Breaking Down

I've lost a lot of friends because of death. And then every day I'm compared to, to one of my friends about how hot she is and how I'll never be like her. I'm starting to think that I may not be all I'm up to be. I help out a lot of people andget a thank you for it. But sometimes when I'm in my room I feel like just breaking down. I sound like a child because of it but its not my fault. I break down a lot I haven't for a few weeks because I've been able to keep myself occupied but now everything is coming at a rush and I just want to break down and cry. Can any of you give me feed back on what I should do so I won't break down? And won't cut myself?

Ok well first of all, everyone at one point in their life feel like breaking down. I'm sure there's people out there with better reasons than the next person, but it doesn't mean that they're problems are any less important. Thing is though, some people deal with it by keeping to themselves and occupying themselves at every chance they get - and it works for them. But sometimes it's just not suppose to work that way. Sometimes the best thing you can do is break down just like you want to. Stop putting ona fake smile, take a day off school or work, have a day to yourself. Go for a walk somewhere where you can think, think about yourself and why you feel this way. Think about possible reasons it could be this way and if you can fix it. Think if it's worth getting upset over. If at the end you still feel like you have plausible reason to break down and the pressure you feel is still there, then for your own sake, cry scream and run like a wild boar lol. You can choose to do this one someones shoulder ifyou want, or all by yourself... And it might take more than just one break down, you might find yourself doing this for the next few nights, just crying within yourself. But, when it's needed it's needed. You have to take care of yourself and listen to what your body/emotions are telling you. If your legs want to give way and fall down, then do it (carefully), if you feel tears a'coming, then get where you want to be, have what you want to have with you and cry a little. Anyway, I'm sure you get the point. All the best to you, I hope things start looking up. xxx

Definitely, breaking down can sometimes be the best thing that ever happened to you. there's only one way you can go from there, up! So, I agree with the above^^^ Go with it. Just remember to keep moving on, slow and steady. Figure what you want, and how and when you can go about getting it. Don't try to do everything at once, don't feel like you need to have control, and don't ignore your friends. These are some things I wish I'd listened to when I was younger.

Thank's, but I care every night for four hours and it doesn't do me any good. I've lost 6 good friends because of death. And I'm loosing more every day and its killing me. I see a doctor every two weeks for my medical condition... Thank you for the advice. It'll do me some good. I help people all the time and feel great about it. And sometimes I feel that other peoples problems are worse then mine even though I was abused almost raped and the deaths that have killed me... I'll break down soon. Thank's again for the advice!

i know exactly how you feel, and I don't know what I can say to make you feel any better except that braking down gets rid of alot of emotion but the only thing you can do is try not to let it build up again, maybe there is someone you can talk to about how you feel? even if its just writing down your thoughts can help sometimes. I hope this helps you
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I have 5 doctors on my case.. But them trying to help me isn't helping. Thats why my friend gave me this site. So people can read my poems and see how I really feel... Even though my poem first kiss didn't really happen it happened to a friend of mine. Thank's for the advice again ^_^