Can't Escape Myself

i'm feeling really depressed at the moment, and i have been doing certain things that make me feel a bit better when i feel crap, well i have a best friend, who also became depressed just after i did. I've always been self contious about the way i look, and havent been eating properly for ages, well she is a total stick figure, but now she's saying 'im on strike from eating' and stuff, and if its true and she really does feel this way, i want to help her, but if she is doing it to copy me, or to get attention, its like having to live with myself two fold. help me.

because then i will feel like crap the whole time. its not easy to stop being depressed. if it was not as many people would be so depressed all the time. it sucks i swear.

not a good advise giver? my arse!!!!! you're great! seriously like some people will hate others for giving them a wake up call, but that made so much sense. i never thought that she might be worried too. Wow, yeah i am definately going to make an effort to get over everything, thank you....great advise!

For pretty much 4 years now I've been obsessed about my weight and the way that I look. There are some days that I feel like I want to die and never awake again but then I just try stay away from the mirror until I feel better. You should learn to love your body, if it helps there are plenty of overweight girls who have amazing guys with them. Being overweight or fat which I'm sure you're not can be a good thing. You do not have to starve yourself. We are our own worst critics even when somebody says you look pretty we dont believe them, that is how were made and we cant change that. But for you being depressed and all I think you arent eating cause you feel like its the only thing in life you can control which isnt true, start eating healthy and exercising. and no if you are fat then, well then thats how you're suposed to be. Dont let life bring you down. No matter what others say.

"Be Who You Want To Be."

Toodlez
Maya

sorry to just kind of burst in here but i was reaidng and...........

"be who you want to be"
has anyone ever thought really deeply about that sentence??!! because for me, i will agree with anyone who says it that i am not fat!!! but i do still weigh ALOT!!! although i don't look it, i still know that m weight is there!!! so i want to weigh less - that is who i want to be, so when people say "be who you want to be"n then thats crap, cause i want to not weigh so much, if i lost some weight i would be happy!!! so why do people still tell me to eat!!!!

sorry for bursting in but i had to say that!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

Be WHO you want to be does not mean become anorexic. If you want to weigh less exercise and eat right but don't compare that to someone telling you be who you want to be. In hearing that quote I think of character and attitude more so than physical appearance.

i didn't even mention being anorexic!!!
being anorexic is REALLY bad!!! all i was saying is that people say "be who you want to be" but if you want to change who you are to how you like it - people alwayz complain!!!
anywayz it doesn't matter!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

It doesn't matter because you don't want to listen. Be WHO you want to be doesn't have anything to do with your physical appearance...I don't think anyway.

I can understand someone wanting to lose weight...but someone (as I'm sure Random here is doing) trying to lose weight until there's nothing left is sick....not to mention very unhealthy.

no natalie, NO!!!!
i don't want to lose weight until i'm sick!!! i had to live that when one of my friends went anorexic and she was VERY ill!!! i wouldn't want to put my friends through that!!! you can't assume what i mean just because you don't like me, or how i think or even who i am for that matter!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

Random girl you just said you're not big but you want to lose weight. It seems you have a problem..

i'm not fat, but it's just that i weigh LOADZ and i hate it because even though people can't see the fat i still know that it is there somewhere!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

Which is a problem. That's what bulimic and anorexic people go through. You don't know it's there you THINK it's there.

right ok, i don't THINK it's there, i do know it's there because.......
i don't look fat but...... i weigh 152 pounds!!! that is just slightly overweight and i hate it!!!! it's not that i want to look thinner it's that i don't want to actually weigh as much if you get what i mean!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

i'm about 5'3 or 5'4, but people the same age as me and the same height as me don't weigh as much as me!!!
all my friends weigh roughly about 112 pounds!! thats 40 pounds less than me!!!
i just don't like being heavier than all my mates!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

I'm 5'3 and I weigh 150 pounds too...I could probably stand to lose 10 pounds but it's just not that damn important to me. I'm not fat nor am I unhealthy weighing 150 so why stress it? There's no reason to. If you don't like me, your loss not mine. Face the world with a different attitude and quit thinking of you weighing 152...which is NOT fat by any means. You're NOT fat...you just THINK you are. People with weight problems like you seem to have look in the mirror and see a horribly fat person. Look passed that...it's a mirage.

i know i am not fat!
about a year ago, i was 5'2 and i weighed 105 pounds!! i looked REALLY fat then!! and i hated it!!! i used to eat things like 3 kfc's a day, and i used to just more or less eat junk food!!!
then i stopped all of that and i started eating more healthier, i don't eat junk food anymore!! but now i've put on like 47 pounds!!! and i just don't understand why??!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

no........... exactly!!!!!
it really p***** me off the fact that i tried to go healthy and it went the other way!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

You were 105 pounds and you thought you were fat? Hmmmm.....do you see what I'm talking about. You obviously have a problem that neither I nor Britt could deter you from, so I'll leave you alone. It's pure idiocy I tell you...

no cause back then i WAS fat, and everyone told me i was, but i don't get it cause i was 105 pounds then and i looked fat but now i'm 152 pounds and i DONT look fat!!!
my body is just trying to be awkward i swear!!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

What you're saying makes no sense what so ever...

why? back then i didn't give a crap about my weight, but i looked fat but it didn't bother me!!! now i weigh ALOT more but i don't look fat anymore!!! the fat of my body disapeared but it didn't!!! it just went into hiding!!! if you get what i mean!!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

You're growing up, your body is filling out. It's normal...get over it. You're NOT fat.

fine whatever!!
i wasn't the one trying to prove anything anywayz!!
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

You ARE trying to prove something...that you need to lose weight and you do NOT have a problem..

i didn't delibaretly (sp) come on here this evening planning to try and prove something, i was just saying!!!
i have to go now anywayz
bye
luv RaNdOmGaL xxx

Good, you're doing both of us a favor.

oh dear i hope i didnt start a huge arguement with my stupid post. sorry guys. i've kind of realised now that not eating is stupid, from now on i'm going to exercise and eat healthy stuff......it'll work better im sure.

"because then i will feel like crap the whole time. its not easy to stop being depressed. if it was not as many people would be so depressed all the time. it sucks i swear."

You will feel crap if you do eat and stop doing those things? Give me a break. Those cant really make you feel better. You need help and fast cause those REALLY arent going to help. Trust me Ive been there.