Any girls or guys w/ advice for me?

i think you just answered your own question hun... you are (and i dont mean to offend), putting your sadness and fears into the people that you try get close to...for this instance, your boyfriends. in the end, i found most guys brought me down even more when depressed and it makes it worse.. you dont need a boy at this time i think.. try dealing with yourself before thinking bout boys again. best of luck hun... mwah

Leah,
Many relationships at a young age fail. More and more people are becoming less for love and more for lust. This is especially true in younger years these days. Set yourself apart from the group..

I noticed you replied with your looks and things you do..
This is a good sign at your age that you are looking for the wrong thing while you are wanting something else.
Things that you do such as a profession or something seems fine, but details such as you abs etc seems to deep.
You need to think different if you are looking for a different type of person then what you have been getting.
Before you go into a relationship with a guy, try to understand what his passions are.
What gets him going and what his prioritys are for many things.
Many people at your age most of them, are not what you are looking for if you are looking for something that will last.
Most will only last if they get what they want from you (not love)
Find guys who are motivated to what they want to do in life.
The ones who want to pursue something, not football etc..
But someone who has set real passions for their life.
They have a understanding of what commitment is.
See what his prioritys are, such as will he choose his friends over a nite of being with you. (Not Sex)
Most guys in love I find will always go where their heart leads them.
Do not attempt to push him into doing something with you instead of his friends..
This is totally different.
Their is much more detail into the way I think you should try to find someone..
Try to understand how they think fully, what they want, their passions, prioritys, etc..
Look for key things that make them stick out, such as going out of their way to do something.
Which will in turn help them persue what they want to do in life.
You will find a type of person you have never met if you take things like this in.
And use it seriously/wisely..

great advice kevin.. i might just take some of that..lol:P
yeh you'll be right...just look after yourself
chin up and smile:)
x x x

Thanks Torn,

Leah you may want to read something I wrote up in my 'non-updated' blog ;)
It is very long so if you choose to read it do it when you have time.

http://tdkhosting.com/kevin/2005/04/how-to-find-real-personpart-12-and.html