kinda of long....but i'm so confused...did i really love him?

This is kind of long but i would apreciate some sort of input or opinions......
There is this guy who i liked alot last year, he said he loved me and i loved him back but the only thing that is wrong with this is that i had a boyfriend at the time and i don't know if the love that i felt for this other guy was just as a friend of something more. anyways i broke up with my boyfriend in september last year but got back with him. we had heaps of problems and i kept saying to this other guy that i was going to break up with my boyfriend, but never did. this guy got fed up (and i can understand) and now doesn't even want to talk to me. i keep trying tell myself that i loved him as a friend but i don't know...was i just hiding the fact that i actually did love him?.........i have tried talking to him but he doesn't want to know me and i regret hurting this other guy but i was just so scared of ruining what we did have and ruining my relationship with my boyfriend as well as my friendship with him.........does anyone have any advice or opinions???

hmm, i think that the one you really loved was your bf it would be wrong to hurt him cause you were crushing on another guy, but at the same time you needed to do what you felt in your heart. as for the other guy, guys dont like girls that play games cause in a way that makes them fake and even if you didnt mean to or didnt even realize it...thats what you were doing to him so that might be a good reason why he is now trying to avoid you. i dont know though cause i dont know the whole sit. but thats somewhat of my opinion about that. -brit

Yea, at the time i was so confused and didn't really kow what i was doing till it was too late...and now i'm pretty sure that this other guy hates me and that sucks so much cause we were real good friends until i stuffed things up....anyway thanks for that. Luv Nicole =)

yeah, ive been in that situation before. god, it was so krazy and so sad. i went back and forth with two guys...one of them was my bestfriend and the other one was m boyfriend. and i ended up hurting both of them alot and i regret that so much. but i still keep in touch with my ex though. thats good. but i dont kno about what YOURE going though but when that was happening i was also depressed. so that had alot to do with it. i suggest you just take a break from everything obviously youre really confused and dont know whats real and whats not. and being in relationships is just going to make it worse and more stressful. why dont you just take some time away from guys? i mean i dont know im just saying. well bye take care!

If you are asking if you loved him, you prbably didn't.

probably*

Thanks guys and you gusy are so right...if i did love him i wouldn't be asking if i did.

You didn't love him if you stayed with your bf. If you REALLY TRULY loved him, you would've dumped your bf and gone for the other guy.
~BJ~