I'm So Hurt...♥

I'm So Alone In a Room Full Of People, In a Crowd Of Friends I'm Alone, I Can't Explain How It Feels To Think You've Conquered Depression...Just To Be Torn Away From Hobbies You Love, And Isolate Yourself From The People You Love....Noone Understands How Bad It Feels To Be Me....It Hurts Like Hell And When I Need My Friends The Most They Turn Their Backs...When They Need Me Most I Open My Heart, I'm a Good Person, I'm Smart, Ambitious, Talanted, And Hurt :'(

aww Nikki.. I feel similarly to you... hope things start looking up for you soon *hugs* court

i feel like that 2 i mean i just wanna scream when that happens and its crazy and it is hard to explain. and my friends are somewat the same like when i really really need them they are not there for me and then when they need my help i am just supposed to jump at their every problem. some people just dont understand wat we go through sometimes, they think its just a way to get attention but its not

"just as some people set themselves up to be used and abused"

HUH?!?!?! you think people "set themselves up" to be abused? kids? children? babies??? they set themselves up????! lordy.

nikki huni, everyone feels like this at one point in their lives babe, and if they didnt, i would be suprised. the first thing you should remember is that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. So many people are going through the same thing as you and hope isnt over cause so many people will be willing to help you, as friends and as professionals.
Noone is perfect, and trying to get to that point will leave destruction in its path, as ur trying for perfection, looking for perfection in yourself and in other people, u will miss all the things happening while ur striving for happiness/perfection.

Happiness isnt a complicated thing, its hidden deep within everybody and sumtimes, people who have experianced pure sadness, can feel the happiness more, can feel it stronger, because they udnerstand it, they have seen what being hurt is, and they have fought for their own happiness, thus making it mean more to them, does that make sense hun???

I know things are hard, and im afraid there isnt a magic cure for it, some people will tell u to "lift ur head up" and "smile" but u no, sometimes u forget how to smile, and smiling when u dont feel happy is lying to yourself in my opinion.

Depression can be cured, it can hurt mentally AND physically, so take care of yourself, ur body, ur mind, take an hour each day just for YOU time. Make urself feel fabulous, girlie stuff u no? Take care of urself, thats probably the 1st thing u can do. After ur feeling fabulous, ur bound to feel better.

obviously that isnt a long term solution, but its the short solutions tht build up eventually to the long term =)

Friends are people who should look after you when u find urself lost or alone, and if ur friends are havin trouble doing that, all u have to do is talk to them. im sure if u tell them ur feeling unhappy, they will stick by you. U should organize something fun and keep urself busy, but at the same time, once a day, have alone time, to think, talk, write, anything, its important to have that time.

I truly hope things get better for you, but if ur friends still dont realize ur unhappiness u can always talk to me k? feel better

irresistible_999@hotmail.com

~Georgi

LMAO Bob you so tastefully respond.

It is hard to feel so lonely, and it happens to a lot of people. Try focusing on positive things and find a good friend you feel comfortable with to talk abou this stuff. Don't let it go, but try to rise above it and conquer your depressive mind set. It is not easy and often involves the assistance of others. Keep trying baby! Keep trying!

-Tainted Mikochan

*Hugs* Thank-u Everyone :) I'm Still Upset But I Have More Things To Worry About, My Mom Is Not Feeling Well....So I'm Throwing My Hurt Aside To Tend To Hers *Lots Of Love* -Nikk

no one knows how it feels... its true actually. cuz everyone feels differently in these situations. Sometimes we think our friends turn their backs on us because they dont know what to say. Their scared because they've never delt with a situation like this. They Don't want to NOT be there for us, its that they dont know how. Sometimes we have to tell them "I need you to listen to everything I have to say" or "I need a hug"... ya know. They can't know how to handle everything.

Sometiems its all just in your mind. You think you dont belong, you think your friends dont care... This is when you need professional help. If you really are depressed then you should be seeing counsellors or takin depressants.. whatever your doctor recomends until your back to ur normal self.

Hope I've helped...

You Are a Big Help, I'm Taking Welbutrin XL, But I've Currently Stoped Taking It Because Of Bad Side Affects, I Go To a Counsler Every Six Months And It Seems As If I've Improved Immensly, Thats Why I Don't See How I Could Have Another Depression Attack :( But I Guess Everything Happens For a Reason *Thanks 2 Everyone Who Gave Awesome Advice...Just Keep Me In Your Prayers* ♥-Nikk

Hey Nikki, umm truthfully, I've seen you alot on this site, you're on my favourites and you've commented my poems and...well as weird as this may sound, you're like a friend to me. You're alot like my sister, you have no idea, so I care about you - even if you are a stranger. I know that's weird, but well, I can't explain it... and I don't like that you feel the way you do. But I understand depression, and sometimes staying on your medication, is the best thing to do. And when you start feeling like you do now, one thing that we did for my sister was take her to the movies. Even tho she said she didnt want to go, we took her to nights on the town and showed her things to be happy about. So as much as you feel like you're alone with people, maybe if you just interact with them and see a funny movie. I know it's not that easy, but it's a good start to distract you and put a smile on your face. There's so much around you to be greatful for, believe me when I say that. The attack will subside sooner or later, and until then you just have to show it who's boss of your emotions ;)... Anyway, like I said, I know it's harder than that, but I know you can do it. Keep your chin up as best you can! luv and hugs. -stefhy

I'm Such An Emotional Person And Steph You Just Made Me Cry *Hugs* My Mom Scared Me When She Was Sick And Now Shes Feeling Better, And I Will Take Your Advice I Love You So Much Stephy, Your Not a Stranger To Me Your a Friend *With All My Love And Graditude* :) xoxo-Nikki-xoxo

Ruby: *Hugs And Kisses* Thank-U So Much...U Don't Know How Much I Needed To Hear That

Nikki...

If all the world was perfect, we'd have a cure for suffering...
But since a lot of people don't know how you feel,
And if they could, which I know they would,
Those with kind hearts would hug you closely

Till then, remember God never lets go of you or anyone you love when it's your turn to fall.

Also, I'm here for moral support! You're a nice person, Nikki! Don't feel bad!

*Hugs,
Rainy~

P.S.
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We all £ove ¥ou...≥∞♥

I know how you feel. I'm trying to get through my depression, just know people do care. If you ever need some one to talk to just E-mail me.
Kali
Sora@bresnan.net

:) *Hugs & All My Love* Its Good To Know I Have People Like You All Who Care :) :) :)

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