¿ What's Bothering You ?

dear ariana....

not every1 is sad b/c some1 else...some (like me)
deserve it....and that itself makes them sad...my boyfriend broke up w/ me b/c of my own mistakes....and now im paying for it....and it hurts like hell....im trying as hard as i can to just get over it...but you know what??? LOVE ISNT THAT EASY TO GET OVER....oh wow who woulda ever guessed that??

Dear Erica,

Love would be something easy to get over if we didn't wallow in the heartache all the time. It seems that when the one you love is gone, that's all you choose to think about. The depressed, sad moments. The tears, the sound of your own heart shredding by the fabric. How often do people choose to remember the sweet kisses, tight hugs, and words that at one point you believed were true?

Nobody can ever make false hope nowadays to keep themselves happy. That right there is sad.

And time is the strong medicine. But it's up to you to decide whether it's going to help save you or put you in the morgue.

Use your time wisely.

Sincerely,

//Ari\\

Dear Megan,

I can't believe you're turning sixteen. Damn. I wish your dad could see you now. He'd feel like spitballs for missing out on your life. I'd love to make him feel that way..

I don't know what i should get you for your birthday. Maybe i should give you a hug, something i haven't really done to anybody for the longest time. I'm not sure. Maybe i'll get scared that i'll cry or something. Or maybe i won't.

I hate maybe's. One thing i always try to hide from you and the family is that i hate the unknown. And right now, i don't know if i'm being the good sister and big sister i'm supposed to be for you.

But oh well. I'll figure that out later, i guess. Who knows, really..

Love From Your Baby Sister,

//Ariana\\

Dear JustAri,

about the love issue....the sadness isn't what people focus it is the kisses and hugs and good times that you had that people focus on AND THEY MISS IT! which in turn causes them to be so desperate and miserable without it....it's hard to get over things you can't change......

Dear Jaime,

"it's hard to get over things you can't change......"

^Thanks for reminding me.

Take Care,

//Ari\\

Dear Ari,

Not that it matters but it's spelled Jamie*

you take care as well

Dear Jamie,

Sorry. :P I think there's another member on this site named "Jaime".

//Ari\\

Ari,

no problem

Dear JustCute,
Okay, I admit it! I miss you like I miss Ari! I want youse back damnit! Sorry, I can't give sexual favours to you until my you-know-what heals from the night before with Coolor and Coosten. That's right, you guessed it! My left hand is broken in three different places because we were playing cards.

P.S. They are cheats! I mean, how esle would you get a set of five Aces?!

P.P.S I think you're a forty something year old man pretending to be a 13 year old girl. That would explain why you're so good with blah, blah, and blah.

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Dear Atomic,

HA! You DO want me back! YAY!!!! :D

But that's alright about that hand of yours. Just put some ice on it. And while you're in the freezer, get me a popsicle. :P

HAHAHA, Coolor and Coosten equals to cheats?? I believe you. O__O

It's been said many times before that i am a forty something dude. BUT IT AIN'T TRUE, I TELLS YA!!!

I mean, even though i have that manbrain...you know that doesn't mean anything..O_O

//JustCute\\

P.S.- And i'm NOT paranoid!! @_@

Dear myself,
I hate you for thinking that people cared, and trying to reach out..it backfired. i hate you so much i can't see any good i might have had.

Dear friends,
i wish you could care/love me half as much as i do to you. why don't you care? what have i done?

Dear Kate,
you scared me so much when you tried to kill yourself. you are my life, the only one who cares and loves me. Only one who has always been there. ironically you are also the only one who has me as much as you have. i thought i had lost you. i felt sick at the thought of the pain you are going through...
i love you dont ever leave me.

Dear family,
too fucking angry to say anything to you.
i love and hate you all the same...you all drive me insane.

sincerely,
anna

Dear JustCute,
I saw your test results for what sex is your brain and if I remember correctly, it's more male than female! The world is ending because JustCute is more manly than me!

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Dear Britt,
I've heard/read of something going on between youse, Nat, and Kris. What exactly happened? Care to share it with your loving husband? E-mail me if you want. And if you don't want too, I understand, after all. There's privacy to reconsider.

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Dear Atomic,
I know you didn't ask ME but I'll tell you. Kristen told Britt that she didn't want to talk to her because she now has Rachel and Shicahcah to talk to. Britt got upset because she has been there for Kristen so much and when Britt told me about it I got upset so I sent Kristen an email. Kristen knows how much Britt cares about her so she knew it would hurt Britt’s feelings…as it did mine. The email simply explained how she was wrong and how she has pushed us all away while we are only trying to be her friends. I have the email to share with everyone if someone cares to read it. Then Kristen sent me an email telling me to "f- off" and "f- you." She used very colorful words to describe her disdain for me. I also have those emails to share. She then recruited her little side kick Rachel to email me who called me a bitch and told me I should have taken my problems up with her. Very silly if you ask me as she is NOT the problem. The problem was Kristen was treating people that were trying to help her like dog poo. Anyway to make a long story short everyone is now fighting because of Kristen.

I hope that helped.

Natalie

Dear Cooids,

What the hell. :(

//Ari\\

Dear Coojari,

It sucks!

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Well, you know what, Natalie? I HONESTLY, in MY opinion, think it's Kristen's RIGHT, it's her choice to get rid of someone who may not be up to her standards. Kristen in human too, as is Britt, I'm sure....i wish they weren't fighting, but it's not your place to send Kristen an email. You should have just let them fight it out. It's not like they were going to literally murder each other.

People do it all the time....even i have to leave people who genuinely love me sometimes, just simply because of stupid little things. Britt may have been trying to help, but what Kristen did, surely she had a reason to do.

Besides, this thread has practically been declared a place to express your problems. It sounds to me like Kristen is hurt by A relationship...i'm still a little curious as to WHICH one she's talking about becasue the names were so indecise, but i don't really care...

Good luck to the both of you...

I'm so sorry, Kristen, dearest...you'll pull through this silly little arguement...

Britt wasn't "up to her standards?" Is that what you are saying? A person giving friendship and help? That's funny. Since you OBVIOUSLY don't know the whole story you should just stay out of it. It wasn't just Britt she was pushing away it was me too. I was bothered by that...excuse me for caring. Excuse me for trying to be a good friend. I wanted Kristen and I to continue our friendship as I do very much like her...so why shouldn't I have sent an email with my problem? I'm not phony and I do not ACT like everything is ok when it's not. Britt and I talked on a few occassions about Kristen pushing us away and we both wanted to say something but didn't want to cause any friction so finally I just decided to do it. Kill me for caring about a friend. Please next time you try to give your two cents understand the situation first.

I'm trying to, and that is why I joined.....sitting back and watching one of my best friends being bashed by people she THOUGHT were her friends does not sit well with me either....Kicking her out of the cooids (which btw, I don't give a fuckin rat's ass about considering you all just "declared" yourselves as cool people) that's taken a toll on her too. You, saying you're friend....well if you were her friend, Nat...i HIGHLY doubt she would send you an email telling you to fuck off...

You weren't there for her last night when it most likely seemed that her world was falling apart. You're only seeing Britt's side...and no, I wasn't saying Britt wasn't "up to her standards" per say....People just have different ideals that they look for in people..you of all people should know that within that little COOIDS club of yours..you don't just invite everyone in...that's the thing....you've found your friends, but you'd get rid of them instantly if you weren't too sure about them.

Oh...and you're excused. I care too, you see....and I'm concerned about you both pushing her away like that...talking about her behind her back....aren't you doing the same thing you said you wouldn't, as a friend? You're behaving far from a friend.

Actually we were talking because we wanted to make sure she understood she could talk to BOTH of us. I don't talk about people behind their backs as I'm not afraid to tell you or anyone else how I feel. Yes, we kicked her out. Why should someone that doesn't want to talk to us be in the club? Sounds a bit pointless to me. Yes, that's right. I was there for Kristen on occassion at 5-6 in the morning, I emailed her when needed, and talked to her within the forums many times. I offered friendship, support, and encourangment. Trying MY best to be a good friend. I don't speak poorly of her now nor have I ever. Yes, I said she pissed me off and she did. That's life and I can understand that. In my email I didn't call her names nor did I put her down.

Her email telling me to "fuck off" was in response to my email. Again I'll say she didn't handle someone being honest very well.

Well, then, now that you have admitted to having practically backstabbed her, we can agree that not everything was handled rationally, perhaps? It's not pointless, Nat, if you promised as a friend to be there for her through anything, it's exactly the opposite of what you should have done. An entire club? and not ONE of you could talk to her RATIONALLY?

Jesus christ.......that's pretty pathetic.....

I didn't admit to anything as I didn't back stab her...I have the emails would you care to see. I'll send them all to you. It was handled "rationally." How would you know...did you read everything? I doubt it. You're an idiot...

lmao...as fun as this rendezvous with you was..

i've gotta GO!

whoot

I can't believe I actually read that ^...considering that wasted like.......10 minutes of your time writing it, and about 3 minutes of my life reading it....

And Britt--I mentioned earlier, it wasn't that I thought you weren't up to standard. I wasn't saying that you're a bad person/friend or anything. I was saying people's opinions change.

I am not biased, and as it may sound that way, what YOU don't know is that I TRIED to see it from both sides, but as I see it, it's all just one huge misunderstanding.

Also, i'm one of Kristen's friends too,....and when she said that the only people she talks to anymore is Shiky and Rachel, well, quite frankly I wasn't offended...why should you be?? Perhaps she hasn't been sending me emails or telling me every little thing wrong, but it's her choice.

And I DO think that what you said about being an actual friend not just a disposable one is very true. I can completely understand that. My only intention in this whole argument was to be with Kristen and to let her know that she's not going to be alone just because You "cooids" kicked her out.

Yes, i am a meatball hoagie, and I knew that when I typed about your cooids group that mine would get bashed also, so, truthfully, in all due respect, your insult meant very little. The whole point in the name being so uncommon should give you a clue to know that my friend Georgi and I obviously thought it a true gigglefit--fun.

Closing: I honestly don't see why Kristen is friends with you. Someone who is such a "good friend" started another useless argument which in turn hurt her even more. I think you're an idiot. You wanted to show her she was important to you and you would be there for her so you start a fight with ME to prove that to her? Please, explain how that works. And you DID in so many words say Britt wasn't up to Kristen's standard as you said people's ideal for friends change. If Kristen thought Britt wasn't good enough to be her friend she wouldn't have rejoined the COOIDS nor would she have told me she was mad that she and Britt were not speaking. She wouldn't have patched things up with Britt if she wasn't up to par. You jumped in to be the big hero yet you made yourself look foolish. I think next time you should let Kristen handle her own tiffs has I think she handled it well BY HERSELF. Further more if Britt and I weren’t good friends to her which you also said she wouldn’t be back in our group…next time you should keep your little busy body out.

Dear people at school,
Please stop using self harm as an excuse to get attention. Please stop cutting yourselves in class and showing anyone who'll look. Its stupid, and you need to stop thinking self harm is a trend cause now even more of you have started cutting.

Dear Parents,
Im sorry I cant be what you want me too. Im sorry Im not like my brother. Im sorry I let you down. Im sorry I cant ever do anything right. Im sorry you have to live with me. Im sorry Im a disappointment.

Dear ******,
You know what you did to me. Thanks for making me unable to be comfortable around guys. Thanks for making me cover up what I really feel in stupid ways that get on everyones nerves. Thanks for turning me into what I am today. you destroyed me and you've left me with no self esteem and no confidence.

Dear Everyone,
Im sorry I annoy you guys most of the time. Im sorry for talking wrong, acting wrong and looking wrong. Im just sorry i cant be perfect.

Dear Me,
Please stop feeling so sorry for yourself. Please stop feeling like this all the time. Please stop being too scared and embarrased to ask for help. And please, please stop making a fool out of yourself and destroying everything good thats ever happened to you and stop acting that way towards from the one person who has ever tried to help you.

Yours sincerely,
Rachel

*P.S, please dont laugh at this :(

No one is laughing...you only did what everyone is supposed to do here...hope all is well. SMILE!!!

Aw thanks :) That made me feel much better.

:)

Dear Waffle,
It's -your- fault for not learning how to write in Vietnamese. If you would have done as your mother asked you to, you would have been about to write cool things in Vietnamese that'll make people wonder. Like Shiky did. *slap Waffle* Gosh! You're dumb!

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Dear b!tches at skool

Why wont you leave me the F**k alone.I never did anything to you to make u do and say stupid s*!t.You are all close minded b!tches..Even you were to never come back to the skool...I would be soooo happy.

dear N and K from DSHS
talk to Kim again and i promise you i will shove ten nail bombs up each of your fat asses, i'll slash your limbs to a million shreds, pour vinegar in the wounds, then stick pencils up your nose and start poking holes in your brains......lol i love this murder game we have going! love u guys

Well.....he doesnt' LIKE her....he likes you....and its not your fault, and it's not hers either...so do what you can if you like this boy...if she's a true friend she'll step aside like you have and then wait....most friends don't really like their exboytoys dating their friends, but if you're one of those girls, and he likes her sometime later...she can have him...but for the moment, he's yours. So enjoy it! XD

That's my advice!

you're absolutely welcome.....that was actually really cool...i knew exactly what i was going to say so it only took me like 2 minutes to type the whole thing...haah...coolness...

dear mum
why is it i can neva do anything right lately everything i do is wrong or not ever good enough for. Why can't u accept that ive changed and that i like the friends i have n yes .... is mi best friend. ok maybe i dont listen sometimes and i do ignore somethings that u say thats onli because it seems like i cant do anything right anymore and u are always havin a go at me so i just give up and take u yellin at me n u wonder y i have been so depressed lately.

Dear Hair,
Stop leaving me!!!!

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whats bothering me....life .....bein alive...it sux.....people that think they understand me...or think they no wats happenin in my head....my friends trying to "fix" me
*~SaRaH~*

Dear Shiky,
I hope not, old Hairy here is just jealous of the many wives that I have.

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