love is sometimes lust

let me give you sum advice, if you cheated on him you did not love him. You thought and felt like you did and since he loved you so much you feel bad but in reality you just feel bad because you must be a nice person or sensitive. Either way ignore him if you don't want him tell him off. Tell him you can't be with him especially the way he acts. But do it kindly and gently things like this can lead to suicide on his part.