I Need Some Advice..

Damn girl! don't be sorry you had to tell someone, just releive yourself a little bit. I think we all understand.
Don't be sad for your grandma.. that se doesn't have to long left. Celebrate her life! and the precious learning gift she passed on to you.. If she would read what she means to you, I think she will understand why she whiped away your tear.
You didn't waste three minutes of my life.. you gave me something to think about.
I am sorry for what you're going through, I hope you will be okay.
And realising you don't have a clue who I am, you can talk.. I'm a good listener.

love,
~*TasH*~

Dont be sorry..the minutes it took me to read your post have made me think hard about my family life and how id hate to be in the same situation... its so hard to loose a relative. And even harder if that relative is someone you love and care for.

Just from the way you spoke about her.. tellling us how you love visiting her and the things she used to say I can tell that you have soo many happy memorys. It brought a tear to my eye (no joke)

You need to cling to those memorys.. remember your gran for the loving caring person she seemed to be.

I am soo sorry that she is ill.. all my love goes to you =)

And like the above person said you dont know me.. but feel free to talk... im sure everyone will listen, your story will makea lot of people think about relationships and life and how easily it can slip away...

Love always... hope things soon get better for you

Kate x~X~x

hey gurl dont be sorry, things take alot out of us

That's almost exactly the same thing that happened to me. I had to go and say goodbye to her with tubes and stuff all over her. She wa so drugged up on morphine I don't think she even knew who I was properly. It was heart breaking. That was five years ago, and since she died a few days after that, I still havn't been able to cry about it. It'll get better trust me, the hurt never really goes away and I still can't look at pictures of her, but it eases up, I promise. Keep strong, you'll get through. If you want to talk about it, send me an email.

Hun it only took me 2 minutes to read it, and it wasn't a waste. Both of my grandmother's died of cancer.
I beleive you have the right mind set. I know you can handle this. You are remembering the good things, like her peacefull house, and you being her favourite/only. If you keep that up, you will do okay. You're grandmother does not want you to be sad, she wants you to be happy that she lived such a vital life.
And this is cliche but, she will never leave you because you'll keep her in your heart.

By the way...Doctor's don't know shit all. If you're grandmother is as vital as you say she is I think she will last more than weeks hun. She seems like a fighter. If she doesn't last longer than you can think of it as not a surrender, but acceptance. When a person accepts death I beleive that they have looked back on their life and seen no regrets. I beleive they are satisfied that they have lead a fine life and have said all that they feel they need to their friends and family. After that comes peace.

So don't think that she was scared, don't think that you should be comforting her. Accept it as she inevitably will. It will only make you suffer more if you think of her dying too young, and being afraid of death. I have no idea if half of what I just said even makes sense to you, but I'm known for my tiraids :D
~*Ley*~

I'm glad you get to sit and talk with her, and that little girl sounds so cute. :D You seem like a sweet person, just like your gram! :) Tell her I'm rooting for her :D
~*Ley*~

AWWWWWW!!!!!!! that is so sad(tear)

aww i'm so sorry :'( that brought tears to my eyes. keep strong
~Sami