i messed up and he still forgave me

my baby is the sweetest soul you'll ever meet, im an addict to pot and coke and i never tried anythig else till wednesday i tried smoking heroin, i told my boy and he got upset and wrote me a letter (he's in a boys ranch)
i thoguht for sure he would need a break or something cause i mess up alot just like most addicts do, he told me he was just really hurt he says everytime i relapse it hurts him so bad he wonders if i even care about him....he blames himself for some reason i feel soo bad the thing that just made me cry was he begged me to not break my promise AGAIN,he says he could never leave my side . i need to stop messing up i dont deserve him but i want to fix things and make it up so guys anything i can do to make things better

If your bf is in jail -- boys ranch, you already have a break. And you say you don't deserve him?

If you want to make things better then work on yourself and find a way to clean up and sober up. As long as your life is about drugs, you can't fix anything and you won't be headed anywhere but downward.