Crying all the time..

I dont even know where to start. I dont even know why im writing this...
9 months ago i fell in love...
My girlfriends parents were completely againt our relationship because it was a "lesbian" relationship. Gradually we began to see each other less and less.Her dad banned her from speaking to me,seeing me even saying my name in public.I was lucky to even see her walk past me.For months i waited and waited in the hope that one day i would get her back.Soon the pain started getting worse...as her parents decided this wasnt enough. I got emails , threats and they started telling the world i was a psyco.Stupidly i told no one.Kept it all in for 4months straight. Aged 15 i had a nervous breakdown.I didnt sleep for days on end...id talk to myself...cut myself and scream for no apprent reason.No one to this day knows everything that happened.
9 months on...
Ive fallen head over hills in love again...made new friends..At times been very happy indeed
But for 9 months i have cried myself to sleep everynight...i still sit in the dark for hours on end when i get home from college and think. I dont see me ever breaking from this routine..it has become my life....
Im running out of things to do
And recently me and my current love split up causing even more heartache...
I dont know why im saying all of this..
but i need to let it out
x

hey, wow. it sure sounds like you've been having a really tough time. I myself have a boyfriend whose parents hate me (though i know and realize your relationship with the girl is different from mine... ^-^) I dont think it's fair for parents to interfere with something if it's true love, you know? And i have a feeling that if you were crying yourself to sleep at night and cutting, this girl must have obviously meant something to you. I know you dont know me, but i'd really be intrested in talking to you more. Send me an e-mail if you'd like my IM and stuff. PM me, whatever you want.

It's not fair that life has to suck so much. To me, it's like there are more bad things than good right now.

My boyfriend and i are hoping for the best. we've already decided that we aren't going to let some stupid parents break us up after our 2 years of dating.

who knows... maybe we have a future together.

keep your head up. be strong. good luck.

xoxox