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broken

your words slice through me
sharp as a knife
my blissful happiness is gone
because of this strife
each day is the same
you break me, then put me back together
i'll go in my room to hide
when i come out, you act like you don't remember
you don't see how hurt i am
even though it's so clear
and no matter how many times i cry
you don't see a single tear
you don't understand how much pain you cause me
you'll never understand my sorrow
you don't know how many times i pray
that it'll be better tomorrow
but it'll never be better
for when i think there's finally peace
it's all torn away
it comes to a cease
i end up broken
just like before
all the suffering i've gone through
i'll go through once more
i wish you'd stop this yelling
it makes me feel like such a failure
you don't realize what you're doing
my life is becoming my nightmare
my memories are haunting me
i'm restless every night
i cannot fall asleep
all i can do is cry
the next day you come up to me
you put me together again
then you say you're sorry
and you think you've been forgiven
but there's something different now
something is not right
for a piece of me is missing
one that's beyond your sight
i feel like all my true happiness is gone
i'm in this deep depression
but nobody will ever know this
for i'm lying and pretending
i'll never show how i really feel
unless you're someone i trust
you'll never see a single tear shed
in public my pain turns to dust
but no matter what i lead you to believe
inside i am crying silently
for i know if things keep going this way
my nightmare will become my reality

Oh, Grim Reaper have I not suffered enough?

Oh, Grim Reaper have I not suffered enough?
Come take this pathetic soul to a better place.
Oh, Grim Reaper have I not suffered enough?
I have been rejected countless times and cried out in pain from which it has caused.
Oh, Grim Reaper have I not suffered enough?
I am ready for this shell to be put in its eternal resting place in the ground and to be forgotten and never found or missed.
Oh, Grim Reaper have I not suffered enough?
Please I beg of you Sir Grim Reaper end all my pain and take me to my better place.

This is not goodbye
by Tabby

Crying by his bedside my tears flow endlessly
I held his hand so tightly never wanting to let go
Trying to not think about what is about to be
I look up at him trying to not let my sadness show

His eyes are closed his breathing is slow and heavy
I run my hands through his thick, dark, brown hair
His handsome face is so pale with the color gray
That I begin to cry even harder thinking it isn't fair

Sickness is taking my true love away from me
Draining away his energy happiness and light
But not stealing our love away from each other
That is the one thing that he was able to fight

His eyes slowly open and he turns toward me
He smiles a weak smile and touches my cheek
I feel myself breakdown and burst into sobs
trying to say don't die but I could no longer speak

he grabs my hand and pulls me to him
reaching for my face he brings me into a kiss
then he hugs me with such a weak embrace
I hug him so tight never wanting to end this

Suddenly he lets go I pull myself slowly up
He looks at me with such sadness in his eyes
"I love you sweetheart"he says to me
"I love you but there will be no goodbyes"

"I love you to" I sob into his shoulder
I lay on his chest hearing his heart as I cry
I feel his breathing slowly fade away
As i sob to myself I say "its ok this is not goodbye".....

Soon to be forgotten
by Marjan

Hours fly by
At a speed oh so high
Another page is turned
Someone’s life has burned
Just an unimportant figure
In an old wooden frame
Soon to be forgotten
Through the shades of time
Through the mist of mind
Hidden behind a veil of dust
Another time, another place
A new year to face
I can feel a shiver
down in my stomach
an electric shock
that is sent through my body
trying to wake me up
shakes me
brings me to an understanding
sound of raindrops
reminds me of each passing second
another time, another day,
another year gone
another person to be born
a new day is begun.

Memories.

Yesterday seems so far ago.
We try to focus on today,
Looking at past times,
Hoping time won't fade away

Looking at this crumpled photo,
Thinking where has the time gone,
These past years have been a blast.
I guess I knew this all along.

Even when I had my bad days.
We know we all have our share.
Thinking about how life's so hard,
And how reality can be so unfair.

But it wasn't all like that,
We always made it through,
The hard times and pain,
So we had good days too.

Flipping back thru the pages,
I see faces of my old classmates.
I wonder what happened to them,
I hope their lives are great.

Looking through my pictures,
Brings back visions from the past.
Days that seemed to never end
Memories that would always last.

And as I sort through my stuff,
I think "wow things have changed."
But we know things don't last forever.
And that lifestyles have their range.

But as we travel back to the past
We feel our happiness and pain.
And reflect how we feel today.
Do think you'd do it again?

It's true we've come a long way.
We never regret what we did
Whether it was trouble or schemes.
After all you were only a kid.

So cherish those memories,
Because you can't relive the past.
Even though you can't go back,
You can always make them last.

--emotionless19.*

Goodbye
by Tara Kay

So many days we spent together,
I thought that we'd be forever.

I cry for you feeling lost and lonely now
I cry for you you're still the one and only for me.
I can't work out what went wrong and How,
And all the love I had for you will never be free.

You are always and forever in my heart,
It is full of emptiness and long lasting Pain.
Each day that you and I are apart,
I wish you was here with me again.

I tell you, how my heart is broken too,
From any corner of the world, I let you know,
That I am still in love with you.
And I can never ever let you go.

Wasn't I always there for you and wasn't I good to you?
I guess you never even thought about how I would feel.
I know that everything I'm saying right now is so true,
And I know the love that is in my heart is forever real.

I think I'm better of moving away and dying,
Because I know that you and I will never be.
And I'm on my bended knee and I'm crying,
crying won't you come back to me.

I've given up trying to work this out,
So open up your ears a listen to what I have to say,
I don't want to have to shout,
But I know you wont listen any other way.

You are the one that I have loved forever,
And you are the one that broke my heart in two,
Because you and I cannot be together,
I just miss you.

You told me you loved me, you told me a lie,
This world of mine is so empty without our love,
You made me sad and made me cry,
And when I die I will be loving you from above.

I don't know how I can let go,
Stop my heart from missing you,
But all that I really know,
Is that everything that's in my heart is true.

The time has cone to move on,
I really can't work out why,
Your love for me has gone,
All I have to do is say goodbye.

My Religious Affair (Villanelle)

My heart, a graveyard of lovers dead
My prayer mat is near the bedpost
What is my religion but a shrine to her bed?

Get me some food” my goddess lewdly said
A mere slave I am, addicted to beauty and sex
My heart, a graveyard of lovers dead.

A month ago I was truly in love, Cupid arrow stabbed
My heart fluttering, our love was developing but now
What is my religion but a shrine to her bed?

I gave her something men often dread
The power, O sweet power, once taken she changed
My heart, a graveyard of lovers dead.

Where is my food” she angrily said
I’m coming, my love” I calmly replied
What is my religion but a shrine to her bed?

Oh I miss those days, the days of a budding rapport
Now turned twisted, and became a master and slave liaison
My heart, a graveyard of lovers dead
What is my religion but a shrine to her bed?

"My Once Best Friend"

I was always there
But you never saw
And one day I'll leave
Then you'll miss me.

I may be known as one of the guys
But I'm a girl with feelings deep inside
I want you to care for me, to notice me
I'm more than a best friend to you, can't you see?

Whenever you were down
I always cared.
Whenever you needed help
I was always there
When times were tough, we stuck through
Like best friends should, I thought you knew?

But I guess this friendship that we had
Meant more to me than it meant to you
You brushed me off like a fly
And took your place on the popular side

At school I was laughed and teased at
Having 'kick me' signs on my back
You never came to help me
Just walked right by me like you didn't see.

How could you throw away what we had?
Did you enjoy seeing me sad?
I remember how it use to be
When we shared our fears and delights
You were so close to me
Oh....how can I make things right?

Should I change my looks?
Should I lose some pounds?
Should I go blonde?
And turn my whole life around.

I will always be there, from beginning to end
But you shall never know
And by the time you comprehend
You'll know that you were too slow.

I'm fading like a falling star
Going out like a drunken cigar
I try once again, to be your friend
But my attempts go in vain and I'm friendless once again.

Soon I'll be gone and then you shall see
Of all the pain you inflicted upon me
I swear to the Gods that one day you'll pay
Come crawling to my grave, praying that I forgave....

I was always there
But you never saw
And now that I'm dead
You miss me as a friend.

thanks kristen!!!

thanks again

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