anyone else feel like this sometimes...

sometimes when i am thinking i feel like i need a guy who cuts or self injures himself instead of a guy who doesnt. Because i feel like none of the guys im with completely get it or me. It hurts me because i feel abd and guilty. Its bad to think that i want a guy who hurts himself the way i do but i feel like its the only way for a guy to completely udnerstand me.

has anyone else ever though things like this, that they needed a partner who self injured?? please help me

lots of love
*~*Becky*~*

yes, but not completely the same. i dun cut, i did once...but i didnt anymore, but i feel like i need someone more depressed-ish, because that way they understand the reason i am how i am...but i dun get boyfriends much, so i guess i aint 2 pikki...

~*Who Cares?*~

i dont get them much either and the oens i get arent good lol. thank you very much for saying something and letting em know i am alone i felt very abd for feeling like this.

more post's would be very greatly appreciated

lots of love
*~*Becky*~*

I just want a guy who loves me because then they should be able to accept you for the things you do. If he loves you then he will be there for you. Not judge you. Everyone has a past, a secret. Its whether your strong enough and brave enough to share that with them.

If they love you, they'll understand.

Most of the time depressive people are too locked inside themselves, scared and hiding, that although they would be able to sympathize with your pain they would be too locked in their won to help you so much.

Of course, you could help each other, but when you both ran and hide who would help you?
So I think that a happy, cheerful boyfriend who could cheer me up and make me laugh, which I sincerely need, would be better.

My thoughts.

//Truest Lies//

thanxe everyone!!!! well i have a guy that loves me for everything i am and everything im not. and i love him the same but still sometimes i still feel like i want a guy who cuts himself. and i feel so guilty. but you all helped me feel slightly betetr about it thanks so much but i would still lieks some mroe feedback specially if your someone who feels the same way. thjanks bunches

lots of love
*~*Becky*~*

When I met my bf we both cut. We were there for each other and he gave me the will power to stop. We both stop & are still together. I think you just want someone to understand and it would be a lot better if it could be someone that you could hold and be with....

I forgot where I was going with this....

Kayla R.

thank you very much kayla. that also helped me because you understand what i am tlakign about. lol and dont worry about trailing off it didnt bother me.

lots of love
*~*Becky*~*

P.S everyone who has left a post here i have commented atleast one comment on one poem as my thank you. =)

well... hmm... i don't knowo you so i'm not sure how you think, but if you cut, i think you wouldn't want a boyfriend who does... i think its even harder to stop that way...

i began cutting a little less than 2 years ago after my boyfriend dumped me, but throughout that time til now, he's pretty much always been there for me anyways, and he never cutted.

about 7 and a half months ago, we got back together, and things are going quite well, a lot has happened, but we got through it some how... last month though, he started to push me away a lot because he felt like his parents might arrange for him to get engaged with this rich girl from singapore(neither of our parents know that we're together), and i didn't find out about this til my friend actually saw him at the mall with her and she was hanging on to him and everything..

i got jealous and made a big fuss out of it, and while he was pushing me away, i knew he was hurting, but nont only that, he started hurting so uch for various reasons that he started cutting, which i found was quite ironic since he almost died in 2 car accidents within the past year and also helped me to stop cut...

but anyways, its hard to help someone stop cutting or hurting themselves, especially if you plan to be quite dependent on them... it was very difficult for me to just try to deal with other things in my life like school, i stopped doing my homework, everything i did for about a week and a half was all just passing, which is a big difference since i normally get A's and B's...

but yeah, my point is, i guess cutting is a horrible thing, but maybe you can try to open up a bit more and maybe try to talk to someone you trust until they do understand? but i really hope you won't get into a situation where the person you love and depend on starts hurting himself... because when he started cutting, i freaked out and couldn't sleep or eat... then he overdosed on sleeping pills and well... then i started to cut again, even though he helped me to stop cutting for over a year...

-kelsie

wow, thank you soo muchf or that Kelsie

i really dont want the guy i love to start cutting its just more kinda like an inner fnatasy that i something you would never imagine you would ever come true, you know?

I dunno but im sorry and happy for youe expierence with your boyfriend. I hope you two are okay now.

lots of love
*~*Becky*~*

well, I'm not a cutter, but I know guys, especially when they're younger and immature, as a general rule, don't understand girls. they must be properly trained in such matters. so talking and opening up and giving clear and defined actions you want from him, are necessary in building a relationship.

ur welcome, i hoped it helped?
well, anyasy, personally even as a fantasy i don't think its exactly healthy just to think of it, sometimes we tell our selves fantasies so much that well, we actually want them to come true too much, and start falling into denial??

and hmm, yeah we were ok until last night x.x lol... i hate it when he starts hurting himself emotionally so much! and for anyone who thinks that more pain will numb the pain, whether its physical or emotional, it does not work!! and well, it hurts the other person a lot to while u're hurting urself, u're also hurting them, a lot...

anyways... yeah :P
-kelsie