what am i going to do

hi i earlier posted a topic about my best friend telling me that im anorexic.

well the other day she was in a minor car crash and we went to the hospital and she told the nurse to look after me (she needed stitches) and the nurse was talking to me for ages and made me look in the mirror for ages and i saw the real me just for an instant, the fact that in about twomonths i have gone from about 8stone7lbs down to 6stone2lbs.

well i know now i have a problem but i cant deal with it i have nobody to help me,my best friend has concussion so they are watching her at the hospital and im too ashamed to go into school, i have no one at home and everytime i build up the confidence to eat i run back and throw it all up again, then get too scared to eat again. i don't feel the hunger anymore, its physically uncomfortable but emotionally comfortable, i havent felt full for so long.

now i dont want to eat, i dont have the willpower, even the sight of food makes me ill. its like i am at a dead end, can't starve can't eat, what am i to do?
please help, i average a bottle of water and an apple a day please

Well i havnt been through or been close to anyone thats gone through this sort of thing.. the only thing i can think of to do is tell someone.

your parents, another friend, brother or sister even a teacher or friends parents who you can trust and they may be able to give you help...

although if one person has noticed then its likely that more have and so they are maybe prepared for helping you...

Just remember that there are people who care and i wish you luck =)

x~X~x

well hun it good that you see you need help and it's good you are looking for it but hun you have to go to a higher power here there no way some one over the nex will be able to help but you know what i am a hope full person and i have faith in you, now know you have a problem is the first step and the 2 is trying to get help which you are doing both so i can see your trying now you neev to take things slow you just cant start eathing anything and everything you'll make your self sick. start with eating more fruit and stuff thats good for you and more then just an apple and make a journal of what you eat and when you think about throwing up again write dont throw up. and to find the will power think of this your friend loves you and cares so much for you what if it was her how would you feel. she's wacthing her best friend slowly die think of how that kills her inside. i dont even know you and it makes me want to cry. and not only that you say you want to stop that will power hun you have to push your self and find the you that you lost. not only that you can find support groups on like an if you dont feel right with that hell i'll be your support group. your friend what you healthy and happy she wants you to live a long life and she whats you to be there whit her. my email is nooneunderstands4@yahoo.com and if you want to talk to me plz i beg you to feel free to as a matter if fact i wish you would plz if your really for real on getting help i will do my best and i will do what ever the hell i can to help you. dont giev up on your self hun you have people who love you and care 4 you all you have to do is believe in your self * sorry for any miss spelled words*

uhhhh whats 8stone7 pounds???

hun.. you need to get counseling. They can help you with this, and they can make things right again. If you keep going on this way, then it will keep on getting worse. so PLEASE seek counselling or therapy...thats what they are there for.

Hey... I know it might just seem like a "I'm so fat I'm not going to eat" thing. It's not. Its a girl who has issues about her selfesteem, or feels like she's not good enough the way she is, and thinks that maybe if she gets skinny enough that it will bring her happiness. Its not about her trying to grab attention! If it was that, then why would it be an eating disorder? It would just be some fad diet or something. No, it's alot more serious than that. She can't just start to eat... she's gotten to the point where it's too difficult to go back without the help of counselling or therapy. It's not about her not having the willpower to eat... its that physically she CANT. Trust me, bud. Its alot more of a serious issue than just some girl who is worried about weight. So before going to your own opinions, please just read up on the facts first.

Try little by little.... sometimes it helps if you can be an example to others, but other times they are your examples. Meaning you can show your baby cousin that you can eat carrots but he can't,etc. You could try.... not throwing up? take sips,lie on your back and make sure that they go down.

Where i live, if ur fat ur fat, skinny ur normal, and just a lil bit overweight you're STILL fat. skinny is NOT supposed to be normal.... but rite now where i live is so sick and twisted... don't listen to what others say about u, they probably dont kno wat they're talking abt cuz these days, life is judgemental. start eating whenever you're hungry. stop running if you're tired. just give in to how your body feels and dont hurt yourself... love yourself... kk? im just a lil overweight and im what they call fat cuz kids my age r supposed to weigh 93 lbs in California's opinion! so dont listen if what ppl say r discouraging words.

thanks guys, if you read the rant i gave in revenge post then you can see i hate mybest friend stupid b*tch she was the only thing that could help me through properly and now she's gone i'd rather get an eating disorder (which i haven't reached yet) and make her sick with worry, maybe that will prove how much she;s hurt me and make her feel guilty.

and i actually said i didnt want to eat because i couldnt help throwing up, not that i wanted to continue starving myself.please read before you try and help. :)