It got too close this time....

Well this morning I was forced to wash my lunch bowls (even tho i still had to finish up hw) and my mom wouldnt stop annoying me and asking if i wanted all the meat and i told her im supposed to have more than meat in my diet or my bones will break... she got all pissed at me and later came to my room and said all this stuff about not being picky.... then she threatened to sell her ..... on the streets near stockton to earn money because she said maybe that would make me happy if she could bring home extra money... i feel horrible, its been hurting me this entire day, she threatened to not come home, to start at 10:00 pm tonight, im panicking and stuff.... i didnt even say anything when she was ranting but she went too far... i felt tears in my eyes and felt horrible when she left the room and i wanted to cry becuz of that but also she had taken out all the food in my lunch box + didnt give me breakfast bcuz she said i was too picky.... :( i feel bad, im super hungry but terribly worried so yeah...
i picked up the scissors on my desk and wondered where to cut but not on my wrists... i tried on my arm but the blade didnt go deep enough the first time so i took that as a sign + stopped ......... :( that got too close...everything and everyone seemed so happy today but im still sad cuz im worried wat my mom will do

im kind of confused what your mum was threatening?

me too...

.... = body

I'm sorry things are not working well. I understand that it must be hard on you, but it must be hard on your mom as well. You're her daughter, she loves you and wants to keep you happy. Maybe she feels that she should do whatever it takes to keep you happy. Best thing to do is to sit down and talk to her one on one. Tell her how much you appreciate everything she does for you, and tell her that you need her in your life. Just try not to be so picky about things if it really bothers her so much... not asking for much is it? Anyways, I hope I gave some good advice. I hope things work out... good luck.

Best wishes
~ Tina

I totally agree with Tina but I would go a step further.

I’m reading between the lines but I get the impression that your mom has the full responsibility as the head of the household and is a single mother. That is a huge obligation with endless work. And what is her reward? What do you do to lighten her burden? You resent having to wash the dishes that you ate from. You complain that she prepared and served you a meal that didn’t meet with your satisfaction or was not nutritionally balanced? It sounds to me that at least in some ways you expect your mom to practically be your servant. And I agree that your mom was out of line by her remarks to you but I can clearly see why she lost it. I think you should re-think this whole thing in terms of what you can do to help your mom instead of what you expect her to do for you. It may mean that you have to allocate your time differently or that it causes you some inconveniences but that is the nature of learning what it means to take responsibility. I think if you try this you will ultimately find that the benefits will far exceed the effort required. And I wish you all the best.

she never is really in a good mood,so i cant really talk to her... shes married to my dad who happens to be just as (ungrateful) me. my dad wont get a high paying job + my school is far away so my mom blames it on me for the gas. my dad refuses to go to the store to buy food,even if im starving and am getting poor nutrition....

Ah thats no reason to cut yourself. Loadsa people have family problems like yours. Things will improve as you get older...and if they dont then you're gonna leave home sometime soon anyway. If you wanna have a better relationship with your mum, talk to her about it...or possibly suggest you see a family councillor together. I know what you msut be feeling like at the moment....But. Its still no reason to hurt youself.

Your mother has a right to make her own decisions, and hopefuly has the muturity to do so.
So don't cut yourself because of her, if she's willing to do something like that, clearly she isn't worth it.

Lightsniper why do you to be so mean to everyone. Does it make you feel like a man picking on younger people. That is just idiotic. It really is. Grow up man. Why do you have to waste your time by putting people down. Can't you at least be a little bit encouraging? God, just grow up and get a life.

lightsniper you're such an apathetic little f*ck sometimes! every single discussion i've read, if you've been involved, you have only said negative things about people and their lives. if you're so freaking high and mighty with the wonderful life that beats everyone elses then why do you feel such an OBVIOUS need to belittle people and make them feel like sh*t?! for chrissakes, i mean okay, so some people do exaggerate on their problems but they doesn't mean they don't have a problem or that its not making them feel bad. i agree with the person before me, GET A F*CKING LIFE AND STOP BEING SUCH AN ARROGANT DICK LIGHTSNIPER!

ok, i've had my little rant now, but this message is totally seperate to the one above.

i do think you need to appreciate your mum more, she obviously does care for you or she wouldn't get so aggitated when she thinks you're not eating properly or w.e. i think you should try and help out a little more, washing up isn't tht big a task, and it will make both your lives easier if she's happier. she won't moan at you about stuff and make you feel bad, and she'll feel happier in the house with you and your dad.

hope it gets better for you.

Forsaken Redeemer
xXx

So heavysniper are you the same person as lightsniper so the account got suspended did you make up a new one so you could talk crap about everyone else? God if it is you get a life

Yeah this is a depression forum but isn't all this about something negative that is happening in everyones life?? We can only give advice to try and make things better. Ok and if your not Lightsniper I apologize for me being mean I just thought it was really messed up that he was being mean to that girl. So I was trying to support her and have her listen to some positive things not negative. But I apologize if your not Lightsniper

i agree even thought i feel like not living anymore,