lifes a mess

My life is a mess.its got to the stage i dont want human company.i phone helplines.but i`ll no go their. apart from the same pull yer self together.i dont want to be like this. but cant help it.everyday it gets worse,
ahh know pont in going on,its up to me to get my self sorted.sorry for using up board space.just ignore me.

well im crap,crap at everything.anyone who comes in2 my life always seems to get hurt.dad died when i was ten.in trouble with cops all the time 10-19.had baby to gal but she went away with my mate never seen baby since he was 18 months old.had a drink prob ....still do. everything i try and make good turns into shambles.dont talk to my family anymore b/c they trusted someone over and above me.mums the only thing i got left in life.cant talk to her though.she dont need the worry.on prozac.i want to feel good again but well i know things will never change.there you go that sums everthing up

Bluehun, you are NOT crap.. and saying everyone that comes into your life gets hurt, well things can change and surely this ain’t true, and if it is then pin point the reason WHY and sort it out.. I mean its unfair on your loved ones as well as YOU if you have too result too help lines and not wanting human contact…
For one thing you cant solve this problem by running away and hiding, it will only worsen things, and this will cause a lot more grief then there has too be.
And im also sorry for hearing of your dads death, it must have been hard on you when you was only 10. And again, dont we all get in alittle trouble with the cops ;D i know i have before.

All you gotta do is be strong…

· Be strong against drinking .. (if its effecting your life and if you don’t want that impurity in your body then give it up)

· Pin point why (if you do) hurt people.. and solve it (don’t run away and cut off social life because of a few problems)

· Make sure you are not still grieving over your fathers death, what I mean by this is.. make sure you are strong and are getting on with life without continuously thinking.. you could of done something to prevent it.

· If you wanna see your child then go see your kid.

Now you saying your family trusts someone over you, well that’s real harsh of them and it must have been pretty hurtful. =(

All I gotta say man is be strong, we all have our rough times in life but that doesn’t mean we all fall down. Family are meant too be there too support you always and trust you. And I know how it feels too not have that behind you, I know how it feels too not have family or friends too pick you up when you fall.

This is why I am writing this for you, because you are a person and you are special ok ^.^ we are all here for a reason, we are all here for another. If you are depressed we are all here too help you back up again because believe it or not we do care. Well I care… all you gotta do I solve it and talk... talk you god damn face off, cause people wanna hear and help.. ^^

crap thats my name.thats they way it is .life well my life is crap at the end of my game life set out for me.just waiting for the nod from above.i know it wil come.

light whatever don't be mean to her, this is what this forum is really for, this is the first valid post i've seen on here in a while...life is hard and it sucks, but here's the thing light we're all to curious to kill ourselves we want to die now but we all know or hope that it will get better and we all want to be around when it does even though it may take awhile.......

but i know how you feeling right now i feel really alone right now also and just sad, but things get better thats how life works

there are heaps of people who can help you :)
cheer up :) xx