wrong?

just another lost relationship for me.. *sigh* thank you for replying.

Care to talk about it?

couldn't hurt i suspose.. it happened about 6 or so hours ago that it was an offical break up.. haven't really stoped crying since.. i kinda thought that he was going to leave me.. but all i had my ideas i thought that was as bad as it could be.. i have a habit of ever exadurating things.. but come to find out what i thought would be a reality.. he said he loves me but it just cant work out.. we've been off and on again a few times.. each time is hurting more and more.. i cant stop thinking about everything we've been though.. which is just making me feel worse and worse by the moment.. im not sure what to do.. my heart was never broken like this before.. and its been broken a lot..

I'm not sure what to tell you besides that I'm sorry. I'm sure you'll find someone else, sometime.. Don't worry about one guy out of 3 billion others. This guy wasn't worth your tears. (I hate it when girls cry..) If it helps, you can stay here in this thread and vent at me. Okay?

im not much of a venter.. i normally just deal with my pain alone.. but.. i thought since this is different that i've ever felt.. i could try actually talking things out..

Never know until you try, huh?

Hmm?

*puts my arm around you* Say what you want. I'm only here to listen.

thank you both.. but i really dont know where to start..

Fine. You probably want to talk to girls about this stuff anyway. I'm out, then. Don't worry your pretty little head about it too much, though.

wish i knew where the begging was.. too lost and confued to even know.. i would of liked to have a guys opinion.. but, i guess too late now..

well.. i guess ill leave, funny story talks more important.. *sigh* besides i dont think theres anyone that could help me.

Get your butt back here!

whats the point?..

I said I'd listen, so now you talk.

I care about you - not their stupid story! That's why I came here! Now sit your butt down and talk, if that's what you're really here for.

fine.. ill talk.. i've lost basically everything.. he was the last thing i had for happiness, i dont have a reason to smile or anything now. no more hope, its distroyed, if you cant be happy.. why stay in a world of misery, i know you can just say it will hurt for a whille then just slowly start to fade.. but i dont think it will be that way for me. ill never forget him, and he'll always be in my torn up heart, a constant reminder of what i use to have.. and what will never be the same again. it kills me now and its just the first day.. i know the pain will just grow more and more.. does any one know how to numb the pain?

You're alive, you have a family with a safe place to live, food in your stomach, friends who care about you (obviously - what do Angelina, Unpretty and myself look like to you?)... You have more right there than a lot of people could ever dream for. Don't ever say that you've lost everything down to you reasons to smile when you are so blessed to have all of that. There are 3 billion other men out in the world, and evidently, he was not the one for you. Sure, you'll never forget him, because you had a relationship with this guy and obviously cared about him. But one guy isn't everything. be thankful for what you have, rather than regretful for what you don't.

your kinda both wrong about a few things.. i dont really have a family.. not that safe of a place to live, i maybe alive.. but i dont really want to be at this time. there are other guys out there.. but their not the one i want.. or need..i know i might just be acting stubborn.. maybe even selfish, but i cant help it..

You're upset and looking for a foothole. I see that. But it's not all as bad as you make it out ot be.

Trust me. My living arragements are probably one Hell of a lot worse than yours.

And I'm older than you and I've been where you are and I know what it's like. "Live to love, love to live"

since im trying to be open ill explain.. i live with my uncle.. when he actually is around hes drunk.. an abusive drunk at that, i've been with him since my father died 2 years ago, my passed isn't something i'd really like to remember but if either of you wish to know more.. you can ask. my life could be worse i suspose, but cant i just this once.. really over react? im basically having a break down...

letssee... I am in college and live with 5 other guys, sharing one bathroom. They all come in at two in the morning, drunk off their a**es, loud, clumsy, cursing... I can never sleep... I haven't had a girlfriend since senior year in high school (but I don't care, I get plenty of "it" Ha Ha!) I pay $300 a month for the apartment (we all live off campus, about a block away) and the place is a mess - they never pick up after themselves, so if I've got a problem with it, I clean it up. On top of all of that, I take 15 credit hours a week (full course load, ladies).

you'd have to know him to really understand..

i didnt really mean it that way.. i just meat if you knew him maybe you would be able to understand how this really is.. i really didnt want to be one of those you dont understand people.. im usually the one who gives advice.. i've now realized that im more pathetic than i thought possible.. i know im being a little difficult with this.. but for some reason my heart just wont listen to my head..

Yeah... I saw that one coming (what's with girls and "you wouldn't understand"?)

All guys are the same. We're complete a**holes. Get over it.

Not as much as girls do! Girls are really whiny about break ups. I'll be a little upset for a week, but then I'm back to my normal horny self. LMFAO!! I just won't get into any relationship type things for a while (month, give or take)

well this isnt normal for me, every other guy i was ever with i was sad for a while, but as the first day went out the pain stoped.. i never really cared about anyone like i have for him.. sure he did the whole we'll be friends type thing. but when does that ever actually work? as for the guy thing i use to believe that, he changed my mind on love and that maybe there was such a thing as real love, look where hope got me.. better just to give up now isnt it?

yeah, I'd vouch for that one. my ex cried over our break up for a month (we were together for three years). she still won't talk to me. oh well.

Love and life's common bond: THEY BOTH SUCK!

im sorry to of wasted your time....

Frickin' Hell, woman! You're not wasting ANYONE'S time!

sarcastic point hurt though.. i appreciate that your tying to help me.. really i do, but i feel as if im just a hopeless cause now.. i dont mean to cause anyone stress or annoy.. im just scared that the pain will never stop.. i cant live with anymore pain.. it feels as if its just the last time for anything.. i know thats what most people say.. but i just dont know how to dicribe all of this into words..

If it would make you feel any better, tell me where you live and I'll kick his arse to a bloody pulp. Then he'll be so ugly you can't NOT hate him.

Of course, you know I'm kidding, too, right?

God... Please, Anji... Stop crying. I hate seeing girls cry(In person OR on the computer)... No lady should ever be this upset... Come on, cheer up, will you? You have me and Angel here. Isn't that enough?