Im not even sure myself

Okay My boyfriend is trying to get me to tell him whats Ive been keeping from him. I cant though. I just cant. He dosent see that. How am I saposed to tell him what it is if Im not even sure myself? I could use a little advice. Thanks.

hey... i think i know what you mean.
maybe tell him that.^^ that you're confused yourself and that you don't know how to explain it when you can't even make sense of it...
good luck...not sure if thats the best advice for your situation but i tried!!
x x x

Im not sure what it is. Im really not. I cant even think of a way to describe it.

And I know I should be able to talk to him, but I cant. I feel like I cant talk to anyone. Whenever I try to tell someone they wods wont come.

Last night, when I posted this, my boyfriend got me to "talk" to him. (After screaming at me and unknowingly giving me my first panick attack in 5 weeks) I told him that Im dont know what it is and that I dont even understand it myself. He went off on me saying that I need to pray and tell our youth pastor, and all this stuff. But I really feel like I need to figure out what it is bvefore AI do anything. Im so confused. What could it be?