teenage poetry contest

  • InvisibleGurl
    19 years ago

    Hiya Andrew!

    Cheers for making this contest! :)

    Start to Death.
    by InvisibleGurl

    I know what it feels like
    To have know one there.
    I know what it feels like
    To know that no one cares.

    I go through the same old
    Hell everyday,
    It's not like anything
    Is ever gonna be okay.

    My life is shattered,
    In little pieces they fall,
    And in my heart I feel,
    I just want to end it all.

    The sadness engulfs me,
    Like a fog on the beach,
    I'm slowly drifting away,
    To a place they can't reach.

    I swallow the pills,
    It seems to numb my pain,
    Nothing hurts, but I'm cold.
    I can feel the rain.

    I can also hear people screaming,
    People tugging at my hand,
    As if they could pull my soul
    back to the land

    Too late now,
    I see a bright light,
    My mind isn't struggling,
    Not putting up a fight.

    Everything's shutting down,
    I can hear people crying,
    I take one last breath,
    And then begin my path to dying.

    ~~~~~

    All my poems are dedicated to my friends because they inspire me, and they mean the world to me. This is about how I feel sometimes.

    Please vote and comment
    Thank you for reading

    * Yup, will check out some of your poems :)

    Tata for now,
    Laterz,
    Shirlz

  • lostlllsoul
    19 years ago

    A picture lays on the table
    As color begins to fade away
    Memories of us are still fresh
    As if we just took it today

    It seemed like so long ago
    When we would sit down and chat
    We used to get into so much trouble
    We were the happiest little brats

    Best friends forever
    Together till the end
    We were there there for each other
    Your sorrows I would mend

    We grew up together
    Time flew so fast
    Despite the changes in surroundings
    Our friendship had no contrast

    We were joined at the hips
    All the people would say
    But it broke my heart
    To see you go away

    You took away your life
    It was too hard for you
    You couldn't take it anymore
    So your life you threw

    I still remembered that night
    You cried on the phone
    You didn't know what to do
    You felt so alone

    I rushed over to you
    I knew something was wrong
    You used to be so cheery
    You used to be so strong

    I found you on the floor
    Your body lifeless and cold
    A little knife by your side
    A letter in your hand I started to unfold

    Smothered in blood
    Told the story trapped inside
    The pain you felt
    The tears you've cried

    I held you in my arms
    You looked so pale
    My angel
    You've turned so frail

    That memory broke my heart
    One year has passed
    But you're still my angel
    Our friendship will last

  • Grotesque Angel
    19 years ago

    1700's

    Saints not sinners do us in,
    Burning us beyond the skin,
    Faith in that which don't exist,
    Purging us with iron fist

    Trial is a sided fight,
    We will be dead by end of night,
    Removing us like a cancer,
    Now we'll see the starlit dancer

    Light the torchs,
    Tie the knots,
    Pile the bodies,
    Load the shots

    Whichever way our death might come,
    Next day you'll see a crimson sun,
    Throw the ashes to a ditch,
    What it takes to be a witch

  • Avrii Monrielle
    19 years ago

    Hey, im only 12 and it's a hobby. Glad to have something in common :) ya, thanks for making this.

    wait... sweetenigma has a very interesting point. my age doesn't end in "teen" .... am i disqualified?!?!
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    The Wings That Carry You

    How we used to cry, laugh, tease
    Everything and anything at our fingertips
    How we would plan the future, share the past
    The truth that never decayed

    I believed every single word
    I know you did too
    One day I will find the same
    Wings that carry you

    I know you're out there
    That you'll wait for me
    It's good to feel
    That life is so sweet

    Life is but a dream
    I still remember that
    I hope this dream never ends
    For it holds my last fantasy

    How beautiful it is
    To see true paradise
    I will tell you all about it
    I know you're listening

    The rainbowed shilouettes
    I saw after last night's dream
    Where are you?
    Do you miss me?

    I know one day
    We will reunite
    You're mine
    For all of time

    And though you are strong and cannot break
    I want you to know
    I'll catch ahold of you and hold onto your wings
    For you cannot fly without me

    One day...
    I'll meet you again
    It's God's wings that carry you
    And if you fly, fly to me
    And carry me
    Subdue me
    Continue me
    For the last bit of eternity

    I will live on your own breath
    For you sacrificed your life
    For silly little me
    I appreciate that, I really do

    How freedom caressed my tender heart
    As you snuck in and broke my chains
    I remember the moment you were caught
    Your voice crying out in pain

    You left in a love for me
    I won't forget that
    One day you too will be free
    In the lasting moment
    When I reach your feathered wings

    I've heard so many stories
    Of how up there clouds never go astray
    The sun never sets but the moon does neither
    I won't forget this in any way
    I've heard the food is plentiful
    That nothing costs a cent
    I have heard the time there
    Is never harshly spent
    Someone told me about the glistening white robes
    They reserve for all up there
    One day I too will visit
    And remain with all of time for us to share

  • Chrissers
    19 years ago

    yeh, me bad ppl. its fixed now, it is steph's poem i jst thot she wasnt gunna pst it , and i wnt her to show off her work. i ment to say sumthin, but i gess she beat meh 2 it. sory again.

  • Void
    19 years ago

    I sit in my corner,
    cold and alone.
    I wonder, when mommy,
    will you come back home?
    Demons surround me,
    I don't know what to do.
    They tell me I'm worthless,
    That I mean nothing to you.
    I'm starting to listen closer,
    I hear the whisper of the ghosts.
    Now that you don't care,
    they don't need you as their host.
    They're moving onto me,
    They're trying to take my heart.
    The love I felt for you,
    started fading from the start.
    I can't hide under your skin anymore.
    I broke free this time,
    I have someone to show me they care.
    He loves me no matter what,
    and hurting me - he'd never dare.
    The ghosts are no longer with me,
    now that you are gone.
    The demons have moved on,
    Now that I'm safe - they're done.
    For I'm hiding underneath his skin now.

  • Drew Gold
    19 years ago

    PINK ELE-PHANTS

  • Falling Up
    19 years ago

    Hey.. my poem is titled "Last First Kiss"

    Never in my life,
    Had I felt as good as this
    it was a love short lived,
    Which ill forever miss.

    For a moment in time
    The world had stopped moving
    I was caught in the best
    What then, was I proving?

    It was all so cliche,
    How fast he had my heart,
    But things dont last forever
    How soon, it was torn apart.

    I just dont understand what happened
    It seemed so perfect, or so I thought,
    We kissed that night ,
    It just seemed so right,
    To me, it really meant a lot.

    After that night, I waited so long
    To hear his voice once more,
    But he avoided me, and forgot I could feel
    It was his last walk out of my door.

    When we used to hang out,
    Hed tell me how shy I would be
    And to just say what I was feeling inside
    But its not me, its him
    That needs to grow up and see
    That his silence just makes me cry

    I just want him to say, why he left me this way
    Without a single word of goodbye
    His truthful words would have caused hurt feelings
    But his silence hurts more than a lie.

    I just long for the day to see him again
    To show him the hurt hes endured to my soul
    To make him realize, what hes done to my heart
    The piece ill never get back, which he stole.

    When I see him around I Hope he realizes
    He lost the best thing he could have had,
    But I want him so much,
    despite how he broke my heart,
    for eternity, ill forever be sad.

    But I wont say a word
    I will just let him slip away
    What I thought I had, I have lost
    Hes gone from my life,
    Its something Ill forever miss
    Ill always remember him.
    And our Last, first kiss.

  • Falling Up
    19 years ago

    Steph and Chrissers poems are exactly the same!! obviously one of them plagurized.....

  • Void
    19 years ago

    um it's my poem, chrissers is my best friend and he didn't think id post up here, if you dont believe me go to our poems list, he's not a writer and my poem has been there for days. But it's not his fault, he was just trying to help me out I think... we're sorry bout that *eye rolling smily*

  • SSSAAMMMYY
    19 years ago

    Life is't Fair Mommy...

    Sitting here
    Screaming inside
    Trying to find a way to escape
    Waiting for a light to shine through
    Something..Someone..to tell her everything will be ok...
    What if no one comes?
    Will she make it through the day?
    She sits in this dark room
    With a knife in her hand
    Ready to take her life away
    Ready to leave this madness
    Leave all her sadness behind
    The time has come
    No one is here
    It's time for her to face her fear
    She lifts the knife
    Slit's her wrist
    Knowing that she won't be missed
    Blood starts flowing
    Her face begins glowing
    Death she's face's head on
    Hoping that it will help her move on
    Lifeless she is on the floor
    The door creaks upon
    Walks in a little girl
    Mommy she's whispers
    Are you okay?
    Mommy talk to me
    Tell me you all right
    The girl notices a note on the door
    Reads it quickley then falls on the floor
    Mommy how could you do this to me?
    Leave me all alone...
    Who is gonna be there now that you're gone
    I'm sorry mommy that you thought I didn't care....
    I guess....life just isn't fair....

  • Barbara
    19 years ago

    Help Me
    by Barbara

    I took those pills,
    so I wouldn't have to see this place again.
    I wanted this to be over.
    No longer would I have to worry for my family and friends.

    But I still remained here.
    Trapped on this earth.
    Why did I have to stay at this place?
    No longer did I want a rebirth.

    I just wanted to die.
    Just end the suffering, loss and pain.
    I have lost so much.
    There is nothing left to gain.

    Why did he send me back?
    Why couldn't I stay up there?
    I just wanted to have a time of peace.
    I was so tired of being so scared.

    All I thought was,
    When will the next tragedy take place?
    When will I have to feel more pain?
    When will I finally be replaced?

    There are millions of people on this world.
    Why couldn't they just let me go?
    Please just show some mercy.
    I'll stay here, just let Nana be shown.

    I want so badly to see her again.
    Her and grandpa, too.
    I know they are long past, but please
    perform a miracle and let me see those two.

    I'll cross a thousand mountains.
    Run a thousand miles.
    Go through one thousand losses.
    If only I could see their smiles.

    My heart is bleeding.
    I feel this never ending pain.
    But please make it worth something.
    Let me see them on a day of rain.

    No longer will I complain for what I've lost.
    I'll be happy for what I have to gain.
    I'll recognize the goodness
    that has come from what almost drove me insane.

    Just let me see them again.
    Just for a second, to help me become renewed.
    And I'll look to the peace on this earth.
    Instead of hating all the feuds.

  • Sarah Ashley
    19 years ago

    Dear Mom...

    Where were you when I first learned to ride my bike?
    When I met the first guy i ever really liked
    When i got my very first Teddy bear
    Did you ever even really care?
    Ya you gave me a few birthday gifts
    but where were you when i learned to play my first guitar riff?
    Where were you when I broke my wrist
    Or when i got my very first kiss
    All of these impotent things you missed
    My first steps, my first word
    you never even heard
    My first laugh, my first cry
    All these things just passed you by
    I bet your always their to wipe your other daughters tears
    chase away all of her fears
    as loving to her as you can be
    but you were never their for me
    They say actions speak louder than words
    words from you I have not heard
    It's these actions that i judge you by
    Twelve years of my life was one big lie
    I have never heard form you
    No not one hello
    no I love yous so it must not be so
    All i have is a picture and a birthday card
    so pushing you out of my life shouldn't be to hard
    because you were never there
    Now tell me why should I care?

    From
    ~The daughter you could of had

  • alwaysremeniceus
    19 years ago

    Winter Concert
    by alwaysremenice us

    Another winter concert,
    on this cold December night,
    just a glance in the darkness,
    was just quite a fright.

    the senior band was up first,
    she wasn't nervous or scared,
    she's gotten used to this, plus they rehearsed,
    her watch strikes 7 then curtains go up.

    the vice principal said all the intros,
    lights turn on,
    here they go,
    once again, just another winter concert.

    in her mind she remembers,
    they just fought two nights ago,
    what may happen,
    they don't know.

    they start to play their pieces,
    she tries to play her part,
    but then she saw a shadow,
    which moved her heart.

    he sat there in a distance,
    almost blending in with the dark,
    they could never imagine this influence,
    just because of seeing him.

    she feels so close to him,
    yet they're so far apart,
    she just wants to hug him,
    tell him she loves him from the bottom of her heart.

    the senior band portion ends,
    she puts her things away,
    then runs toward the bend,
    up the stairs and into the dark theater.

    she stands by the door,
    his friends see her,
    she kneels on the floor,
    looking at his back again.

    exactly 25 days ago,
    at her favorite mall,
    still fighting, but without all the extra burdens,
    how she misses how they were before this fall.

    he's with his friends,
    she looks at him from 10 feet away,
    he turns around and looks at her,
    both thinking of their silly ways.

    their eyes meet for one moment,
    it felt like time just froze,
    like their love is at full blossom,
    as beautiful as a rose.

    that winter concert,
    she'll never forget moment,
    when everything froze,
    she'll always smile and remember how it felt, even under this torment.

    ===============
    another poem dedicated to my boyfriend...
    this just happened a few hours ago...
    winter concert 2005...
    x.x

  • BrokenMisery
    19 years ago

    Heading Home [Song Lyrics]

    Where is the light?
    What became of the peace?
    When I'm standing in the shadow of this beast, looking at what I've become.

    Moving forward,
    Steps foot by foot in line.
    Traveling a journey on this road in wait of a sign, searching for the sun.

    On this road,
    In this life,
    On this journey,
    We'll find the light.

    And I'm walking along the road,
    So that I can reach you.
    But I need to make it to the end.
    Still walking along this road,
    To where you'll be at my side.
    I'm heading home; will I ever see the end?

    Shadows masking the way,
    Reflecting stone hearts.
    In a constant battle for mortal peace in innocent eyes.
    Love forgotten.
    Dark finds us,
    To kill us.
    Living in dead bodies has become a mortal hobby,
    Through the eyes of the beholder.

    On this road,
    In this life,
    On this journey,
    We'll find the light.

    And I'm walking along the road,
    So that I can reach you.
    But I need to make it to the end.
    Still walking along this road,
    To where you'll be at my side.
    I'm heading home; will I ever see the end?

    Can you see the peace,
    Inside yourself?
    In your broken heart?

    Can you find the path,
    Inside yourself?
    In your broken heart?

    Inside,
    In your heart,
    In your mind,
    Is your path.
    Inside,
    Within you,
    You can make it home.

    And I'm walking along the road,
    So that I can reach you.
    But I need to make it to the end.
    Still walking along this road,
    To where you'll be at my side.
    I'm heading home; will I ever see the end?

    Can see you in the distance.
    I've found the light inside me.
    Finding you has made me,
    Whole again.
    I've made the distance,
    My heart has been cleansed,
    Now that I'm home again.

    Inside,
    In your heart,
    Within you,
    You can make it home.

  • Vickie
    19 years ago

    Darkness Falls

    The streets talk
    the walls listen
    Shadows walk
    As the moon glistens

    your are my night my day
    the light that guides my way
    My everything my nothing
    My nothing my something

    The sun rises and falls
    As destiny calls
    But no one cares
    Therefore no ones there

    Voices whisper
    And things disappear
    You don't miss her
    Until shes not there

    Mother nature is waiting
    and time is fading
    A mystery awaits
    But first you must ponder the stakes

    Watchful eyes await
    As temptations grow
    Some are real some are fake
    And some youll never know

    Moral is low
    Everything is touch and go
    Evil hides with in the night
    Relief comes with the light

    The walls listen
    As the streets talk
    As the moon glistens
    Shadows walk

  • ShadowedPhoenix
    19 years ago

    Heaven's Gate

    I'm standing at heavens gate,
    praying to be let in but they say it's to late,
    the sin's I've committed cannot be erased
    and in heaven I can no longer stay.

    I asked to see God
    and they said he wasn't there....
    I don't understand it,
    They said he'd always care??

    They said I'd had my chance,
    But I messed it up again!
    That God doesn't want me,
    I do injustice to his name!!!

    I said I was sorry,
    I begged for forgiveness,
    They said it won't happen,
    I'd made too many mistakes.

    If only I could make God listen
    Then he'd tell them it'd fine,
    That I am a Christian
    And my afterlife is his this time!!

    But no one can hear me,
    although I'm screaming so loud,
    My voices is echoing
    *But they're not hearing a sound!!

    PLEASE let me in,
    I need to see God!!!
    Surely he'll listen
    And get me past heavens guards....

    They telling me these stories,
    stories of what I'd done
    But I don't remember doing that??
    They must be doing it just for fun!

    I tell them they lying
    BUT they swear they tell the truth,
    how can I stop them?
    When they don't even listen to you...

    But now I'm on my knees, Begging..
    "God please forgive me, Let me in???
    Destroy this demons that live within,
    "they" trying to kill me, Lord!!
    PLEASE DON"T LET ME DIE!!!"

  • Puerto_Rican_Chick
    19 years ago

    .:*Thoughts Of A Girl With A Dieing Heart*:.

    What has brought this pain upon me?
    because the cause i cannot see.
    im so broke down in many pieces,
    when will the end to this pain finally meet?

    i would do anything to leave this world,
    and drift off into mine,
    but what is imaginary cant be real.
    what way out can i find?

    my hopes and dreams came crashing down
    many years ago.
    im scared, beat up... in black and blues
    cause of the many times i've been thrown.

    what if i just left this world
    in a bloody suicide?
    would it make the weight of a ton go off?
    between the depression and glee was i able to decide?

    in every aspect of my life i hurt...
    and i have yet to find anything to ease my pain.
    how much more strength to go on do i have?
    do i have the strength to go another day?

    i know with the days that are passing
    my heart rate is slowing down.
    no one can help me at this point cause by tomorrow
    my body is going to be buried 6 ft. underground.
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    i know it aint all that but its one of my personal fav.z! =)

  • Puerto_Rican_Chick
    19 years ago

    BTW, when does this contest end???

    Much Love,

    .:*La Boricua*:.

  • AlexJ
    19 years ago

    treacherous thoughts:

    Giving in for the temptation
    to reach the realms of reality
    finding a path to purity
    and know the true sensation

    Searching for the suffering
    knowing what you'll find
    the sweetness of peace of mind
    From the fear of never ending

    Treacherous is the cynical voice
    chanting verses in you're head
    forsaken, all that's good is dead
    A silence extinguish the hypnotic noise

    Vaguely you are waking up
    from custody of life's construction
    the consequence is self destruction
    for ignorance you're signing up

  • Avrii Monrielle
    19 years ago

    please start judging

  • Puerto_Rican_Chick
    18 years ago

    i know. come on!!!!

  • Puerto_Rican_Chick
    18 years ago

    can you have more than two poems???

  • pseudo
    18 years ago

    Beauty lies within

    We all have a little insecurity,
    Something that we do not like
    But know you were made special
    And we're not all alike

    We were all made unique
    So we shouldn't live in fear
    Of what other people think
    And everything you hear

    Not everyone's judgments
    Are always precise
    You have a choice
    To listen to their advice

    It doesn't mean to change yourself
    Because the way you are is fine
    When you show your true colours
    That is when you truly shine

    It doesn't matter what you look like
    Or what people think and say
    Acting like yourself
    Will make it a better day

    You don't have to pretend
    Or be fake, at all
    You should be someone you're proud of
    And be able to stand tall

    No need for to cover up
    To hide your minor flaws
    Your inner beauty will shine through
    And it will show all and all.

    It's your qualities that truly count
    Your talents and personality
    It's your actions and words
    And your originality

    People who are your friends
    Should like you for who you are
    You shouldn't have to be like them
    Just to be a star

    So be who you are
    And don't tell lies
    To be comfortable with yourself
    You can't wear a disguise

    In the end it doesn't matter
    So be comfortable in you own skin
    They're not all judging you so,
    Always remember beauty lies within.

    --emotionless19

  • Puerto_Rican_Chick
    18 years ago

    ANDREW!!!! start judging this foweken... conest!!!!

  • Puerto_Rican_Chick
    18 years ago

    ANDREW!!! COME ON, HUN.

  • Avrii Monrielle
    18 years ago

    yo andrew.

    judge or the bunnies will get you.

    LOL > . > JUST HAD T O S A Y That :))

  • Wasted Fake Smiles
    18 years ago

    lol wow now im glad i 4got 2 enter this...it looks like another contest is left unjudged...*sniffle* what a waste

    ~*Who Cares?*~

  • just a poet
    18 years ago

    Inside her soul i look,
    she stares back at me,
    tears fill her eyes,
    worse can never be.

    her Friend's have deserted her,
    they have stabbed her in the back,
    after all she has done for them,
    this is how they say their thanks.

    she stood up for them no matter what,
    she stayed strong,
    on her shoulder they cried,
    but no matter now,
    they have made it clear,
    they have left her for another.

    her best Friend tried to steal her man from her,
    after a while she succeeded,
    her other friend has a spaz,
    and made her seem like a monster.

    while she alone and in need of help,
    they all let her be,
    not one of them asked her how she was,
    the other had their blessings,
    but she never heard their pleas.

    they try to get back with me,
    pretend nothing is wrong,
    but i know all that they have done,
    and i cannot go one.

    so as i look at that beautiful girl,
    whose soul has been broken,
    whose trust has been lost,
    whose kindness has been hidden.

    i realize i am looking at,
    nothing but a mirror,
    and back at me stares my reflection,
    her eyes filled with so much doubt,
    the only thing being evident,
    the pain within her soul!

  • Anna
    18 years ago

    Addiction To Love

    Shes Longing To Sink Into His Eyes
    She Wants To Feel Comfort If She Cries
    She Wants To Be Shield From All The Noise
    Just By Means Of His Gentle Voice.

    Shes Longing To Stroke Through His Hair
    She Wants To Give All She Could Share
    She Wants To Be Touched On Her Skin
    As A Sign Of All The Hopes They Pin.

    Shes Longing To Warm Up In His Arms
    She Wants To Be Spared All The Harms
    She Wants That He Cannot Get Enough
    Because She Is Addicted To His Love.

  • nobody truly knows me
    18 years ago

    ok, here's my poem, i hope you like it.

    broken

    your words slice through me
    sharp as a knife
    my blissful happiness is gone
    because of this strife
    each day is the same
    you break me, then put me back together
    i'll go in my room to hide
    when i come out, you act like you don't remember
    you don't see how hurt i am
    even though it's so clear
    and no matter how many times i cry
    you don't see a single tear
    you don't understand how much pain you cause me
    you'll never understand my sorrow
    you don't know how many times i pray
    that it'll be better tomorrow
    but it'll never be better
    for when i think there's finally peace
    it's all torn away
    it comes to a cease
    i end up broken
    just like before
    all the suffering i've gone through
    i'll go through once more
    i wish you'd stop this yelling
    it makes me feel like such a failure
    you don't realize what you're doing
    my life is becoming my nightmare
    my memories are haunting me
    i'm restless every night
    i cannot fall asleep
    all i can do is cry
    the next day you come up to me
    you put me together again
    then you say you're sorry
    and you think you've been forgiven
    but there's something different now
    something is not right
    for a piece of me is missing
    one that's beyond your sight
    i feel like all my true happiness is gone
    i'm in this deep depression
    but nobody will ever know this
    for i'm lying and pretending
    i'll never show how i really feel
    unless you're someone i trust
    you'll never see a single tear shed
    in public my pain turns to dust
    but no matter what i lead you to believe
    inside i am crying silently
    for i know if things keep going this way
    my nightmare will become my reality

  • BrokenMisery
    18 years ago

    um hello..?!?! it doesnt take 6 days to judge a contest...

  • confused!! (Jenn)
    18 years ago

    The fight that changed our lives
    I hear the yelling and screaming
    I feel the vibrations of the banging
    I hear the screams of bad words coming
    From your mouth
    I hear you say I am leaving and not coming back
    You can’t leave just like that you have kids
    What are you going to do for the kids?
    How do you think we will feel?
    Bet you don’t even care
    Care that I am hear crying
    Care that you are about to walk out of 4 different kids life
    But you didn’t even think that we needed you
    That we loved you
    You leave with out saying bye
    Hear I am the oldest child
    Your first daughter
    Crying cause you are walking out my life
    Then you see me running after you
    Yelling mommy don’t leave please don’t leave me
    You stop and say Jenn I love you and all your brothers and sisters
    Don’t forget that
    You drive off and just leave me crying
    Do you really love me?
    Cause if you did you will not have left me
    Now hear I am and I’m needing a mom
    We all need a mom
    How is Gillian and Chloe going to grow up?
    With out a mom to go to
    Am I supposed to take that role?
    The role of a mother when I am not ready
    I walk back in the house and I look at daddy
    I see he is crying just sitting on the sofa and crying
    I bet you did not even know that this man loved you
    Loved you enough that the next thing I know is that
    He was getting in the car coming after you
    That day you did not come back
    But please do know that he is still looking
    Looking for you; he has not stopped and it’s been
    Over a year
    Moms wherever you are he wont stop looking for you
    Mom you were wrong to leave I was not ready for this mother job
    I was not ready to be on my own with out a mother
    You were wrong when you said that dad did not love you
    He does love you and that’s why he is out till this day looking for you
    Mom we all love and miss you and we all hate that you left but we all
    Forgave you so please come back come back for the kids come back for dad
    Do it for the family I don’t want the role of a mother when I am still in need
    For a mother and Gillian and Chloe including me needs our real mother around
    We need you mom cant you see that we all miss and love and forgave you for leaving but now we need you around I hope you see this poem because it’s coming from my hart and all I can say now is
    PLEASE COME BACK WE NEED YOU

  • Once an Angel
    18 years ago

    Suicide Through Someone else's Eyes
    by Tainted Mikochan

    Before I died I prayed last night
    prayed to God I'd win my fight
    Asked him to save me from this pain
    To give me strength to break my chains
    I waited, searching for some signal or sound
    To prove my pray had been heard and found.
    I waited for my eternity until I was done
    as my passions and pains finally won.
    The effort of breathing was too much for me
    My vision was fading, distantly blurry
    Because I had returned to my self-harm
    I hollowed out further, deeper into my arm
    Until I realized I had sliced too deep
    Left to only watch my bloody arm seep
    Dripping away my life, letting it drain
    I smirked, too numb to feel the pain
    Dying there behind my locked door.
    Unfound, sprawled upon my bedroom floor.
    I closed my eyes, and peacefully died
    Un-bottling the pain I had held deep inside
    My soul departed from my body of icy stone
    leaving my bedroom, where I died alone
    after I faded, people shockingly shed tears,
    some were strangers, some were peers
    I was confused and astonished supremely
    At awe of the continuous tears falling for me
    I watched people mourn away the days
    Confounded by their sorrowful ways
    I saw them lay my empty shell in rest
    Crying over my unfinished life quest
    I left them there, ascending to the sky
    Passing the shards of my existence by
    Wings forcibly spouted from my back
    Yet their coloring was strangely black
    I flew through heaven and drifted to hell
    Realizing I had become an angel who fell
    Then God called me to his heavenly hall
    Showing me the ripple effects of my self fall
    Friends and family raw, swollen and torn
    My children forever remaining unborn
    A lover now eternally without his wife
    Simply because I had decided to end my life
    God told me there was nothing I had gained
    From destroying my life to end temporal pain.