im going to cry if i dont find it

ok it is a poem about a lil boy he talks bout his mom not likeing him and it says he wrote her a letter and in it he said that he found her gun and like towards the end he says i have places one last kiss between the sheets of the note and it ends with....was i really that bad? thats all i remember but plz plz plz contact me if u can find it it will mean so so much to me thanks AMBER