What to do..

I have to admit something. With all the problems I have with my bf right now...it's because I've found that I want so much more from life. I used to be sad and depressed for about 2 years. But somewhere along the line I've found something to help me through and now I have my confidence back. My bf has helped me with a lot of it, in fact, we helped each other. But somehow...I find myself wanting more than I think he could give me...I feel as if I'm being selfish by wanting more out of life. It's just...everything is getting better and I want to take him with me in my new life but...he's holding me back with the drama he brings.

How do I know that even if I did find someone else, what makes me think that he will be any better. Time changes a person, so even if it was perfect at the start...things change, they always change, and sometimes, it's for the worse.

Don't get me wrong....I love him...a lot. I know you're probably thinking 'if you love him so much, then why are you even thinking about this in the first place?' Honestly...I don't know. This whole thing was kinda pointless...but at the same time...releaving.

You know what this sounds like to me? You're maturing. And your boyfriend isnt. if there is more in life, that you want to experiance, to enjoy, if he is holding you back. tell him. end the relationship. but stay friends of course. and go out and explore. in time you can come back, and maybe review the relationship, maybe while you were away he also matured, maybe then he will give you what you want in life, or maybe you will find someone better.

Okay, I know you how feel. And if you think that your BF is holding you back from what you desire, then you should tell him this. You should explain this to him, and maybe he can help. If not, then I advise you to break up with him. Although you may not want to, it is for the best. You can find someone who you can relate with and who understands your needs. Hopeful it all works out.

Merry Christmas,
Jennifer.

Thanks, and Merry Christmas to you too. And everyone else :)