kinda just need some help

i was in the hospital a while bak for cutting and suicidle thoughts and then i went to iop and was put on a bunch of medication iop is "intensive out patient" its jsut group therapy.... um... i got better for a while and stopped cutting stopped having suicidal thoughts but was still depressed but was good enough to get out of iop and resontly everything gotten worse ive found out a bunch of my frends are depressed and are cutting and think some are suicidle i no one is and my brothers just idk but hes really off the wall in the past weve had to press charges on him for breaking things in our house nad hes hit us before to so im terrified of him and hes getting worse and we're going to kick him out soon bc hes jsut bringing us down and hurting us all i feel like the only one who really loves me si my mother but i cant even talk to ehr everyone all the kids in my family have been to a hospital for mental problems mostly for suicidle thoughts and shes alredy a nervous reck so i cant talk to her i mean i no that kids are gonna come on ehre and tell me why are u so depressed theres nothing wrong ur over exagerating suk it up well im trying to ive been trying to but i dont no wut to do anymore i feel like im slowly going insane slowly dieing ive heard voices b4 one time a woman who soudned like my mother told me to cut myself and other times ive heard the fone ringing and heard voices calling my name most of the time its jsut people calling my name and i dont no what to do if theres anyone who could jsut lend a hand thad really help

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pyraqus just remeber that even tho cutting might seem liek the only thing that can help u rite now itll jsut bring more pain make u feel worse go for a run scream do something besides cut bc all is does is make u sadder and leave scars that ull ahve to hide or makyb u wont idk wut u do but yah either way it jsut makes things worse b strong i no i shouldnt b the one to say that since im the one that posted thsi bulletin in the first place but idk i wanna help u to. and anyone else who want to talk motor_mouth1991@yahoo.com is my email just send me anything genuinly try to samile

that goes for u too
i wish i could give better advice im sorry

u means "wheres ur boy tonight"