Help plz!!!

I started popping pills almost a month ago. I take like 4 or more Tylenol every day and if I don't I start to feel wierd...(I can't really describe it). I originally started to take them because I wanted to feel high. I am sick of always being the good girl and stuff...But lately I've been thinking that if I could just take enough to overdose...but it's really hard to do that. One time like a week ago I drank almost a quarter of a bottle of cough surape...I did that thinking it would get me high...but it really didn't...Now I am thinking that if I could only take enough of that to overdose as well. I don't know what to do...But I don't want to tell my family what I am doing because if I do I am just afraid that they will just tell me to stop and they will call me an idiot that is just seeking attention...Or they might not even believe me. I don't want them to think bad about me for what I've started doing...But I just don't know what to do.

I don't know why I don't prefer the good girl immage any more...but I just don't. I sorta want to be a rebel...But actually some days I take 4 liek the lsat 3 or 4 dayz...but I have taken 6 and once I even took 12. I know this is not right...But...I just don't know.

If you wanna get rid of the girl girl image, ditch a class or somthing.

I know Tylenol won't get me to my goal...Bit I just couldn't skip classes...because they would call home and my parents would bitch at me for lie forever. I would do something like that if they wouldn't find out. I want my parents to see that I am not a "good girl" but not stupid. I have to do something...but...really mostly I just want to prove to my friends that I am not a "Good girl" and also I think I have something to prove to myself. I just don't know.

"I want my parents to see that I am not a "good girl" but not stupid."

You're already proving that you're stupid.

if you're NOT a good girl....then you're obviously stupid......

??

What was the point in that?

You're stupid if you're disobeying them, although I disobey them all the time, and I guess that makes me stupid, but they have rules, regulations, and expectations meant to keep you, and I, safe. Crossing those borders is dangerous, depending on what the situation is..

In my situation, it's plain and simple--My mom has paranoia and trust issues.

I don't want to end up dead...That's not my goal...I just want my friends and everyone besides my parents to see that I am not a "good girl". When I move out (hopefully sooner then later) then I will let them see that i am not a "good girl" because if I started showing them now...I jsut don't think it would be a very peacefull inviroment to live in.

lol four asprins...wow look at this badas.s...it could get wose but unless your taking like 15 or 20 i doubt asprin does anything other then give you a stomache ache, i take 3 now for my braces when they get tightened so i doubt one more effects you that much...and then this is another funny one "almost quarter bottle of cough syrup" take note to almost lol so your not even drinking a fourth, you have to take the whole thing to get f'd up a quarter won't do much...and really think about it if you did happen to become hardcore you'd just be a poser cause your not a bad girl like you said your a good girl why change who you are? so people think your cool either way your changing into something your not and if you walk around telling people you take 4 asprin a day and almost a quarter bottle of cough syrup you will get laughed at so i'd keep this to yourself if you continue it....and your wrong lol you WANT your parents to think your a good girl so you can go out with friends on the weekend and get drunk and what not and they won't suspect it cause they trust you...

Taking that much pills a day is gay! its not gonna get u anywhere but a trip to the bathroom and alot of throwing up!....Why would u wanna change ur image? Just be who u are! Belive me....everyone see's the 'rabel' or bad girl image to be sumthin grand and exciting, but its not. It nothin like it is on tv. Sure at first its all great and fun but then u realize its the exact opposite. Its not great at all, having an image like that ppl expect things from u like braking the rules, shop lifing, getting drunk or high, shit like that. You say ur a good girl that jsut wants to prove to others ur not just a good girl. Well don't do that by being a poser, cuz thats exactly wut you'll be if u strat acting like a 'rebal'

I'm sorry if i sound mean but if u don't want to seem like the good girl anymore just skip a few classes. U said u wanted to parents to know, so then when they call home about u skipping they'll know. So what if u get yelled at, its a part of being "bad"....just retaliate back, u got a mouth of curses use it! Oh and when they ground you, u got a window at night, sneak out, go have have fun and party. This is what u wanted to show isn't it? that u can be bad. Well this is what u have to do, yell, scream, have an attitude 24/7. Oh and thats only just the beginning....

Now u sure u wanna try and change ur image and become a poser? U don't have to prove anythin to anyone! If ppl don't like the good girl image u have well fuck them all! who cares? real friends won't! So stop popping pills in ur mouth cuz thats gonna get ya no where, and don't try and be someone ur not!

Take it from someone who knows, this bad girl image dies down real fast! and all ur left with in the end is a whole lotta problems to deal with, no real friends, and a family who's ready to kick u out. Don't change who you are, being a good girl is not a bad thing at all, just don't act like a know-it-all goody goody and iz all good! ne wayz yes g2g now laterz!
~Luvz~
~Chica~

Pathetic.....

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(")-(") Arrivederci!

I've done more than that though for the "bad girl" immage...When I was 10 I snuck out if the house at 11. I don't remember where I went or what I did though. And I have shoplifted before...(Like alot) I got cought 3 times but only arrested once. I havn't shoplifted in almost a yr though. But when my parents found out they were to mad to even yell at me and they don't trust me as much now. Oh and I had sex with one of my friends who wanted to like 6 months ago. We almost got caught, but we managed to lie our way out of it. But I have to admit, no matter how stupid it sounds, I like being a "bad girl" I know that's wrong, but I just can't help it.

"Bad Girl"
I want that "bad girl" immage
I don't want to be a "good girl" anymore
It sucks having to be perfict
Not showing who I want to be,
How I want to be seen
I've dome things in my life I'm not proud of
I've stolen,
Popped pills,
And cheated
All those things give me a rush
I feel so big,
I feel so strong,
I feel I've betrayed you
I don't want you to see the "bad girl" immage
I so want to have
But I just want you to realize
I'm not the same "good girl" you used to know
That just isn't me

Okay i'm so utterly confused now....from the first post u posted and now these two just above me.....??? didn't you say---arg nevermind i'm not even gonna try and understand. Be whoever you want.

~Luvz~
~Chica~

What I mean was that I want to be a "bad girl" even though I know that is stupid...but I don't want my parents to know...even though they have seen me be a "bad girl" (somewhat)...I just want them to know that I am not a "good girl" not necessarily a "bad girl" even though I kinda am.

Yo by what you just typed about all the stuff you have done....they already know. They aren't stupid. And there is no such thing as "good girl" and "bad girl" Everyone is good at times and bad at others. You want them to know your not the 'good girl' as you put it. Then tell em straight up. But just telling you i don't think they'll be shocked. O_O

~Luvz~
~Pointless~

They may not be that shocked but their are things that they don't now...so I'll say my mom will only be half-shocked...but I don't think my dad knows that much and I think he'd be like totally shocked.

well, i dont know you or what youre going through or anything about youre life. but i just wanted to say that dont care about what people think about you. BE REAL. & just do what you do..& if people wanna label you, then so what. but dont ever quit being YOURSELF and being real. youre going to really mess yourself up if you start getting into popping pills and that leads to other things & soon you`ll just be all screwed up. you just gotta keep telling youself "i dont care what im labeled as..im just gonna be me & people dont like, screw them"