If this is life then KILL ME GRRRRRRRRR

OMG WOW,
I've just had a big argument with my mom and then she saw my friend type a swear word on msn and she said how im grounded for life thing is i've been grounded my whole life, she never lets me do anything and I'm so upset right now im close to showing her one of my poems about suicide etc and telling her this is what life is about and how i feel but she'll just send me to a hospital thinking i need treatment, I have never been so scared in my life, i just want to die like right now or sleep and never wake, my mom she thinks she knows me but she doesent and im so tired of this life that i lead i dont know why i feel this waybut I do why cant i be normal grr

Are there any online websites that can help kids right away, kinda like the kids help phone but online so my mom wont see,
Please anyone :( im on the edge

sweety i do feel for you understand that..but don't you think you're being slighty over dramatic? i mean yeah it sucks to have an over protective mom, but she only protects you because she loves you, even though it may not seem like it. besides there are people out there who have it so much worse than you do, you and i both know that. i mean what about the people, who have parents who hit them, parents how lock them in there room for days without food, parents who sexually abuse their kids...you got off lucky. i just wish you could see that. as for your problem, like taylor said parents do freak out sometimes, and yes your mom will get over it, and things will get better eventually, just remember that. i wish you good luck, and hope things in your life start to have a better outlook.
-dominique

http://www.kidspeace.org/websites.htm#teencentral

Look over the above page and then click on TeenCentral.Net

This rec is a trial balloon and not coming from personal experience. But based on its description, it's worth a try.

Your parents undoubtedly have good intentions but I'm sensing that they place a priority on strict authority instead of fostering understanding and open communication. That's probably why you say your mom doesn't know you. You don't feel comfortable discussing your feelings or personal issues with your parents because of fear that they will respond judgmentally.

Having been on both sides of the the the table and seen the experiences of others, I know that extremes of authoritative or permissive parenting can both lead to dreadful consequences. Anyway,sorry this has got you down and I wish you well as always.

My mom keeps saying how I dont understand god dammnit i wanna shove a poem in her face and tell her everything BUT I KNOW THAT WILL JUST GET ME TO EVEN MORE TROUBLE AND IM SO TIRED OF CRYING Shes hurting me so much why cant she realise that

I think you should write something to your parents or your mom but not anything that can be taken as being confrontational or highly alarming.

u know what.. i face that kind of problems with my parents everyday, they have been lowering my self esteem ever since i can rememebr and i tried to talk to them about it two nights ago and it didnt work...

they have no idea what goes on in my life, even what courses im taking and who my best friend is.. or whether or not i even hav a boyfriend... but hang in there??

life sucks.. yes.. sometimes we just lose our logic and sanity... my boyfriend has completely lost his, he tried to suicide twice, im trying to not let him break up with me but he's pushing me away.. my parents are idiots and they make me work... i can't even help my own boyfriend.. and he's almost getting to a point where he's gonna suicide anytime, anywhere... i dont noe wut to do?

but no matter how bad things are.. try to hold on, keep your logic and sannity... you never know when your friends or family members or boyfriend or girlfriend needs you the most...

anyways.. good luck to you?