please, help me. i need it so badly

i fell for him, i fell soooo hard when he didnt catch me. thats how i think of what happened.
He said he loved me, i dont know he if does anymore. i dont know if love can hit somone on 3 days, but i felt strongly for him. i still do, now more then ever. he has a gf, he did when i fell for him. he actually fell for me first. he asked if i would let him kiss me, and after that i said yea i would and since then i just started getting this feeling for him. its so strong and it hurts now. He said he would leave his gf when he hits 18 so he could be with me. 5 months away till he does. i said i would wait for him. i would rarly see him, but 2 days a week i would bike to his house and spend some time with him, like half an hr. its funny because last year i told him i wouldent go out with him.. and now he is saying no to me. his parents dont like me so he cant even talk to me. he races and his parents fund the whole thing so if he where to date me he would loose alot. why wont he talk to me in school? tell me anything! what am i soposto do? how do i get a chance to talk to him and ask him what is going on? why he dosent ask me to come over for those 2 days a week? i just want to know and there is no way i can ask him. and not to mention that now i am dating this steve guy, i like him and my family loves him. so its more for the family, i have to clue what i am doing and i think i am making everything go wrong. i dont know what to do and i cant think straight. i cant handle this! please help me.

i like him, but i love john. he most likly is playing me. but he said he loved me and he couldent hurt me. i dont know what i am soposto do.

why are most ppl like that? love someone, tell them you do, and then go out with some other person? don't go out with steve if you want john. and why would john say all that and then not wanna see you? you shouldn't believe everything you hear... it might hurt in the beginning leaving or forgetting him, but in the long run, it's best, because holding on would hurt so much more, and that's when everything will fall apart.

thanks, that helped. i think i will just try and forgot.