I've had enough.

That's it. I've had enough of my body. I've just been watching a programme about people losing weight and it's made me realise how much I hate myself and my body. I used to have an eating problem, a few years back I practically starved myself and lost so much weight, but if truth be told I don't feel ashamed of that or think it a mistake. It was the best I felt about myself in a long time. Looking at pictures from a couple of years ago, I can't help noticing how much thinner I am, and it's not inspiring me to go on a diet (I don't eat that unhealthily anyway), but it prompts me to go back to how I used to be, and not eat. I don't know what I want to get out of posting this .. maybe just to vent, I don't know.

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dont its not worth it

kim i know exactly how u feel. Trying on clothes at the mall just makes me depressed now and every single day i plan what im going eat and if i shd eat at all. Im trying to eat healthy but to be honest all i wanna do is stop eating, because....well it works doesnt it. Im sorry to give u the wrong advice, i just know where ur coming from.....

~Georgi

Na it's not the wrong advice. Well it is ... but it's ok. Yeah it's horrible. And everywhere I look there's a mirror and it haunts me. Yeah it works and that's the thing. It's bad yes, but it made me feel great about myself.

Well, to answer to the above, there's a reason for that. The 'Normal' people don't know what it feels like to be over weight and looked at differently. I mean, a little bit of a stomach makes a difference between what group of people are going to include you, a first kiss, a crush or any romantic life/friend life at all. That is why we're (yes I'm overweight) less happy. However, I do have a boyfriend, and it has definatley made me realize that I am who i am and I should be proud of it.
I once had thoughts like that, and I thought about it more - got information and everything, and soon noticed that it just isnt worth it to try and do it the fast way. When you starve yourself, you end up getting so sick that you have to eat before you die sooner or later anyway.And at that time, you will have destroyed your metabolism, thus you're only going to put the weight right back on. When you're older you'll find that you can't eat an apple without gaining a pound. And if it's not that outcome, it's the outcome that you are forever sick through your life and just basically stay so skinny that it's unhealthy and unattracted.
Note for all of us who think we're overweight: it's a proven statistic that those of us with a little extra tummy are preferred (for guys and girls, and other people that could make a significant difference in your life) to that of someone who is so skinny they're circulation gets cut off.
Anyway, I just wanted to say, if you don't like your body, excercise, eat right, drink Alot Of Water, sweat whenever you get the chance (even if it doesn't mean excercising, go to a sauna even) and Drink Alot of Water. It's the best way to do it, you get healthy, happy and look fantastic. It takes time though, so don't give up... Keep picturing what you want, and for gawsh sakes go for it!!! Best of luck to all :)