not looking for attention, just looking for help

today, i talked to the one girl that has ever mattered to me about going back out again which we did for 2 years before we broke up and she said no, she doesnt have any feelings toward me. i was so shocked that i just couldnt help myself i pushed her so far away from me i dont think she will ever talk to me again. im always the one who frowns upon people being dpressed all the time but for the first time in myself i just cant turn the other cheek. why does everyone i love walk away. my dad left me, my mom gave me up, my sister died, my best friend cameron was killed by a truck and now this. what do i have left. im failing school, and have no future right now. someone please help me. i hate thinking about suicide but right now..... i just cant get a grip, i cant hold on. please someone help me. please

wow, that's a LOT of stuff to go through....i'm sorry hun *bear hug*

i'm not really sure what to tell you....although i haven't been through all of that, i know how you feel. i'm not doing too good in school, i can't see a future for myself, and all this other junk.....it's no fun...and i get pretty close to giving up a lot....if it wasn't for my friends here, on poems-and-quotes, i'm not so sure i'd still be here...just, hang on....and, although my advice is terrible most of the time, i'm here for you to talk to, you can email me anytime, i have yahoo, msn, and AIM....

ive never felt so helpless i just cant stop crying. i lost the one thing that truly ever loved and without her my life so nothing

hey, at least you had the chance to love....at least, at one point, it was in your life....i don't think i've ever really loved anyone....

we could of been so happy together. before her, life made sense, my only goals were: get laid, score drugs and get rich. now all i want is to spend my life with emily and have a couple beautiful kids, but it iwll never happen

ok, not everything can last forever, you guys had some good times together, now it's time to move on....you can still have kids...it just might not be with Emily....you just have to give some things time....you'll find someone....

i dont want anyone else, ever

why would you want someone who doesn't want you? you will find someone who loves you as much as you love them....you're still young, you have your whole life ahead of you....i know it doesn't seem like it, because, quite honestly, i'm lost and confused and all this other negative stuff, myself....

ur only 15 dont let a girl screw ur life up! their not worth it... I am one lol. I am sure there r people in this world that care about u even if it is on P&Q =) I know that its hard to not have a friend... (because I feel like I dont have any) most of the time... but just remember that people on here care about u:)

I agree ^^^
Evri1 on p&qs luv u and will do anyfing ta help u :)
Just stay strong, so0n a girl much better than emily will cum along ( ull prob disagree but its tru!!!) and shell make ur lyf complete :)
Jst keep it real till then
if ya need 2 talk jst e-mail me, i n0 what ur going thru
gud luk
x0x0x

hey...
look i know or at least i can tell the pain you're going through right now..but you can't give up.
i know you wont realise it now, but you will, eventually...over a long time, get over this girl and fall in love again. It is human.
Just hold on for that time...and yes u do have all fo us..
pm me netime if u want..
take care fo urself ok?!
xoxoxo

I'm sorry you are going through the sadness of this rejection and all the other strife. But I recall from a long series of posts here that this girl has brought a lot of continual sorrow and anguish into your life.

At times like these it always seems like life is hopeless. But time has a way of healing the deepest of wounds. Trust me. I experienced it when my husband of 5 years was murdered and my life was shattered. I went through 2 years of intense grief but ultimately I emerged as a stronger and better person. And though you never really get completely over something like that, you manage to get on with your life and rise to greater heights.

Two of the things that helped me the most in times of deep distress were "How to Survive the Loss of a Love" by Peter Mc Williams and "When Bad Things Happen to Good People" by Harold Kushner. Peter McWilliams book was published on the internet so you can even have it for free if you want.

Maybe this would also be a good time to focus your thoughts and energy on your other passion in life.

Anyway, I want to wish you all the best, even though I know you're going through the worst right now.

im 17 years old in fact ill be 18 in 2 months. i decided to stay home today and sleep. when i woke up i felt so refreshed. im pretty sure ill be fine i just got to not call her anymore or see her. My band Acid Blue is doing well so i guess ill just stick with that. THANK YOU ALL I MEAN IT.

Things WILL get better. just member this "everything is ok in the end, if its not ok, its not the end"

Things WILL get better. just member this "everything is ok in the end, if its not ok, its not the end"

o wow i like that quote

Yeah, its a really good quote to live by

i like the quote too.

Honestly, I am so sorry. I dont even know what to say. Usually on the forums, i love to give advice. I hope things go better for you. There's really nothing you can do but wait... time heals all.

So cliche, i know- but it IS true.

If you ever need to talk, you can IM me. check my poems page for the info.

And take care of yourselF.. you're your number one priority..
xoxox