advise please...she's moving soon, I don't what to do.

my ex girlfriend is moving fairly far away. About a 5 1/2 hour drive up north. Well, I love her more than words can describe but have been hurt by her in the past. I've been trying to sum everything up, forget about her and move on. I thought writing about it would help but now I'm just tired of it...I need someone help me think this through right now. Ok, in a week she's moving. I gave her her early birthday presents yesterday, everything that meant so much. supossed to be on the 1st of Oct. but...she's moving before then. Yesterday I gave her those things, small talked a bit, played around with her little brothers, then she gave me a necklace...one she was wearing the first day we met. I said nothing...I couldn't say anything. If I did I'd feel wrong since I know she's with a guy. We said our gbyes, hugged...and as we did she kissed me on the cheek and said, "I love you...always will, uhm I know, last time." I told her before to not...do that, it always brings back memories and my longing for her. Just to hold once again, kiss her one last time. She was even my first real kiss...funny how that works. So I left to take the bus home and just...I missed her since I know that was the last of everything. That was our last gbye,...everything. I realized I'll never see again or anything. I want to able to still talk to her but more than anything at the moment see her once again. But I don't know what to say, to do. Can anyone tell me what to do? And if it's late to do anything before she goes...then what do I do to either or both keep in touch and move on?

okay, write every feeling you have for her down on paper, and don't stop and don't go back, just keep writing and don't stop, give that to her before she leaves. most importantly call her on the phone or go to her house and tell her thank you for the necklace. most importantly of all print this thing you wrote on her, just not the comments and give it to her so she knows how desperate for help you were. and 5 1/2 hours isn't far, i know people who live in CA and the person they love is in England...

and you're only fifteen. in three years you can move near her, or in with her. don't worry you'll work it out.

and maybe you could help me out, the one signed by '~ a s l' or 'what should i do? her bf sits next to me'

hope i could help

You make everything seem so hopeful, so possible. Only thing is I'm not good enough for her...in that I can't give her what she wants as such a child. She's not one for adopting or anything of a sort...so yeah. I just...this is more of a way of saying goodbye without saying it. For if I do...I know that it's really over. It's hard to say how she really feels about me...she always contridicts herself on that. Says she's in love with me...the next day it that she doesn't think we'll work out. Some things I know are that she's one to push people away, not truly show her feelings, and believes she's undeserving...and that no one cares. I've tried to show that she deserves more than she lets herself believe and that I care and will be there for her whenever.

Believe me when I say, spending the rest of our lives together, having a family, a safe place to live...there's nothing else I'd rather do. I want to take care of her, wake up each morning with her by my side still sleeping so peacefully. Yeah...I'm young. Yet my life has been put on fast track since I knew my time on earth will fleet soon. I never wanted to fall for anyone since I found out my condition, I planned to stay alone so I won't hurt anyone I get close to...I didn't expect to fall in love with her. Not only that...it seems her time is coming to a close as well with her own condition...not by suicide or anything.

I can say that I know that we won't be together...in practical sense that's the conclusion but...I can't stop loving her.

On to a more serious note: I'm scared for her life more than ever now. She's been depressed and says she finds no reason to live. Doesn't believe she'll live on past 19 (she's 16 now) since there's nothing left for her, especially after she leaves everything she knows. She does pills to attempt to kill her self..."numb the pain" she says. Hasn't done it in a while but...I'm afraid she'll start again and go too far. Her mother knows...and doesn't care. Even a bit abusive in the recent past I'm told.

I don't know anymore. I doubt any will try to help but, no harm in asking...
so, forget about being with her...what do I do to help her along this critical time in her life? I just want her to find happiness...so...yeah. Even if I'm not actually in it. What do I do???

all you can do is be there for her let her know you still care and you know there is one reason for her to live and thats you. You care so much and reading this makes me cry. TO know that some one can care this much it sounds like you two have been together for years. Tell her how you feel. My g/f told me once to always say how you feel b/c one day she could be gone and you would regret not saying it for the rest of your life so take a chance and tell her and good luck ok