Ever just wanted to leave?

I don't see myself that way. But how can you tell, when you can't see your own eyes? I may be the most arrogant being on earth, but I well may be the most humble. I don't really know, so I have to rely on others' impressions of me to tell. My writing, however, is stiff, because I have to get used to using proper grammar. Cuz if i type like dis, in my term papers at school, my professors will deduct points. Maybe I should learn to relax a little, huh?

Actually im perfectly calm about the situation most of the time. Shit happens. Besides no matter what will always be happy in the knowledge that I have seen the light (In more ways than one lol) But discussion on the subject and emotions helps me stay focussed and sane (well as sane as is possible lol). Yeah mainly it’s the boy. I mean my childhood has been no fairy story but…like I said shit happens.

Britt, you were right, so I do owe you an apology for the argument. I was so sure this was a more deep seated issue, but, in fact, it's no more than a shallow-rooted man problem.

Yes, Garret relax. No need to be serious all the time.

And you don't see yourself that way because you are NOT second guessing yourself to someone else. Someone else isn't belittling YOU....many may take what you say as you talking down to them as if they are not good enough to stand upon your level...

When did I assume superiority? I never actaully said I was better than anyone else. Again, like I said, I am just as dumb as the next person, because humanity is stupid. No one is better than anyone else, because we all have our strengths and weaknesses. Some more than others, but these traits exist.

Garret...you NEVER have to say something to make a person feel a certain way. It's the way you talk to people...

HAHAHAHAHA

Personally, I think I'm a dumba** and I'm suprised I ever made it through high school in the first place. I look around me and see all of these math and science major and feel like I should be back in elementary school. Goes to show that there is always someone smarter and better, but you never really know. Because even the smartest person can be the stupidest.

Garrett I think you're missing our point here....regarless of what YOU think there is a way one can carry themselves to make other think like they're expected to look up to them. Like you're almighty rightiousness.

Well, if you don't mind, can you tell me what I'm doing wrong? I don't like to "rub you the wrong way". I'm here to write poems and make friends - not get into cat/dog fights.

No cat - dog fight here...just sharing opinions which is what this is all about.

That’s why I am not going anywhere. But sometimes I think I should, but I mustn’t. Im trapped anyway. If I went it would be like running into darkness in the hope of finding the light I once bathed in as it is, it’s like bathing in pale but perfect light that may not last and knowing if it disappears I may will have to live in darkness forever. Sorry I kno it’s weird but well this is a poem sight so hopefully everyone’s poetic enough to get it.

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH

Did I judge you, Britt? I think you are the one judging me. You don't know me, but you still want to put your labels on me, like you do know me. Correct me if I'm wrong, but a person's major does not determine their character. If that were true, we wouldn't have Catholic preist who rape little boys. We wouldn't have police officers who break the law... There wouldn't be a lot of the idiocynacracies we have in today's society.

So what's your point?

*sigh* Garett, this is *very* similer to the argument with Ismail.

Did I really ask for this? I said I was sorry for doubting her... When did I label her or belittle her? (And where did Ismail come into this???)

um, maybe I should tell you that i'm formerly known as Feline Fatigue?

I'm on your side, Garett...sorry if you misunderstood...

Feline! Thank you. (wow... You had me fooled. I didn't know that was you) *hugs* How are you? (I have obviously had a rough day... Been arguing with Angelina and Britt since I got back to my apartment and on the computer)

fooled you, huh? didn't mean to, the computer wont let me change my profile right now. i've been pretty good, just had another mood swing and got serious, at least for the most part.

Eh. Mood swings are fun, aren't they?

they come naturaly for me. I'll be a foolish unintellegent bufoon again aventually.

Hmm... Let's see... Arguing the validity of my statistics, doubting I was truthful about what year I was in college, doubting my abilities to read people... Letting natalie and Britt tear at me like wolves and laughing about it... Is that not arguing?

m-hm-hm-hm

You are not foolish, or unintelligent, or a bafoon, Soceress(Feline)... Names mean nothing. If you are smart as a sorceress, who can say you aren't as a fluffy little kitty?

my mind is a complex place, Garett. Sure you want to plunge into it's depths?

'Letting natalie and Britt tear at me like wolves'

NO! Merely giving my OPINION of you. The impression that YOU yourself surrendered.

surrendered to what? I read most of the conversation, and I have found that you've taken your opinion and crudly advanced it to the point of being factual.

Natalie.

I have to go, I am being forced off the computer yet again.

Angelina, stay out of this. This never involved you and it still doesn't. I'm done with you and really want nothing to do with you, so stop trying to argue with me.

Hopefully, I can talk to you later tonight, Feline. Bye.

if ur going to miss ppl ur not ready to leave everything behind yet now are you? think

hmm interesting

lets just say that sometimes you're so 'in it' that you can't see the consequences and that there's another way...

yeh but to think you could just go away with no responsibilities is foolish... good old sun would be good...hmmm

I meant I was willing to leave everything behing tho I would miss people it would be nothing to the despair and agony I will have to go through if I see him turn his back and walk away for what may be the last time. But no I will stay. Got to keep hopeing that it will all work out somehow. That I will never have to witness him just drift away for good.

I get in that mood a lot too. Mostly when I'm with my family. Sometimes with my friends if I just did something really stupid. But then I do something really brilliant, or atleast mildly entertaining, or somewhat productive, and all is forgiven again.

I love you Garrett. You have empathy.