I feel like I'm losing my mind

I have slowly been sinking into the clutches of anorexia and now I can't get out. I haven't lost really any weight, but then yesterday I saw I had lost 5 pounds. I have been struggling against this for about a year, but now I don't see a point. I just need someone to talk to who might possibly understand me. I cut too, and have tried suicide and still think about it sometimes. I feel lost in this world where no one understands me and Ana is becoming my best friend, always there in my head. I feel like I'm going crazy!

I'm listening if you would like to talk more about it.

Thank you so much for responding. There isn't really much more to say abou tit though. I feel dizzy and basically didn't eat anything today and the little i did eat i purged most of. I am basically living off of water and fruit. Anything with few or no calories. In a way, I want to keep doing this but in another way I wish there was a way I could stop. It's like my mind and actions are being controlled, not by me but by someone who is constantly telling me I'm not good enough and need to control what I eat.

I know what you mean. It is so hard to fight when there is someone telling you what to do. I can't say "go and eat something" for one, I know that she is the strongest voice you'll hear, and also it would make me a hypocrite.

If you feel that this is serious and it seems like you don't want to let it take over then I suggest that you try to tell someone who will try to understand and let them help you. It might seem like everyone is against you and what you are tryng to achieve but I feel that you know it's not the right way to go and if you want help you have to be brave and defy her.

I know it's hard but keep fighting this, you have done very well for even admitting you have a problem, and to know that you want it to stop. Sometimes it takes a lot more strength to eat than it does to fight the hunger pains.

I have been seeing a councelor since last June but it doesn't seem to be helping. Thank you so much for your advice. and for listening to me.

heya,
if u email www.mental_wellbeing.co.uk

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~Georgi

I am fighting anorexia as well.
It was actually just today that I realized/found out something,
It's okay to eat food, you won't eat a bag of chips and then go on the scale and see that you have gained 5 pounds, It's actually proven that if you do not eat, aka, become anorexic, you're body will actually blow up, and it will be harder for you to loose weight, and will become easier for you to gain it. Try eating healthier than you would normally, like eating fruits and stuff (shit im sounding like my teachers, hahahaha).
but seriously, starving yourself doesn't help,
i hope that helped as much for you as it did for me.

Thanx. Yea I am trying to eat helthy and I think it's kinda working but lately I have started eating less. I'm not really sure why but I just have. It's almost like I sont' want to get better, but at the same time I do. I eat basically no sugar and that has helped me a little. That whole thing about starving making your body more likely to gain weight actually does make sense I just need to make myself believe that starving isn't the way.