Everything was good...keyword: was.

My life was a complete mess at one time and I worked so hard to get it to where I am now. I've overcome cutting after 2 years of it and I helped get through things with my father. My father and I used to never get along and at one point our fights began to get physical. I looked past our differences and worked with it. My boyfriend who I am still with helped me through most of this and he's been a huge impact on my life. But the past month everything has gone completely down hill. My boyfriend and I started fighting and about 3 days ago it just got so bad that we ended it. We were both devastated but at the same time, confused. We got back together yesterday and I thought it would be a whole new beginning. But today... he just started yelling at me and I feel that things have gone back to the way they used to be. I've never felt so heartbroken in my life. Love is such a strong word for me...but I really believe that I love him. I'm feeling more depressed than I've ever felt before.

I guess what I'm saying is that I just really need someone down to earth and nonjudgemental to talk to. Anyone?

my msn is afi_rocks_x@hotmail.com

Thanks everyone.

-Kayla

I'm going through a break up with my boyfriend myself and it is not easy. Mainly because i still love him so much and it just seemed so easy for him to get over me. I think if you really love this guy, you should sit him down, talk about it, and just tell him. Sometimes that's all someone needs to hear for reassurance. Chances are he loves you too.
-A

Thanks you two for responding. But yes, unfortunately I have experienced heartbreak...it was a bf. I wouldn't exactly say I loved him, but I was very fond of him. We spent about 13 months together and for the most part...it was okay. Towards the end I will admit that it was a complete disaster. emphasis on complete. The bf I am with now, we've been together for a year now but our reltaionship is so much different from my last. this relationship is like everything I've ever dreamed of and more. It's unbelievable... for the most part.

I know I'm only 15 and I have so much more to learn and see...but I like what I have right now and I'd do anything to keep from losing it. I can't even begin to explain why I feel that I love him, it's just too complicated to put into words. I've been trying to write a decent poem about it ever since we've been going out and they're okay but not great.

hmm, well i seem to have lost my thought process...:S sorry.

-Kayla-