here is the truth....

Here is the truth about me, I was never a cop in training I never hit a guy and killed him and I don't have to goto war. the pic is not me they are not my abs. These where all lies about me. I don't know why I lied I guess I just wanted attention cause I was going though a really hard time. I don't want to go on living a lie. I hate lieing and I don't really know why I did it. But I do know all people make mistakes during their lives, and this was one of mine. The Truth is im just a 19 year old guy that lives life to the fullest, I love to draw and I love to play the guitar and piano, I also love to write poems and songs. I am truely sorry if I hurt or offended you in any way, shape , or form.

Love always,
Joe

Might want to change your name as well tough guy...and take it easy, clearly you are saying sorry to one or two people in particular, and you want to show them that you are humble enough to do it on front of everyone, which is righteous.

Man chick dig guys who play music...slap a picture of your rocking out on Piano..much better than silly muscles.

Sunny, that was a really amazing thing you did there, posting some things about yourself that in some circles [daft ones in my opinion, would be considered uncool] but were the real truth of who you are.

And so i'm going to do the same...

I can't take criticism of my actions
I suck at speaking up for myself with strong women
I feel ill at ease in the presence of close families
I am so full of love for everything around me i could cry my eyes out just watching the sun set
I never know when to start relationships
I know just how far i can go...and that knowledge hold me back oftentimes for fear of the freedom it will bring.

Thankyou...sunny.

Thank you both for posting, This is a place to let people now about the real you.

Since the past few weeks have bred doubts about my true self, here shall does who doubt me etc

I am in the Airforce
I will never be a pilot
I will be a sniper or a security soldier
I do feel alone most of the time
I have doubts about me nd my girlfriend
I have had suicide thoughts
I have never told anyone (until now)
I have faith in myself
I trust people easily
I trust people too easily
I cannot thrive while knowing that someone wrongly distrusts me
I have endless faith in love and the strength it gives me.
I have never cared for money
I miss playing soccer everyday.
I am quite lazy
I try to be helpful, but suck at it.
I am too fond of P&Q
Poetry is constantly on my mind.
I have never plagiarized
I forgive too swiftly
I am not a good person
My love for the written word is profound

Yes more people should post on this and tell the truth. telling the truth feels good!!!

I am deeply dissapointed of my former club-mates in CC&P, as they seem to ignore me totally.
I want to rejoin them
I fail to see the reason why they kicked me
I would very much like a second chance...

EOB: I don't know why you are gone. I haven't asked. It is not my place, but know that your spirit and poetry lives on.

As for being open, that is the only way to be. Be who you are, always. Be true to yourself.

As that great philosopher, Popeye says, "I am what I am".

Who am I?

I am a single mother that is afraid of the dark

I have thought of suicide often and always choose to live

I am afraid to love again

I hurt easily though I pretend that I am always fine

I have given up on the though of someone else ever loving me

I do not trust easily... and yet I still give everything I have to help out anyone and everyone

I have learned that it is easier to stay angry rather than to forgive (protects my heart from being tramppled on)

I will always no matter the cost be there for my family when called upon.

I hate large groups (in person)

Though I am outgoing on the internet or while sending text messages when in person I am shy and bashful... the word sex alone will make me blush LOL

I am a mother, a human, a friend, a lover, and most of all a witch with a capitol B and to some that is MS. B....

--Sher

-I am a person who is confused about a lot of things, like, who i am, for instance.

-I'm not sure who i am, or what i'm good at.

-I prefer small groups, rather than larger groups.

-I get jealous easily.

-I want to be a good person, but i'm not so sure i am.

-I'm a big dreamer.

-I try to make people think positive, but i, myself, am a pessimist.

-I love scary movies....but i'm scared of the dark, and i always think the monsters/people from those movies are going to pop out at me when i'm walking down the dark hallway in my house =l

-I have low self-esteem and i don't think anyone will ever truly love me.

-I get scared and think i'm emotionless, and can't feel anything, so i try to cry, so that i know i do have feelings, and i'm not just....here, i guess?

-I think i'm selfish and only think about myself, but people always say i'm nice....

-I'm shy in person, but online, well....i'm really not lol....

-I try to get close to as many people as possible, so i feel loved, because i'm just THAT insecure.

-I have a hard time seeing a future for myself.

-I have trouble with motivation.

-I probably overthink a lot of things, and it just causes me more confusion.

-I tend to think i'm exaggerating (sp?) or overreacting, even if i'm trying to be as honest as i can be.

-I take things way too personal at times.

-It isn't difficult to make me feel like shit and make me cry.

-And Wiggity Whack just moved into my head last week....=D lol...

My confessions:
I used to fear life, I no longer do.
I used to think that life was horrid, and have even contemplated suicide, but those thoughts have died long ago; now, they are just part of an elusive past.
I do not like to talk to others about my personal problems.
I used to believe in love so deeply as a beautiful emotion... I still believe in it, but not like before.
I believe in God, and I want to believe that all happens for a reason.
Life is the only real gift we have, and we must cherish it, for that is all we really own. Friends, happiness and sweet tears last forever.

Here are mine:-

I love nature;
I love life;
I am deeply in love;
I am stricken with a chronic illness;
I have thought about suicide;
I get depressed;
I love poetry;
I love music;
I am blessed with some very dear friends;
I fear growing old alone;
I am afraid of heights;
I dislike dishonest people;
I love animals;
I trust people easily;
I am extremely lucky to be in CCP with such a great bunch of people and dear friends;
I hate bullies;
I admire people who have humility and can admit when they are wrong;
I hate liars.

Mine are..

~I don't like watching the news because I hate seeing what the world has come to.
~I get annoyed at people trying to help me very easy.
~I have tryed to kill myself, But Im am way to afraid of what happens next.
~I am insecure and self conscious.
~Im young and yet am afraid I will not suceed in life.
~I tell most people my poems are not true when they really are.
~My brother bet me and now Im afraid to hug him.
~My friends mean the world to me and I would die without them.
~I -know- I am way to emotional but thats the way I am?
~I don't beleive in a God I have my own beleifs that ive never shared with anyone.
~I hate bullies because I was bullyed by my best friend.
~I can't sleep at night with the door unlocked because I don't trust my brother.
~This site has become my life and I block out the outside world when times get hard.
~I love poetry..
~I started drugs to fit in and then became addicted at a young age.

...... Wow..

lisa x)

Thank you very much for thinking that this is an good thread. I started this thread because I wanted everyone to know who the real me was. I hate lieing so, I had to do something about it, so I posted this thread. Thank you all for posting..... and keep them coming.

No there is not a reason, someone thought I was a cop so I played along with it, then I started to get depressed and I guess I wanted atention so I made that stuff up. But I started to get more depressed living a lie so I posted this so everyone knows who I really am.

I am not breaking rule no 2. 2.’ Do not post your poems in this forum’
This is not a poem it is my non poetic rap on the truth

I believe that God is the most misunderstood Supreme Being in the universe.
I believe I am not the most misunderstood poet on this site, but I am not misunderstood the least
I believe that comments and feedback here have influenced my style not for the worse
I started writing to impress a woman and tried to keep my thoughts as pure as a priest.
I enjoy these discussion forums but I feel that some view religious poets as fools
I married out of my church but I still believe strongly in the basic truths Catholics teach
I am a recovering alcoholic. You know they say alcoholics have a problem with rules
I secretly believe that I am an instrument of God and his love is not out of any ones reach
Now that I am married I realize that writing is my first passion. I can’t control it right or wrong
I never went to a college but I believe I have spiritual knowledge to share
I believe that authority Has restricted the truth for far to long
I believe we all bend the rules a little but who really cares
I believe the evolving mind can know the truth, which comes from the soul
I believe my thoughts are evolving but I do not wish to share random thought
I believe we need chemical balance if peace is to be our honest goal
It is impossible to tell the whole truth with messages believe it or not

very nice mike.

keep the posts coming this is a really good way to get your feelings out.

truth is...

I've never had a boyfriend, all my friends have.

I have trouble keeping friends

I was depressed for most of last year, but i always acted happy

i have a hard time letting go of things from the past

most of my friends from last year, aren't my friends this year

Poetry is my escape to happiness

i forgive people to easily and let people run over me

i'm quiet all the time at school

it's easier to talk to older people

i bottle up my anger, which is bad

i'm looked at as "Miss Goody two shoes"

i feel lonely a lot

and most of this stuff no one really knows. i am happy at times and still have my fun but still it's hard. you guys help a lot though, just being able to talk and joke all the time. just being honest, don't treat me no different!

~Jacklyn

ya i need to go to the groomers soon, get all perdy for my birthday coming up, i'm gonna need some advil after that believe me. after all those snarrles. need a new can of hair spray as well my sister love!

~Jacklyn

-I'm scared i don't really care about anyone, and i'm fooling them all...

-Sometimes i want to want to cut....just, i dunno why....bleh

-I'm not really sure i love my family like i should...

-I don't see the point in living life, when it only ends in death...

-Christianity scares the hell out of me...i don't want to go to hell...but the way they talk, i think that's where i'm headed...even though i DO 'ask Jesus into my heart'

-When i'm around certain people, i want to dress/be like them, so i'm liked, and not an outcast...but at the same time, i want to just be myself, and stand out...

-I'm scared i'm going to lose my best friends...who are now, fellow poets on this site...

-I'm pretty damn selfish...i don't really want to be, but i think i am....a lot of the time anyway...

-I tell some people i'm always here for them, and that i really care about them, when, i'm not sure i really mean it....i mean, i do, but, i dunno....i might just do it because i want more people to like me, or i want to feel like a better person....i dunno....

-I'd rather be sad, and crying all the time, than just being 'ok' and not really experiencing happiness or pain....

-Sometimes i feel like, to fit in with some of my friends, i need to be sad....

Lovely:

i use to have a lot of those problems, which is why i think i struggled so much last year with happiness.

"-I don't see the point in living life, when it only ends in death..." hopefully you can see it soon, but keep moving forward and look at it with you head up. things do clear up.

we're here for you if you have any problems, there are some good adults to talk to that can help.

remember : your not alone! even though it may seem it, because i've felt it before and thought it, your not.

~Jacklyn

i have more... just to cheer myself up!

i enjoy laughing at myself, i am a blond and have fun being one

i play the flute

enjoy drawing

get annoyed really easily

take my anger out on the wrong people, after it bottles up

i am very thankful for people on this site and my family

i find it hard to love my grandpa

when i was little i thought that drinking and driving was any kind of drink, as my dad drank coke and drove up north i worried the whole way

i wondered why you couldn't drink and drive but you could eat and drive

i struggled with reading for the longest time

hated english for the longest time

hated poetry for the longest time

have major grammar and spelling issues (if you haven't noticed)

i have never traded my panties

i shave ... j/k sunny!

~Jacklyn

thanks Jacklyn....i re-read my post, and it sounds worse than what it is....i've just been thinking about that stuff a lot more lately, and felt like just saying/typing it....lol

*shrugs* i dunno...

mmyeah, i have more too =)

-I enjoy being an idiot with buddies....

-I admit, i sing along to cds and look into the mirror while i'm doing it....and, i'm quite serious about it LOL...

-I like to belch =D

-I'm scared of fireworks lol....

-I'm paranoid that when i first get on an escalator, it's going to catch my pants...and i'll get sucked under lmao....so i step over it VERY carefully ha ha...

-I glance into mirrors/t..v.'s/glass/windows a lot, to look at my reflection (i'm not conceited, i swear! lol)

-I love car rides on highways/intersections

-I don't like BIG changes....

-I don't want to growup and have responsibilities...lol

-I have NO idea what i want to be when i 'grow up'

-I'm kind of nervous about getting my license...

-I also used to think that drinking and driving was with any drink, and i always thought my parents wouldget caught by the cops and go to jail ha ha...

this is fun, i feel better.

i don't like plain chocolate, it's got to have nuts or something in it

i don't like higths, love Cedar point and rollar coasters

i hate the faris wheele... must be the speed or somthing

i don't trust glass of tall buildings, like the Hancock building i didn't get any where close to the glass :)

plane rides don't bother me

i still trick or treat!

i lie to my parents, more than i should

love playing poker, only girl at the table most nights!

hate Omha

when i get hyper most people think i took something or sniffed something

never done any drugs

have always feared of failure, so many people think i'm going to be so sucessful... what if i'm not?

i don't like change

~Jacklyn

yes, it is lol...

-I like riding in the car, and sometimes, i wish we could just drive forever...

-I don't answer the phone that much anymore because i'm scared it'll be someone for me...

-I lie a lot more than i should...

-If i don't want to do something with a friend, i'll tell them i don't feel good, or my mom said no, because i don't want them to get mad...

-I prefer night, rather than day...

-I think snow is pretty, but i hate the cold...i also hate hot summer days....too much heat makes me sick...

-I really only like swimming when there are guys swimming too....that's the only way i find it fun lol...

-I pretended to be more scared than what i really was in this haunted corn maze last year...so this guy would hold me =D

-I make up too many, untrue excuses...

-I never call people back when i tell them i will...

-I always forget to burn the cds i say i'll burn for people...

-I want to have a guy, who is my best friend, and i want to fall in love with him...

-At times i can be really shallow....

-I lie to my parents a lot...

-I've stolen some of my parents alcohol before...

-I'm scared to be intimate with someone, but at the same time, it's what i want...

-I don't think i have any talents...

-I take my mom for granted...

-I'm a bitch to my family a lot...

-My mom annoys the hell out of me most of the time...everything she does, the way she does it, i just, hate it....but, then i'll feel bad later on....and i try to make it up to her....but she ends up annoying me even more...

-I don't like my mom trying to be my 'best friend'

-I don't want to really be close to my family...

Okay, here goes....

*I always take responsibility for everything, even if it has nothing to do with me
*I'm a constant worrier.
*I'm terrified of mice and rats. Just seeing them on TV freaks me out.
*I tend to keep my anger bottled up.
*I always take my bottled up anger out on my younger siblings.
*After blowing up at undeserving family members I hate myself.
*I have major issues with my step mom and her kids, mostly because of my father.
*I fear that I'll never have a child of my own.
*I don't date for fear of falling in love.
*If you asked anyone that knows me they would say I'm a good person. I don't agree.
*The simplest things can set me off in a maddening rage. But if something major happens that should make me angry, I tend to shrug it off.
*I'm a procrastinator.
*I'm a terrible housekeeper.
* I lack motivation.
*I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
*I'm afraid of growing old.

i'm very subborn

i worry more than i should too

i get affriad easily

i don't watch scary movies because i can't sleep at night

scary movies disturb me, two of them have made me puke, (not during the movie but while i'm trying to fall sleep

i know what i want to be when i grow up, but i'm affriad i'll fail or not be happy

my room is a mess

i'm lazy sometimes

i'm tired of being left behind by others,

i'm tired of being replaced with others by my friends. sometimes i get the same feeling on this site as well

i fear losing people, but face it all the time

my dad asked me if i was normal once

my ears are different sizes lol

~Jacklyn

-I'm lazy

-I'm a procrastinator...

-I also fear growing old

-I also bottle anger up..

-If it's my immediate family (mom, dad, brother) i don't bottle anger up AS MUCH, but i still do...

-I'm paranoid i'm going to lose people i'm closest to, yet i STILL try to get close to as many people as possible...

-I hate the feeling of being replaced...

-I feel like most of the people i befriend end up replacing me really soon...which makes me wonder what's so bad about me...

-My room is also a mess....i could honestly, go in there, and get lost, and never have to worry about...stuff anymore...

-I'm scared i'm going to fail and never accomplish anything...so i just kind of sit around, waiting for it to happen, instead of doing something about it....

-I'm very nosy o.O lol...

-I get on people's xanga's/myspaces' to see what's going on in their lives....but i never comment, or tell them...yes, it's really weird, i know O_O

-The sound of garage doors opening, scares me, because that's the way my dad comes in, and he usually comes in, and starts complaining/yelling right away....

-I'm scared i exaggerate stuff and overreact a lot....

My confessions:

-I run or use a punching bag to releave my anger.
-I have a hard time trusting people.
-I used to think of suicide.
-I hide what I truly feel.
-I'm afraid of snakes.
-I'm afraid of the future.
-I hate people that are "clingy".
-I hate it when people chew with their mouths open.
-I learned to accept that my past will only make me stronger.
-I no longer blame myself.
-I hate it when people gossip too much.
-I used to be afraid to love, because I've been betrayed so many times.
-I've finally learned to love others.
-I've finally learned to love myself.

-I've had sexual thoughts about things I shouldn't (animals, family) but I've NEVER acted or wanted to act on them o.O
-sometimes I think I'm going out of my mind.
-when I was in about 2nd grade, I used to have fantasies of people using me as a toilet o.O and around that same time is when I first remember having stronger feelings for girls.
-I'm a full lesbian, I've never felt the same way for a guy as I have for some girls. But I can't admit that because I'm afraid people may think I'm seeking attention.
-I've let myself fall in love and cut off everyone else around me. which left me in a big shithole of a mess.
-I have a problem with abusing substances, but I won't admit because that makes me weak.
-Sometimes I think my brother and my dad are hitting on me. In truth, I'm suspicious of all guys and always will be.
-I dance around in my room naked.
-Sometimes I love my body and am not afraid to show it.
-I've exaggerated situations to make myself feel like it's less my fault.
-I'm not a good person, I lie and I cheat, I'm not honest, I've never been a good friend, and the only person I'll ever be any of these things for is the person I love, which is no one at the time so right now I'm a lying, cheating son of a bitch. And the worst thing is I don't want to change that.
-I think I have an obsession with sex and women.
-I've had dreams about my friends raping me.
-I don't think I would cry if my brother or dad died.
-Sometimes I'm scared to death of my brother seriously hurting me.

These are all things I've wanted to confess to people, but was too afraid it would show how crazy I am.

This is quite possibly the coolest thread ever created.

Ok, more from me..seeing as all us honest people are cool now.

-I can be very mean to people who can't do things as well as i can, very impatient
-I am scared of how violent i can be if someone hurts a person i care for
-I push people away if they are too open and friendly with me
-I eat way too much food, though i am very slim
-I need to be busy all the time or i get into stupid habits that are not good for me
-I like to sing disney songs in the shower
-I might just be a big gaybo.

-I have a bunch of other things i'd like to confess....but i'm not going to...i'm too scared o.O lol....

Thank you Kevin for thinking this is an awsome thread. Keep them coming. Once agian this is a place to tell everone the truth.

I am still quite young (14)
I like giving advice, but fear I'll start lecturing
People usual don't ask me for advice
I resently learned that bi-poler (sp) runs in the family, it'd explain a good bit
I have cried myself to sleep before
I hate letting myself cry
I try to let emotoins take me away
I'm not sure if I fully feel emotoins
I pitty myself too much
I've never talked to my friends about my feelings/proablems
It's easy to make me feel like no one cares.
I shak easily (I'm shaking right now)
My face get really blotchy when I cry
I enjoy drawing
I don't draw very often because I don't think I'm not that good.
I've dropped a note as a cry for help, I saw people read it.. No one helped.
I love writing storys more than poetry
I'm afraid of pcycoligest (sp?) because I feel they'll be able to see some thing about me I don't want them to
I laugh easy
I don't live my life
I don't like bothering people
I'm shy around people I don't know, but super outgoing around people I do
I'll ask a questoin for you that I'd never ask myself
I love talking about myself
I like having tottal(sp?) control over things
I make sure I eat well while I'm around people so they know I eat
If I suck in you can really see my bones.
I can be really vain
I get upset when I don't win, but am comforted if a friend beats me
I'm gratefull for and fearfull of the friends I finally got
I feel I've forgotten many things I need to add to this.

People...are so friggin forgiving these days,..what is wrong with people?..Maybe you didnt get close to Joe..before his lies apon lies effected so many people in so many ways...Maybe then you wouldnt be so quick to forgive...it seems like no one ever pays for what they do wrong these days...all they have to say is " All i wanted was friends" Bla bla...you dont have to be a liar to get friends... you dont have to lie to get what you want..all you have to do is be yourself...Ive opend my heart and soul to this guy,...who ive know for a couple of months..and what does he do...But LIES to me...after..he knew how bad i was hurting from a past relationship....how i had major trust issues..and how he promised me he would never hurt me...there we go YET ANOTHER DAMN LIE...Joe...I dont think you realize ..what you have done to so many people...you may still have Philly...and all these commenters...but know that People hate Lairs...and in the chat..you will always have people there..that will hate you for what you did,..no matter if they are poliet about it or not...
You are not forgiven..and i am sure i am one of the many that feel this way...and i hope some of you get to read this...before he deletes this off..because hes afraid..of what i have to say...He is a coward...And you all must think..of something... if hes such a great guy...and hes as nice as he seems?....Why would he had to lie?...He might not be that nice person you all think.
-Ashley.

*I let people walk all over me
*I don't know how to stand up for myself
*I'm scared of losing the one person that means the most to me
*I can't open up to people
*I used to cut
*I've tried alcohol, drugs (weed, cocaine) and cigarettes
*I always used to smile
*I have many regrets

Ashley, I know how you feel about me and I know alot of other people feel the same way, but I don't care what people think....I know that people will hate me for what I did....and I know some people will forgive me....but if I was such a coward that you say I am then why whould I even post this thread?.....Yes I did something that hurt alot of people and I didn't want that to happen....but everyone makes mistakes in their live at some point....this was just one of my mistakes....I didn't mean to hurt anybody....I'm truley sorry and I hope that you don't stay mad at me Ashley....But for as long as you are mad and angry at me for what I did, well all I can say is I'm truley sorry and that I still love you very much and would never want to hurt you like that....I guess I hurt you and many others.....and it only makes me realize what an asshole I am for hurting, offending or even making someone feel sorry for me ....I don't really care if what people think of me after the fact, I care about letting everyone on P&Q know about the true me.....and I'm sorry for not doing that from the start....all I have to say is this is the true me, and if you don't like me for who I am, and for what I have done and helped many people then all I have to say is that.....well I'm truely sorry for my actions...and I'm truely sorry for having hurt or offended any of you....

Joe

Joe...
I dont know if i can forgive you ...I will try... Its just that everyone i get close to these days...rip my heart apart..and hurt me in some way...i wish you could have been truthful to begin with...i could see us being great friends..but now i dont know what to beileve when you say something..You will have to earn back my trust...and WE well have to work on our friendship.
-Ashley.

I understand how that is....caring and true friends are hard to find these days...but I am willing to do what ever it takes to make you trust me agian...once agian I am truely sorry for everthing that I put you though.

~Joe~

Well, seen as tho i've been banned from the chat for no frigging reason, i'll just say something here. FFS why are people so forgiving...."oooh sorry what i told you about ym life was a lie please forgive me" ffs you cant forgive someone just like that, they have to bloody well work for it an earn it...sorry joe but you fooled me too, so i'm a little annoyed....people may think i'm a nice guy a great guy..or even a twat..but i accept that becuase when i talk about myself on here i speak the truth....i hate lies becuase like you demonstrated someone always gets hurt....and seen as tho you fooled then hurt one of my best friends...its gonna take you alot of work to gain back any friendship we had........and btw DAMN YOU ADMINS FOR BANNING ME FROM THE CHAT....or at least thats what you think you've done teehee
BTW i was formaly known as Wolfman and Viper ;)