Depression...

Hey guys, I need some advice because I am getin really sick of being depressed ALWAYS, but I can't not be.

IN Nov. 2004, my singing teacher died, after me being with her for 7 years, and then that same week my grandpa was diagnosed (sp?) with cancer.

Plus, at school people make fun of me for one reason or another, and now its getting to me to where i just sit in my room and eat, which means I am gaining weight, which then makes me more depressed.

On top off all this, I've only had 2 boyfriends in my entire life, and I just semi-resently broke up with one that i went out with for 4 months, and he has already replaced me like he didn't even care.

The only reason we broke up was because my grandma and mom forced us apart.

I went to coucelling for a couple months, but it didnt work because i had to stop because my family is very tight on money now.

So does anyone have any advice as to what to do to get my life back to how it was?

~*Who Cares?*~

Im sry for your losses my grandfather died about a year ago and its still hard but...what i have learned is that you cant keep the death of them with you, it takes to much energy out of you.

dont worry about the boyfriend thing, I know people that havent even had a boyfriend and they are 15. You have a long time to find the right one so just take it easy.

High School drama...as you get older you seem to not give a shit on what people say because its pointless and immature. You only have to deal with those types of peopel for so long and than it will get easy.

They have hotline numbers you can call for free and the your school probleby has people you are able to talk to.

If you need to talk anymore just say the word!
Julie

I agree darling
You need an attitude readjustment sister.
When your singing teacher passed away and your grandfather was dianosed with cancer you've taken negatively and reacted selfishly. You should be thinking how precious life is and how much at 15 you should be appreciating it. You should be thanking the good Lord for your health and that your grandfather has lived a happy life and has the strength to fight this cancer with the love and support of the great friends and family like yourself he has around.
The glass is hlaf full darling and you chose to let it affect you badly like you can choose to turn that negative into a positive.
As for boys your 15, relax have fun and enjoy being young...boys will continue to come and go from your life and your heart more than you can evern begin to comprehend these days.

Hunny boys are idiots at in high school anyways, wait till the mature more and you will have a better relationship. As far as help you could talk to you school counselor and see if she will agree to see you or knows some free help group or something you can join. You sound like you have had a few struggles but there are positive things too. Help yourself by focusing on those and not the things that have been bad. Death happens, a person dies every few seconds, just be glad it is not you. Life your life like it is almost gone and that can really put things in prospective.

-Tainted Mikochan

I went through a drepression stage when i was about 13 and it lasted until i just turned 15. People here have given you good advice because what I did was change my perspective on life. Appreciate what you have. I know that sounds so cliche but it's true hun. I think that depression kicks in when too many unfortunate events happen too quickly. It's more then you can handle. Just don't let it keep you down. Fight back and keep in there.

Kayla R.