heart ache

I'm really not looking for advice, I'm just wanting to share a heart ache that shouldn't exist.

I had a boyfriend two years ago who I fell in love with. We broke up after eight months and he hated me for about a year afterwards. We started talking again and started dating again last week. From the start there were about ten people against it, but we were miserable the year we spent without eachother. Two of his friends started telling him that they thought he was just using me, and well he broke up with me. But it wasnt just a break up, it was dragged out and I got jerked around. This mornign he said he wanted a second chance, and then later he said he just wanted to be friends and that he wanted to get to know me better.

Before we started going out he told me that he really missed how happy he was when we were together and he missed that. So I'm wondering if maybe he's scared because feelings he hasnt felt in over a year suddenly came back hard and fast and it freaked him out. But I really think that its horrible of his friends to do that because theres no way he would ever use me, and they know it! They told me that last week! Its just htat they really don't like me.

If it was my freinds accusing me of using him, I would be so mad because I would never do it. I don't understand why he's going with what his friends say, if they know he wouldn't do that either.

This really isnt fair at all. I've loved him for two years without any breaks for anyone else inbetween. In the four days that we were back together, people were telling me that they've never seen me so happy before. And I really can't begin to understand why his friends would do this to anyone.

The end

Thanks guys you rock... its all good. After all of this, I lost the guy and we're better friends now than we ever were before. And to think it only took four days of having him back to make me not like him anymore.