Why?

Why do people end up letting me down? When I think that there is actually ONE person that will understand me, they don't and I'm left with nothing. "I'll always be there for you" - Ha, my ass you will. How many times do I have to hear that before it actually becomes true? Haven't I heard it enough already?

I'm not the type of person that is depressed all the time. I try to have fun, I really try. But at times it's not possible. All I wantto do is live life, and I manage that sometimes. Sometimes, not always.

All I need is for someone, just one person to be there, but there isn't. I'm asking for SO much aren't I?

Anyway, Sorry for wasting your time.

I know how you feel i had a friend and she said no matter what she would be here for me and when i was down she said the most awesome thing that got you back on your feet and than suddenly it was like she was just there and she didnt need me nemore and i still needed her and i dont know what to do she was everything i needed to live and now she doesnt care and if she does she doesnt act like it It hurt so bad it was like it tore apart of me apart the part that depended on her for everything she was gone just like that it was like in the blink of an eye. she was a lot older than me 26 years apart and we bonded so well cuz it was like she was the mom i never had. and it was like noing my mom didnt care all over again..and it hurt so bad well ima out before i cry XXX

To be blunt, that really sucks. I"m sure everyone understands what you are going through one way or another, and like everyone you will get over it, and it wont be the last time it happens. Like the person above me said, don't let it stop you. keep caring, keep yourself out there, cause everytime someone hurts you, you will grow a little bit stronger, a little bit understanding, and one day there is going to be a person out there that needs YOU and you will be there for them, and because they never thought anyone would be there for them, they will be there for you.

Thanx guys, I appreciate your advice. Well...I've just lost that friendship, or am going to. He was one of the people I thought would be there - I thought wrong. It does hurt, a lot. But I understand what you mean by making me stronger. I won't be making the same mistakes again. I still care about lots of other people, I won't stop.
xxx